Brief and stupid blog.

Went on the great job search today, wasn't so great.....
-Hit up the library....doubt it...but I hope so. They pay a lot actually.
-Fedex/Kinko's....fuck it...why not? Funky hours, I love it. Ha.
-Borders....nuff said.
As you can see I am trying to obtain a job in which I work with books...hopefully that happens. If not, I have a few other things in mind.

I would give my right arm to apprentice.....wait...no I couldn't give my right arm because then I couldn't tattoo, but you get the picture. I am just too broke for that right now. As much as I would fucking LOOOOVE to tattoo first and foremost....I can't be poor right now. That may make you question my commitment...but I highly doubt one is able to do much of anything when you don't live anywhere...

Blah-de-blah...


Tried doing some other things over the weekend that didn't happen.....kinda shady. What-ev though, you'll have that I guess.


Mmm....yeah....have to go to a BUllshit stupid series of meetings about being on academic dismissal before I can re-enter college....there goes my summer yoga plan...muahaha.

Yeah...boring....super short.....


Oh yeah my stupid 22nd birthday is May 16th.....yeah I don't really expect much to happen that day....Hell City plans kinda non-existent due to my non-existent cash flow....broke birthday...oh well....LOL as long as Im around sweet people...it is just another day anyway. Nothing too spectacular about 22....

I think thats all folks..

Re-blog....with pictures...YAY




The political rape scene I was talking about before...a little sneaky peek....Im all bloody...it's hot...I love love love it. I got to "eat" a victims "intestines"....MMM. I love the creepy stuff....I would be in horror movies everyday LOL...cover me in blood and Im a happy gal.

SO much fun stuff is coming up!!!!
-My Birthday! MAY 16th! Yay.
-A ton ton ton of amazing shows in my area
-Hell City of COURSE
-Maybe a special little trip this week
-Super fun modeling opportunities
-Road trips brewing!
-New Chuck and Augusten books.....YESSSSS

And today.....my boyfriend finally finishes his fucking personality changing project....IM so glad semester is OVER...now he can start being a little less bitchy.

Hmmm....I think that's about it. I don't really have much else to blog about...Im still ummm jobless LOL and reading lots of books. Really really enjoying that...if anyone has any good recommendations let me know....Im always open to suggestions.

On another note...I really really do need to find a job. I think I need to sit down and make a list of all the things that I can do...and want to do...and maybe the things I don't want to do....I wish I could get a job making lists because Im really good at that LOL (sarcasm...........).......I've been living for the past year doing gypsy type things and making money to survive but nothing really secure. It really sucks trying to figure yourself out...especially when you're slightly co-dependent...I feel like I always need advice, even if I don't listen to it.

Anywho.....video to come soon hopefully.....

...among other things

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I post bloody boobage and get comments...man I need to educate myself in the ways of comment whoring....(siiike)

Happy Holidays.

Boring blog ahead....be WARNED...Ahahha.

Im am in a "delicate state" if you will...

Watching Thursday....and eating Baked Penne with ricotta and sun dried tomatoes...that I actually made today from a recipe and didn't fuck up. YAY for me. Im usually a retard in any department of domestication....but Im tired of eating out. It gets really old...how many Del tacos can one person consume? LOL until they give me a Sonic somewhere near, since they love to play the comercial, I refuse to eat fast food. Sonic Countdown commense...so for now I suppose I will cook....

Lovage and Zero 7 with a pinch of Lamb of God is all I've been independently listening to lately.

Im experimenting with web endeavors....I have nothing but time on my hands so I figure I could use it read books I've always wanted to read, learn to cook, and start a website...by myself. Not sure of the content yet....but Im doing it. And not being proficient in any type of web developing program should really be a kicker...

Last night I helped my dude film a politically subtexted rape scene for his film class. It was hilarious....I played the role of maniacal assistant....I got to eat intestines <that we concocted in our very own kitchen.>, touch bloody boobs and "guts"...and I was drunk from the several glasses of Relax riesling that were consumed.

