I just fell in the shower like if an elderly person had my fall funeral plans would be being made fall. I powned a tension pole that was in the corner with shampoo and soap and all and. It hit fragments out of the ceiling when i knocked the pole down. I was disoriented and had water shooting in my face and ceiling debris all around me. I got up confused and just laughed at myself.
I had an awkward critique today. I felt like everyone was chastising me for taking risks it was ridiculous, that put me in a piss poor mood considering I went to bed at 6am composing a scholarship app that I better get. Then waking up at 10am to set up my piece for a 1:20pm critique. I am so tired.
My life has consisted of work work work no sleep then more work. I need to sleep... but I have too much work to do...
My life has consisted of work work work no sleep then more work. I need to sleep... but I have too much work to do...
One of my pieces came out of the kiln today, looks sick.
Things as far as projects go are clicking into place which is good, gotta get that all in order. Lots of work to do.
Today I went over to a professors house to get some thing from his backyard, he invited me in and offered me a drink. He said go out and collect your shit then leave it out and come back in for another drink >.<. Good whiskey too, Its a good thing I didn't drive back immediately, especially with all the fucking snow going on!
Things as far as projects go are clicking into place which is good, gotta get that all in order. Lots of work to do.
Today I went over to a professors house to get some thing from his backyard, he invited me in and offered me a drink. He said go out and collect your shit then leave it out and come back in for another drink >.<. Good whiskey too, Its a good thing I didn't drive back immediately, especially with all the fucking snow going on!
BUSY BUSY BUSY!
I have to get mad good at welding like... Now
I have to make a book
I have to bend neon.
BUT I pulled an all nighter, I was in the studio from... 3pm to 7am yesterday but I got my shit done. I actually finished it up today which also took quite some time but it looks BOMB! It is falling apart a little but... whatever (a ceramic sculpt of a usb device). My friend is getting back to his room for the first time now since 3pm yesterday. And he only slept for about a few hours or so the night before last! His looks bomb tho, Pics soon.
I have to get mad good at welding like... Now
I have to make a book
I have to bend neon.
BUT I pulled an all nighter, I was in the studio from... 3pm to 7am yesterday but I got my shit done. I actually finished it up today which also took quite some time but it looks BOMB! It is falling apart a little but... whatever (a ceramic sculpt of a usb device). My friend is getting back to his room for the first time now since 3pm yesterday. And he only slept for about a few hours or so the night before last! His looks bomb tho, Pics soon.
This one morning when I had time to post and something to say SG was down... Whores!
I have some time now but forgot what I was going to say.
Being back in school is great so far, Classes are great:
- Ceramic sculpture, fucking sick teacher freedom with assignments, great.
- Sculpture, teacher is a tool, I had some friction with him my freshmen year, but its sculpture, I'll be doing sick shit anyway
- Neon, yeah you got it same stuff you see in every store saying "open" just with art in mind, the teacher is a GOD! He loves me and I love in (platonically). I am super psyched for this class
I just brought a band to the school, helped them set up and everything, fed them, rocked out, cleaned up, and handed them the check at the end. This was all new to me and I did it mostly on my own, I hope next year I get a large budget and rock the schools socks off!
Inspired by Kamikaze I figured I would mention my blood donation experience the day prior. I am of good weight, excellent iron, above the minimum height, and have no fear of needles (I used to be FREAKED OUT, not afraid of seeing them I just didn't want shots, that changed... weird). So I am a perfect candidate for donating double reds. Know what that is? It means they take two pints of just red-blood cells, they separate your platelets and give them back after each pint. I only wanted to donate 1 pint because of the above mentioned situation with the band and the rocking out. I didn't want to be tired, of course just like last time they talked me into it... It was ok tho I didn't feel overly tired. I am up too 1 gallon and 3 pints. Which is approx 1.3 gallons (1 gallon = 8 pints) which is the average amount of blood in the adult male! There was a visiting artist and one of his pieces had that interesting tidbit in the explanation.
New computer is ok...
I fucking hate Vista...
Think that is all for now.
I have some time now but forgot what I was going to say.
