"I don't love a parade."

-SM

Back to to reality on Monday I hope. Weeks into months of isolation and waiting and doubt have made me kind of mad, sure hope I can bounce back into normalcy fast enough to make a good first impression.

Also I've found a need for faith in my life but I don't believe in God. Time alone has made me think a lot.

To all my warcraft friends I hope all is well, my internet is much too aggravating at the moment and I was on the brink of burn out anyway. I'm not canceling my account but I'm not sure when I'll be back.

(Lastly it was -7 degrees out today, and there's a chance for rain on Saturday, what the fuck.)

My life is kind of in a strange limbo right now.

"Best to kill the ones that matter, render blind the ones who see."

Some people really have no redeeming qualities. this makes me sad, some people really don't know how annoying and self centered they are.

The grand irony is I'm sure there are people on this Earth that feel the same way about me.

(but we all know they're just wrong)

"Ruminating on fagot situations." This is the funniest sentence I've heard in a very long time.

Back to the desert for me it seems.

Vacation is over, I had fun, fishing and drinking and playing cards, oh so much fun.

Certain videos on the internets have led me to the conclusion that I want a monkey, I want a monkey very badly.

That is all.

PS - I just added "internets" to my Firefox spell check, thank you George Bush for being a monumental idiot.

PPS - I just realized my last entry was about wanting a dog, I think I'm a little lonely for a pet.

I wish I had a dog, more than anything right now, God I miss my dog...

So on the 4th of July I'll be hitting day 10 of working 10-14 hour days with no days off. I really need a new job, badly, I'm thinking I should go back to school, but with my current job I can't keep any sort of fixed schedule. I'm thinking a two year tech program would be good, I need to get into IT some how and although my family thinks I'm a computer genius, the vastness of the things I don't know is humbling.

The fact is my current job isn't challenging at all, most of my 10 hour day is spent sitting in my car listening to the radio or reading. I think there's more to life but I'm not sure, I worry that I'll be sucked into this industry forever, (parking isn't very glamorous).