My set goes up today! I hope everyone enjoys it.

For the record- I do all of my own make-up

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AIM- Zoli Suicide

Yesterday was my first day of my tattoo apprenticeship. The opportunity kind of "fell into my lap" I guess you can say.. I'm super stoked! I spent most of the day get tattooed.. I got "Doll Face" tattooed on my knuckles in pink and black:
and I also got the angel on my arm shaded.. I've had the angel for a year now and have never done anything with it... Other than that I'm reading this AMAZING book called "The Buddhist Path to Simplicity: A Spiritual Practice for Everday Life" Which is blowing my mind. I haven't done any reading in some time... Well I'm off to bed- Getting a hair cut in the afternoon.

Today I celebrate one week of sobriety!

I'm hanging out at the tattoo shop... if anyone would like to chit chat- my MSN messanger name is lovesatwowaydream@hotmail.com.. I got a really bad sunburn at the pool today because I'm a jackass so I'm not working tonight..

Where to begin...

Yesterday I received a phone call that one of my childhood friends, Shawn Lasswell, was killed yesterday morning in Iraq after his Hum-V was blown up. I've never lost someone very close to my heart... It all seems so unreal. He was in town just last week... He and I grew up together- He was like a brother to me. I believe that everyone has their time to go and yesterday was his time. He was only 21... Yesterday I decided to let go of a lot of things.. I realize more than I ever have before that life is too short. Too short to get hung up on things that don't matter.. too short to dwell on what "should've been" or what "could've happened".. we need to focus on things for what they are- accept them- and move on.. I know I will see him again one day.. just not in this lifetime. He will always be alive in my heart...

Yet another interesting week.. On Monday I decided to get my ribs tattooed. Let's just say it started out with me laughing becuause it tickled during the outline and ended up with me running away from the tattooer by the time it was half way colored in. I've never seen a tattoo bleed that much.. It's only halfway done at this point so I'll be back in in a couple weeks once the first part heals. Eek! lol

Lastnight my friend and I decided to play a prank on the guy she is dating. I'm not even sure how this whole idea came about but it was pretty funny- It started out with her calling him and pretending like she was fighting me. Meanwhile in the background, I am throwing around bar chairs screaming and hitting the top of the bar. Then she later calls him and tells him that she dropped me off in the middle of the desert and left me out there to die. At this point he is freaking out and asks her to come down to his work (a tattoo shop). We stop at a gas station on the way over where she punches a wall then pokes my finger with a safety pin so I can smear blood on her face, knuckles, and stomach. When she shows up at the shop I hide in the back of the car on the floor. She comes into the shop with a swollen hand, smeared make-up, and blood all over. She then tells him that she kicked my ass and then used her taser on me until the battery went dead. She's screaming about how she is going to jail while he cleans off the blood. Then he tries to convince her to go back to the desert and get me. He is wondering if I am dead in the middle of the desert by this point. So she ends up leaving and calling him saying that she can't find me.. She talks to him for another couple minutes and he decides to leave the shop early and come down to her house. When he arrives at her house she and I are coloring easter eggs and drinking Daquiris in her kitchen... He fucking hates us now I'm sure.. How evil.. hahaha

So I've had a pretty interesting week.. I had to go to court again on Tuesday and talk to the judge. Turns out I have to take a class called the Coroner's Program which involves looking at freshly dead bodies mangled by car accidents. I had to fill out this application for the class that asks questions like "has someone close to you recently died?", "have you ever seen a psychologist for mental problems", "do you get nauscious at the sight of blood", etc. Needless to say I'm not very excited about taking the class. lol Also this week I have just started burning a "Money" Chakra Energy Candle before work.. I really think it's helping (or it could just be in my head)- I have made some decent money at work so far this week. We'll see how it goes the next few days ) On a lighter note- One of my ex's came into town yesterday from Seattle. I just so happened to be at the airport picking up a friend when three flights had come in from Seattle.. haha I was so worried. What an awkward situation that could've been. Yesterday morning I went to the bar after work and ended up passing out on the couch. haha. I was supposed to pick someone up to take them to the doctor at 6:30 and woke up on the couch close to 7.. Who passes out on a couch drinking a vodka/Redbull? I've also been driving around with expired insurance for the past week. I'm just waiting for the cops to find me.. haha

So today I realized why I don't do any deep cleaning of my apartment. I've been sick sitting on the couch for the past few days and decided I should start cleaning up while I had nothing else better to do. Apparently it wasn't such a good idea. I came across so many old pictures-plane tickets- etc... So many happy memories captured in a still moment of bliss. It's always hard to look back and see how happy you were with someone else only to find yourself alone staring at a picture wishing you could relive the moment. I hate days like these. It can get pretty lonely taking care of yourself when you are sick and moping around the house. I suppose any glimpse of companionship would seem great at this moment.. I hate dwelling on the past, but it's days like these that I can't help myself...