Being back in school is great so far, Classes are great:
- Ceramic sculpture, fucking sick teacher freedom with assignments, great.
- Sculpture, teacher is a tool, I had some friction with him my freshmen year, but its sculpture, I'll be doing sick shit anyway
- Neon, yeah you got it same stuff you see in every store saying "open" just with art in mind, the teacher is a GOD! He loves me and I love in (platonically). I am super psyched for this class
I just brought a band to the school, helped them set up and everything, fed them, rocked out, cleaned up, and handed them the check at the end. This was all new to me and I did it mostly on my own, I hope next year I get a large budget and rock the schools socks off!
Inspired by Kamikaze I figured I would mention my blood donation experience the day prior. I am of good weight, excellent iron, above the minimum height, and have no fear of needles (I used to be FREAKED OUT, not afraid of seeing them I just didn't want shots, that changed... weird). So I am a perfect candidate for donating double reds. Know what that is? It means they take two pints of just red-blood cells, they separate your platelets and give them back after each pint. I only wanted to donate 1 pint because of the above mentioned situation with the band and the rocking out. I didn't want to be tired, of course just like last time they talked me into it... It was ok tho I didn't feel overly tired. I am up too 1 gallon and 3 pints. Which is approx 1.3 gallons (1 gallon = 8 pints) which is the average amount of blood in the adult male! There was a visiting artist and one of his pieces had that interesting tidbit in the explanation.
New computer is ok...
I fucking hate Vista...
Think that is all for now.
So far 2008 uneventful. Been playing lots of Halo 3 on my friends Xbox. I got an Xbox live account just to have fun with. My other friend bought a stolen Xbox for $100 and it broke eventually like they all do. He had just left it lying around and I asked if I could have it. He recently gave it to me and I was talking to a friend who also JUST had is break 3ish days ago. He told me that I should call and register the Xbox (my plan all along but us discussing his process made me just do it) and I am getting it repaired! Free Xbox360!
And I just ordered my new PC that I have been building for a while, have the ram and case already, these are all the innards: Wishlist/Shopping Cart
Its going to be a BEAST! I am doing well in the monetary department too so spending the money on it wasn't so heart breaking. Only problem is my car is fucked and that is money I don't have...
And I just ordered my new PC that I have been building for a while, have the ram and case already, these are all the innards: Wishlist/Shopping Cart
Its going to be a BEAST! I am doing well in the monetary department too so spending the money on it wasn't so heart breaking. Only problem is my car is fucked and that is money I don't have...
Yeah the end of 2007 wasn't so hot. I was on my way to a lighting exhibition being put on by two of my art school professors. I was psyched because New Years has been a notoriously anti climactic/bad holiday since a fantastic 2000 New Years. I was going to break my curse! Then my car broke down on the 5 hour trip... Engine is probably dead, I stalled out going 70, the oil light went on AS I stalled. I checked the dip stick, bone dry... So that isn't good, the garage should be calling me today to give their condolences. I will likely need a new engine or a new car, hopefully it is something stupid, even if I missed an awesome event I would like to not lose my car as well.
*shrug*
So I now have approx 20 days till I have to be back at school. On the agenda is:
Dentist, getting teeth Ive been missing all my life, that should be good I guess...
Doctor, been a while
Nothing?
I NEED ART SCHOOL BACK! And money I could use that.
*shrug*
So I now have approx 20 days till I have to be back at school. On the agenda is:
Dentist, getting teeth Ive been missing all my life, that should be good I guess...
Doctor, been a while
Nothing?
I NEED ART SCHOOL BACK! And money I could use that.
Puerto Rico got better the day before I left...
Hiked up a mountain, that was sick, first time I left the house outside of going to a grocery store all vacation...
Although at some point I decided that all life experiences are worth living for. Even though I could have been elsewhere I was there and I have memories.
