Well...whatever complaint I previously had is now forgotten. Anyways, new job is going smoothly and it is enjoyable. Although I have been missing out on a bit lately but I do enjoy my alone time, reading and watching movies. At least I tell myself that I am ok with it. Truth is it is lonely has hell. I get moving late in the afternoon, get to work by 4 or 5 and am working until 1 or 2am and if I stay late or get motivated on something then I am there to 4am. I love it but then I get home and don't feel like cooking and am not too tired and I just lay there in bed. So yeah. Maybe I'm just not used to it yet or maybe it will get better. Sometimes my schedule shifts if edit bays are open earlier. Then I get to get out by 10pm maybe and have an evening out.

Mom's birthday is this weekend and I am heading out to the suburbs Saturday for a nice little outing AND hopefully picking up my new Blackberry. I previously had one but it was work issued from my other job. So I have been sans Blackberry for 3 months now and I do miss having it. Other than that I just hope my miserable, cynical mood lightens up a bit because I have been a real downer lately. A realist, yes but a downer still. It has been a long time since I was that dreamer, head in the clouds, everything is possible...what happened to that guy?

Need to sleep, much to discuss, more to come...good, bad, upsetting and otherwise. Night.

So new job is going great. And not just great but I absolutely love it! I am still getting used to the hours but damn if I don't think it is awesome! Everyone is really great and I can edit in peace at night without too many people around. Downside though is that their Avid systems are a little behind the times. I am actually having to learn backwards on some things. I am getting way to geeky here but the Boris effects are so old, that I have never actually worked on that version before, I have only worked on version 4 and above which has an entirely different interface. And most of the PC's are more than a little bogged down and the Interplay system seems a little off. But having never worked in Interplay before I am excited to learn.

Regardless the show is fun. It is like play time for me being able to come up with wacky sound effects and tons of layers of effects and things for a simple half hour kids show. And from what I gather the kids, and parents, absolutely love this program nationwide. And this is my first national TV show now which is also pretty exciting. I have worked on local TV programs, PBS series, feature films, and numerous other video production but nothing nationally distributed. So kind of fun.

As for this weekend...blah. Plans with a girl fell apart and I think that might just be about it on that front unfortunately. I don't know if anything will come of it, crap. Everyone is pretty busy this weekend and I am getting sick of going out by myself. But none of my other friends seem to have money to go out nor the desire. It sucks. I hope something comes up, and that includes me...Ha ha ...ha...ha, oh never mind.

Ok, starting to feel better about this week now. Maybe I just needed some coffee. And now...a poop joke.

Well this weekend was great at first and then somewhat of a bust. And I feel like I totally blew it with this really great girl and that has brought me down. Couldn't sleep last night at all...and now I am back at work working two full time jobs for the rest of this week until I fully move over to my new job. And now I am concerned about being able to see people during the week and basically leaving my only open night Saturday. I can't wait for this new job but at the same time, I feel like I am missing something as well. I keep thinking about getting back together with an ex but I have to remind myself why I left in the first place. And I am really wanting to meet somebody new but it just hasn't come about yet. I try to remind myself that I just need to get settled in with my new job, get my schedule in order, set up my sessions with my trainer at the gym and get my shit together. I told myself that if I got this job I would get myself together health wise. Anyways I feel like this is all just BS anyways in the grand scheme of things. I am rather pissy right now and don't even know what the hell I am talking about at the moment. Later

So I start my new job next week. Can't wait. I landed the Assistant Director and lead editor for some programs here in Chicago. Finally I get to move forward instead of just hovering around in the same area. This will however alter my social life, if there was one, some what in that I will primarily be working night 5pm to 1am or later 5 days a week. So...This is going to be a whole new change for me. I have been so used to 9 to 5 or there abouts. Regardless this is exactly where I want to be right now and what I want to be doing so yeeah.

Back to the work week...

Nothing too exciting to report, the weekend was kind of a bust overall but I did get a new air conditioner which is awesome! It makes my place so much more comfortable now. I did get the chance to go out with some friends Saturday night and had a pretty good time, rather low key...unlike Friday, jeez. I didn't need another night like that (see previous post)

So...still waiting to go in for the "final" interview which is actually editing with the director on an Avid and I still have to wait for them to get back to me after that. But I have high hopes for this one. I still have to finish editing our latest short film, it is in it's rough form now but I need to clean it up, color correction, shading, audio mix, music etc...Then there are a 3 music videos that I still need to cut as well as start some pre-production on another music video. Scripts are still being written for 3 or 4 new short films as well as the horror comedy feature we are putting together. So things are busy but that is a good thing.

So last night was kind of a bust. 4 different bars/clubs and still never met up with who I was supposed to. She kept moving with her friends and I kept getting to each location late. It was like Where in the Fucking World is Carmen Sandiago! Not to mention that other than the first place I went which is just my local watering hole by my house, Dukes, the crowds at each place were less than desirable. The guys were assholes, shoving their way past everyone. They all had that entitled look about them and would butt in at the bar, push you out of the way, unless you were a cleavagey cutie. Then there were just the straight up drunk young college boys who haven't quite yet figured out pacing and are still at the 0 to 60 phase. Now they are just sloppy and annoying but they DO offer a good setup for me, if they are bothering a girl. That always works great. But the only nice person I met was that first girl and her friend, who was not so nice. Overall the girls at these place were just as self entitled and mean as the guys. Pushing me out of the way...I was laughed at once for buying a girl a drink Another one elbowed me in the face with out so much as a look back There was also the girl who I kindly helped up off of the floor when she fell, and then proceeded to push me away and yell at me.
I'll tell you it was a great self esteem booster last night was.

But luckily I did run into some very dear friends of mine on my way home and sat and chatted with them for a bit. They kind of made the night worth while Then once I got closer to home, there was a cute girl at the 7-11 and I decided "Hey" why not...and screwed that up though and rather than ask for her number I gave her my info...so we will see.

Anyways and interesting start to the weekend...

Still awaiting one more interview for the new job I am really hoping for. I have already gone in three times and met with one of the owners...Come on guys I am just really hoping that this works out. I know that overall things look pretty good, I just can't stand the waiting...plus I really want to give my 2 weeks as soon as possible so I can get a move on. But alas, patience is a virtue that is still growing on me.

Anyways, that has been it really, interviewing and waiting and calls and waiting and so on and so forth. But it is Friday and I don' t know what the weekend has in store for me just yet. No plans but there is plenty going on this weekend, just trying to watch the cash flow though. I have a feeling it may just be a lazy sort of weekend, but I do have an air conditioner coming my way, which will be a nice improvement at my apartment. Also my apartment is in desperate need of cleaning...I mean there is no way I would bring anyone over, it is pretty gross. Well not gross just crap everywhere. Messy...that's it. Anyways I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Wow! It has been some time here...In brief, been very busy. Lot's of new work going on and coming out, see Vimeo for new videos. We have been working with this very talented young singer and performer named Maddi Jane and she has been such a pleasure to work with.

But the BIG news is that I have been aggressively pursued by a TV station/production house here in Chicago and have had two meetings with them so far. I met with one of the owners yesterday and it went extremely well. I am really hoping for this one to work out AND still freelance with my current company and hopefully be able to sock away some bank. I will have no life but I will be working and finally working in an environment where I really want to be and hopefully can excel. I am really excited but still a little nervous about breaking the news, hopefully, to my boss as he and I have just signed some new clients and contracts that I am leading...But I really need to get out of that place as much as possible and work in a real TV studio environment. That would be awesome!!! Plus everyone I met over there seems great! Keeping my fingers crossed until next week when I find out more.