I definitely know the feeling, buddy. I even have a tattoo on my arm, from a self-written poem. It's in Norwegian, but if I do a direct translation, it basically says "sore knees offer no salvation". Meaning, I'm telling myself to stop crawling at everyone's feet, treating them like my gods, begging and praying for their approval and acceptance. I am who I am, and that should be more than good enough. And for those who can't accept it, they should probably just part ways with me and not waste time on being annoyed with the way I am. It's also what my band's song "Behemoth" is about.

That is at least the motto I'm trying to live by. Old ghosts from the past make it difficult for me to maintain that kind of strength. And you're right, this world is a pool of acid just waiting to eat away at you until there's nothing but useless bones left. Try to hang in there. As shall I.

Thanks bro. That was pretty deep lol. I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way. You just gave me a good idea for another tat haha. I'll have to think about it and once I have the perfect words, it's on me lol. Again, thanks man. It always helps to know you're not alone.

I really think that's a bad way of looking at it. Eventually, people are going to catch on that you're all about yourself and anyone who cared will stop caring, at least to some degree. No one wants to indulge a self-indulgent asshole. Jus' sayin' NOT sayin' you are that. If you were I wouldn't be talkin' to ya

*yoda voice* Balance, you must find...mmmm....lol

Put yourself first where it REALLY matters. Take a real hard look at what matters and what doesn't. Sometimes a re-evaluation in that area helps put things into better perspective. Some things just have to roll off your back with a smile! (or frown, whatever)

lol. Well thats kinda how I meant it. Just ready to find myself and I need a change for that