shoot today went great. damn jan emil is an amazing photographer. we got two very good sets out of it, and if none of them gets accepted, at least i have some amazing pictures for my own use.

thanks to sussi for going with me, and not laughing too hard at me

thanks to jan emil for spending a hole day shooting with me for free, when you get paid normally. and thanks for the amazing piccies. you keep impressing me

and a huge thank to my sis, that probably won't read this. but who incidentially provided, without knowing, 1/3 of the clothes and props for the sets. lol.

and the studio was SO cool. and on the first floor some of the studios for the danish tv show "krøniken" were. kind of cool walking trough a set i have seen on tv. hehe.

this was the best photography experience i have had so far. and no, i didn't freeze my ass of today either

hopefully i will get the pics soon, so i can decide what set to send in, and start renaming the pics and get them on a cd. and then you will hopefully all get to see me nekkid soon again.

around two pm:
i don't know what the hell just happened. i got up, got dressed, got ready to go to class. and then suddenly i got overwhelmed by the feeling of meeting other people today. i just want to crawl back into bed, and hide, and hope it gets better on it self. right now, i just cant face the people in class. it scares me that my mood is this unstable. i thought i was finally getting better.

i am so mad at myself. i need to go to classes and study. i want to. but right now, i just can't make myself do it.

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sleeping helped a bit. hopefully i will be able to face people tomorrow. i need to go to my classes. i feel so guilty every time i miss one. and i have felt a lot of guilt this semester. *sigh*