Christmas was a HUGE let down. Not that I expected anything from it, I remember saying before the trip that "I plan to experience the Sforza/Torres (my Mom/Aunt's family names) vision of Christmas." The vision really wasn't much, my uncle and 2 cousins were flying in Christmas day, my Mom and Dad were picking them up. I spent Christmas day with a 3rd of my family, a fake tree, and 98% of the gifts for my aunt and uncles daughters. I don't need nor did I want any presents, but no one else was really involved. I felt like I was at another families' Christmas *sigh* next year will be my year.
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Hiked up a mountain, that was sick, first time I left the house outside of going to a grocery store all vacation...
Although at some point I decided that all life experiences are worth living for. Even though I could have been elsewhere I was there and I have memories.
Christmas was a HUGE let down. Not that I expected anything from it, I remember saying before the trip that "I plan to experience the Sforza/Torres (my Mom/Aunt's family names) vision of Christmas." The vision really wasn't much, my uncle and 2 cousins were flying in Christmas day, my Mom and Dad were picking them up. I spent Christmas day with a 3rd of my family, a fake tree, and 98% of the gifts for my aunt and uncles daughters. I don't need nor did I want any presents, but no one else was really involved. I felt like I was at another families' Christmas *sigh* next year will be my year.
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I told my family that if given the means I would like to hold Christmas at my house. The means would be...the house...I live in upstate New York right now going to school at Alfred University. At the moment I still live on campus and do not have a house. I hope that I will be able to purchase a house for next year, he housing market is cheap there, but it is still an endeavor that requires money I don't have right now. I want to build my own traditions for Christmas I think that will enhance the experience for me.
So far I have in mind:
1. Putting up my own tree, I have never done that under my own provocation and I have not been a part of that tradition in years.
2. Making my own ornaments, I go to art school that is an easy one, I think it would also be interesting to have all my art school friends contribute an ornament, that would be awesome.
3. Making my own Christmas Star/Angel. Similar to the ornaments but this would be even more exciting, it goes on the top! Both this and the ornaments I could still do years I don't have Christmas at my house, I could gift the ornaments to family and friends, it could simply be a Christmas tradition I have and the star/angel could be something I make new every year and bring where ever I am going.
4. Early Christmas party including my family, all my friends still at school and all my favorite professors. Have you met an art school professor? Dayum that would be a sick party!
Thats all I got so far, but I am a year ahead already, I want that house!
Speaking of new years, that is coming up. I'm home and I want to leave! All my friends haver "other friends," "work friends." There is almost always a party going on here, but its these "other friends parties," I never get to go, that shit happened last night. I don't want to be here and waste yet another New Year. One of my professors at school is putting on a light exhibition on the back of a flat-bed semi truck. I want to be there, but there is 6 hours away, I fucking hate driving and I fucking hate driving alone. *sigh* I will regret staying, I just need to man up and drive!
Edited to add:
I just called my professor, the show is on and its hot. Just map quested the shit, ONLY 4 HOURS! I AM THERE!
2nd Edit:
I woke up early, showered, shaved, got on the road. Rocking out to some tunes making headway, 2.5-3 hours in engine seizes. I pull over to the left side of the road, open my hood, pull out my dipstick, bone dry. Good Game, car is done, I have no plans for New Years now. I am glad this happened in 2007, this shit needs to be OVER.
Puerto Rico is... getting better? Still not great. We have a fake tree now W O O T!
Last night we were having dinner and my uncle wanted to go around the table and share Christmas memories we each had. Everyone had good memories, except my Grandmother, it gave me a little insight into why she is so emotional and prone to depression and negative thought. It's a good thing, it isn't that way anymore, I like learning about my ancestors past. Mine was that one time I was with a mall Santa and I couldn't think of what I wanted for Christmas and he told me that all I needed to do was think of it and he would bring it to me. I remember vividly being in my room with my cousin the night or so before Christmas and thinking to myself "I want that!" Having decided very last minute because Santa didn't need time to go shopping! I also remember thinking, if I get this that means Santa is real. Well I'm sure you guessed it, I didn't get it... lol jk I did actually get it, it was a large Godzilla toy, fucking schweet! That is likely my fondest Christmas memory.
It was this exact one, minus the inane text.