I have lots of pictures, I'll be sure to post....because it's hilarious....


I think thats about it.....

......except that secret project underway....HOT....

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I forgot about the part where I became injured. In my drunken state I managed to slip on the bloody piece of plastic protecting the floor, and cracked my thigh on a wooden bowl.....FUCK THAT SHIT....my leg is swollen and bruised to all hell....but I laughed through the whole thing....I will be sure to post that....YES we got it on video...LMAO.


Please go comment on Maedusa's set.....it is ungodly amazing.

Im am absolutely MOTHERFUCKING wrestless. I need to see someone for sleep disorders I swear. I can't sleep like a normal fucking person and its driving me CRAZY. Ok, not really but if Im going to be insomnia prone, I need to be surrounded by others who have the same affliction, or figure out SOMEthing to make me sleep. I've tried it all.
I took 3 Valerian Root capsules and I thought it might make me drowsy at least....NOPE! Exactly the opposite...Im ticking like a clock right now. Im more agitated than I was before I took it. There are so many things I want to do...I can't condense them all. I think I seriously might have adult adhd or something of the sort.

I need to start a new book, it's one of the only things that help me focus. I read two last week..."Brothel", which was a non fiction extremely informative read on legalized prostitution in Nevada, very well written and insightful. And "Possible Side Affects", by Augusten Borroughs, who is absolutely HILARIOUS! Im excited to start a new book, just not entirely certain what I want to read next. There's so much out there. Recommendations WELCOME! (But plz no heavy Sci-Fi)

So..the new Appleseed movie was very UM SLOW MO heavy, and if you know what Im talking about you are fucking awesome. I think the majority of the film was SO chocked full of SLOW motion, the faster parts were the real affect lol..

Im proud of myself. In the past few weeks I've been realizing that I don't need to take SHIT from stupid exes who are real wastes of life. And I've also realized I need to STOP dating losers. They only drag me down. I ignored calls from one super pathetic ex who I would normally talk to....AND I shut off my last exes phone that was on my account, motherfucker was 2 months late on the bill and bullshitting around. It FELT SOOOO good to make the call to shut if off, then have him call me 50x from someone else's phone crying about how he was stranded and needed his phone on. HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!! I laughed maniacally for about 15 minutes.

Im on the great search for a stripper pole....it's such good fitness. I don't want to buy one, but I don't want to drop the cash to build one at a place that I can only have it for another 2 months in. Ceiling heights vary, it worries me. But I want it to be thinner, and spinning with the option of being stationary as well. In a perfect world....

POLAROID DEATH=SO super sad. And the way they are jacking up the film, SICK. I am not paying a gabillion dollars on fucking ebay for film thats expiring soon or expired...who the fuck do they think they are? Rude. I got stoked when I found an old polaroid during one of my lovely goodwill hopping excursions.

UM Want to shoot a MULTI so bad. If you might want to do so please let me know as I have a dandy idea for one.

This is a pretty stupid blog, if you read it all....wow you are super awesome. Thanks

Uncle Pete if you are reading this, don't click that spoiler.

Less time on the internet makes for some productivity, some but not much LOL. Im still being a little wanderer. Ugh....at least now I have a little someone to wander with that I don't want to CHOKE! Hahah. I need more direction that's for DAMN sure. But I've been having fun what can I say?


See? FUN!


Went to this show at Harpo's in Detroit....it was motherfucking brutal suprisingly. The entire floor pitted from the first tap of a cymbal....I was slightly scared for my life LOL. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE metal, and I love getting a little bit of shit kicked out of me at shows, but this was like...using people as stepping stones to find a spot to not get utterly CRUSHED in.


Now mind you, Michael Bay is a CORPORATE WHORE! but...this was a pretty decent film....Im suprised I haven't seen it sooner. Check it out...it's a good thing Scarlett is so fucking HOT because her acting was a bit sub-par.


