Watched out New Jersey. Here we come, we will be out there for a week in Long Beach Island.....so what the hell is there to do out there? On the upside I have never taken a vacation so this should be fun and I am looking forward to getting drunk on the back but there has to be something to do in Atlantic City or something.

any thoughts or ideas on a good starting point for a design of a tattoo? I want a Phoenix, I have wanted one for years, I just cant seem to get the right image on paper of what I am looking for, it doesn't help that I am not artistic at all. I am going to be covering a tattoo with the Phoenix.

I love BOOBS

So its been a while since I have posted anything and unfortunately I have nothing positive to post. I lost my father to cancer on Oct 20th and his service is tomorrow. Its going to be a really conflicting/sad/angry/weird day. My father and I were not always close and we had our fights but in the end we loved each other and he was always very proud of me. I do not really talk to my friends about this stuff yet i can post my life to a bunch of strangers on here and I am not sure why, I guess I feel like this is a safe place. I really hope everyone else is having a better day than I am.

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Saw Zombie Land on opening night, it was a blast. I am thinking about doing the open mic night at Comedy Works here in Denver Other than that, not much has changed, father is still dying the family is fighting like mad and everyone is on edge. Few things keep my head level, like being busier then shit at work and the Marc Maron podcast, funny shit.

Fuck Cancer!!!!!

For those of you that do not know the joy of having a manic in your life, let me tell you it is really fun half the time.

It really does have its ups and downs and sometimes its scary as hell.

For those of you that do have a manic, I can recommend some good books to help better understand the hell we live in sometimes.

Thank you to everyone here who messaged me, it was a rough weekend.

Not sure if I can do it anymore. I have been so blessed in my life, great friends, descent health (okay thats a stretch) pretty smart when I want to be, funny as shit....so why I am feeling like I can not do it anymore. My grades have gone to shit, i owe the school a lot of money, I had to file a BK this year and I make fucking 55k a year thats not a bad salary. I used to pride myself on being able to get up when get kicked down (even when I do this shit to myself) but I just dont want to get up anymore. I really dont know what the fuck I am going to do. I have been on meds, I have gotten healthier then I ever was even in the military and nothing helped. Its in my head. FUCK IT!

Holy balls, got wasted last night at the 80's bar crawl, slept on the sidewalk somewhere in Denver, lost my phone there is more stories coming in of the fun and funny shit I did last night I love it.

Now I am hung over and horny as hell.