After that I told my family that of course that was my last fond Christmas memory. It is a well known fact in my family that I feel my Mom ruined Christmas. One year when I was still relatively young she said, I don't want to get a Christmas tree this year; that was the beginning of the end...I was depressed at a young age and I needed stability in my life, the lack of Christmas traditions wasn't what I needed. Although I attribute my lack of interest in Christmas to my Mother I don't blame her for it. A huge discussion sprung up from my reflection and I was saying that I would like to take making Christmas into an enjoyable holiday into my own hands. I used to think that I needed to find a girlfriend that was really into the Holidays and I would get involved in her traditions and we would build new ones of our own. But I realize now that I need to make Christmas my own. Not to mention that women hate me and I would be waiting forever to enjoy Christmas
! I told my family that if given the means I would like to hold Christmas at my house. The means would be...the house...I live in upstate New York right now going to school at Alfred University. At the moment I still live on campus and do not have a house. I hope that I will be able to purchase a house for next year, he housing market is cheap there, but it is still an endeavor that requires money I don't have right now. I want to build my own traditions for Christmas I think that will enhance the experience for me.
So far I have in mind:
1. Putting up my own tree, I have never done that under my own provocation and I have not been a part of that tradition in years.
2. Making my own ornaments, I go to art school that is an easy one, I think it would also be interesting to have all my art school friends contribute an ornament, that would be awesome.
3. Making my own Christmas Star/Angel. Similar to the ornaments but this would be even more exciting, it goes on the top! Both this and the ornaments I could still do years I don't have Christmas at my house, I could gift the ornaments to family and friends, it could simply be a Christmas tradition I have and the star/angel could be something I make new every year and bring where ever I am going.
4. Early Christmas party including my family, all my friends still at school and all my favorite professors. Have you met an art school professor? Dayum that would be a sick party!
Thats all I got so far, but I am a year ahead already, I want that house!
Good music Chin up Chin up
^click image to listen^
Last night we were having dinner and my uncle wanted to go around the table and share Christmas memories we each had. Everyone had good memories, except my Grandmother, it gave me a little insight into why she is so emotional and prone to depression and negative thought. It's a good thing, it isn't that way anymore, I like learning about my ancestors past. Mine was that one time I was with a mall Santa and I couldn't think of what I wanted for Christmas and he told me that all I needed to do was think of it and he would bring it to me. I remember vividly being in my room with my cousin the night or so before Christmas and thinking to myself "I want that!" Having decided very last minute because Santa didn't need time to go shopping! I also remember thinking, if I get this that means Santa is real. Well I'm sure you guessed it, I didn't get it... lol jk I did actually get it, it was a large Godzilla toy, fucking schweet! That is likely my fondest Christmas memory.
It was this exact one, minus the inane text.
After that I told my family that of course that was my last fond Christmas memory. It is a well known fact in my family that I feel my Mom ruined Christmas. One year when I was still relatively young she said, I don't want to get a Christmas tree this year; that was the beginning of the end...I was depressed at a young age and I needed stability in my life, the lack of Christmas traditions wasn't what I needed. Although I attribute my lack of interest in Christmas to my Mother I don't blame her for it. A huge discussion sprung up from my reflection and I was saying that I would like to take making Christmas into an enjoyable holiday into my own hands. I used to think that I needed to find a girlfriend that was really into the Holidays and I would get involved in her traditions and we would build new ones of our own. But I realize now that I need to make Christmas my own. Not to mention that women hate me and I would be waiting forever to enjoy Christmas
! I told my family that if given the means I would like to hold Christmas at my house. The means would be...the house...I live in upstate New York right now going to school at Alfred University. At the moment I still live on campus and do not have a house. I hope that I will be able to purchase a house for next year, he housing market is cheap there, but it is still an endeavor that requires money I don't have right now. I want to build my own traditions for Christmas I think that will enhance the experience for me.So far I have in mind:
1. Putting up my own tree, I have never done that under my own provocation and I have not been a part of that tradition in years.
2. Making my own ornaments, I go to art school that is an easy one, I think it would also be interesting to have all my art school friends contribute an ornament, that would be awesome.