Just started this....super excited. Im nerdifying myself more and more each day.


Had to shout it out to one of the most enthralling authors EVER....I cannot put down his SHIT.


Singing my face off.....I MUST PUT DOWN THE ROCKBAND! EEEEK.

Thats all for now, as I do not have anything more entertaining to speak of. Sorry LOL.

Apologies for the delays. ahaha. Ive found myself taking a break from the internet to....



..take stupid self photos.....pensive...hmm.



...create pieces of shit.



....feather my hair and become very funk-a-licious....gotta love the funk.



...watch wonderful gore filled films.



....and lastly, but certainly not least...to read this fucking masterpiece.


Check out the Havana shots, they are even more rowdy then the ones I took while being extremely intoxicated.....on Sunshine's page

Havana was brutal. Had some good convos with some pretty sweet people. Glad I prodded some to come out too....I can't wait to see the pics....it was total debauchery. But Im glad I kept my wits about me, tried to keep the drinkin to a happy medium so I could actually remember the people I talked to. LOL good thing.

Rest of the weekend was killer. Unexpected...but killer. Filled with many of my favorite things....METAL!....illegal substance.....fruit....takashi miike.....and of course.....dynasty warriors! Didn't do anything too productive besides promotional modeling....which was lame as HELL but paid the bills. I had to stand there for 5 hours listening to stupid jocky mother fuckers......not my idea of a good time. Im not into stereotyping but lets get real....we all know of those people. The breeders as I like to call them. But anyway...


SUICIDE SILENCE and the FACELESS!!!! YESSSSS....can't wait. And another Koffin Kats at the end of the month. Good times. So many good shows...so little time.

Havana is almost here.....yessssssssssssssssss. I can't freakin wait. I don't think Im going to sleep much in the next couple of days. LOL anyone want to do something wednesday night? I get giddy when I get to go to Columbus. It's the closest thing imaginable to intelligent life in these here parts..haha. I never want to leave once I get there either, but that requires a back story. Where I come from Im probably on of the "strangest" looking girls in my area...we have many factories and nurse aides. No offense to workers in either profession...just not for me. Bullet said it best, corn and conservatives. Small town livin is not for this lady....I must devise a plan to flee the scene. HEEEEELLLPPP Im stuck in small town hell! LOL

So anyway! HAVANA....BE THERE....you will get to see me trying to "Bone" people if nothing else?

Something wonderful is brewing.....but it's always a juxtaposing of the terrible and the beautiful. It seems there is never anything great happening with out something equally bad happening to me. Im sure this is the case for alot of people....I think I tend to dwell more on mine. Or maybe it's not even dwelling, but a more sensitive perception of the bad happening. I wish I could go back to the days where I had a boy that was grand, a tattooing apprenticeship and not a care in the world. If there is any good left in this world, it is getting harder and harder to find. I think with growing up comes a hard fucking realization that anything in this world that you want, you have to get yourself. No more counting on others to see you through, and more often then not, no one is going to give you true guidance. Im learning to trust my instincts and only mine.....because they are the only ones that have proved true thus far.

Im still wavering on life choices, though I know no one is going to make them for me. I wish they would! LOL...I can only lay out what I have to work with, and hope someone has been through it before and can offer up some advice. I just feel like Im going no where fast...I just want to get out of this area that is bogged down with utter negativity and contentment with being mediocre. I need a change.

On a less negative note....Havana is less than a week away! Can't wait to see some of my favorite people....and you can bet Im going to try to show up a bit less ineibriated then last time. Hahaha. No REGRET!

This snow is total crap. Im over it....get me out of this frozen tundra! AHHHH.



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I was a little disturbed by this.

I won't throw myself into a tizzy over it, and I don't think the poster should be attacked...but I'd like to know where it came from. I was present on Sat and Sun and I don't recall any girls being rude at all. I'd hope we can chalk it up to haters or misunderstandings....