3. Making my own Christmas Star/Angel. Similar to the ornaments but this would be even more exciting, it goes on the top! Both this and the ornaments I could still do years I don't have Christmas at my house, I could gift the ornaments to family and friends, it could simply be a Christmas tradition I have and the star/angel could be something I make new every year and bring where ever I am going.
4. Early Christmas party including my family, all my friends still at school and all my favorite professors. Have you met an art school professor? Dayum that would be a sick party!
Thats all I got so far, but I am a year ahead already, I want that house!
Good music Chin up Chin up
^click image to listen^
So I am in Puerto Rico. Everyone I tell that is OH COOL THATS COOL! I guess they don't know my family. Today is a prime example: So my cousin was coming today, the airport is 40min to an hour away. EVERYONE wanted to go, because I am on vacation and have no desire to sit in someone else's house by myself I did too. That meant 7 people in a 7 person car (including the addition of my cousin from the air port) There would be no where for the luggage. So they were making me and my uncle stay here, I was ok with that I really like my uncle. I am in another room over hearing my uncle say "I would like to go pick up my daughter but there isn't enough room!" I being the upstanding gentleman I am I say that I will stay here alone, in my aunts parents house... Because I am 20 and retarded I am not able to have the keys, so I am sitting in this outside room with no screens that is infested with mosquitoes. This is also where I sleep, they lock me out. It's not like I am some dog my family kicks around but I am most definitely at the bottom of the barrel when it comes to people that must be pleased...
And thats just today, don't get me started about my crazy grandmother yesterday *sigh*
I'm not complaining about my family, I am explaining why this trip to Puerto Rico sucks. I would have rather stayed home alone, at least TV is in English there, and there are no mosquitoes, good food! I so far have eaten food my aunt makes at home, stale cereal, pizza, and bread... FUCK THAT!
ANYWAY the good stuff in my life:
I got a 3.10 this semester and still waiting for another grade that should be good. I got an A in glass blowing, a flat out A no - or nothing. That is VERY hard at my school, and I tried way hard in that class and I love the professor, I am P SYCHED about that. For people who sitll come here I will have images of my work up some time, I have plenty of time during break....
I spent a lot of time and worked very hard to produce a good grant application. It was painstaking but I just found out I was awarded the grant! FUCK YEAH! The project should be fantastic and I will document it well and share it with you all. Is anyone celebrating? No, they are all off at the airport leaving my ass here with the mosquitoes...
Both of which I forgot about completely while I was here fuck this vacation.
Good music Chin up Chin up
^click image to listen^
Been listening to them all vacation, good thing I have these guys or I would be hanging form a ceiling fan, isn't it fucked up that I have actually thought on this vacation "what if I killed myself?" That is terrible you should never thing that ESPECIALLY on vacation!
I'll be ok... I hope...
And thats just today, don't get me started about my crazy grandmother yesterday *sigh*
I'm not complaining about my family, I am explaining why this trip to Puerto Rico sucks. I would have rather stayed home alone, at least TV is in English there, and there are no mosquitoes, good food! I so far have eaten food my aunt makes at home, stale cereal, pizza, and bread... FUCK THAT!
ANYWAY the good stuff in my life:
I got a 3.10 this semester and still waiting for another grade that should be good. I got an A in glass blowing, a flat out A no - or nothing. That is VERY hard at my school, and I tried way hard in that class and I love the professor, I am P SYCHED about that. For people who sitll come here I will have images of my work up some time, I have plenty of time during break....
I spent a lot of time and worked very hard to produce a good grant application. It was painstaking but I just found out I was awarded the grant! FUCK YEAH! The project should be fantastic and I will document it well and share it with you all. Is anyone celebrating? No, they are all off at the airport leaving my ass here with the mosquitoes...
Both of which I forgot about completely while I was here fuck this vacation.
Good music Chin up Chin up
^click image to listen^
Been listening to them all vacation, good thing I have these guys or I would be hanging form a ceiling fan, isn't it fucked up that I have actually thought on this vacation "what if I killed myself?" That is terrible you should never thing that ESPECIALLY on vacation!
I'll be ok... I hope...
