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So I am still not an official suicide girl... 
Although Al is freaking hot as hell, I am happy she got posted. I had an interesting night last night, I made the rounds to visit my friends. I started with visitng Angie, she had made this toxic vodka lime/lemon/sugar concoction that was fucking up everyone who was partying at this house. I stole her away to go hang out with my friend Dan and Hot Bobby. Hot B and Dan just moved into a cute lil apartment near campus, and Angie and I helped them break it in by eating hot salsa and talking about vaginas. Those boys are too cute too boot. We were talking about oral sex, and their love of giving it, and I am feening so bad right now for oral sex, I almost took them in the back and made men of them....hahaha joking... I'm a good girl though, although I did find out I have a new boy toy if a random need for orgasms arises... 
Although Al is freaking hot as hell, I am happy she got posted. I had an interesting night last night, I made the rounds to visit my friends. I started with visitng Angie, she had made this toxic vodka lime/lemon/sugar concoction that was fucking up everyone who was partying at this house. I stole her away to go hang out with my friend Dan and Hot Bobby. Hot B and Dan just moved into a cute lil apartment near campus, and Angie and I helped them break it in by eating hot salsa and talking about vaginas. Those boys are too cute too boot. We were talking about oral sex, and their love of giving it, and I am feening so bad right now for oral sex, I almost took them in the back and made men of them....hahaha joking... I'm a good girl though, although I did find out I have a new boy toy if a random need for orgasms arises... I had dreams last night that today i would be the newest suicide girl..... is it gonna happen? I guess we will find out later today.
What's up with weird guys who sing religious ballads at karoke night? I saw this scary axe murderer type of guy singing some gaylordfalker type of song at karoke night at this lame bar in Eugene. he was wearing a suit and tie about the age of 22-25, and looking like a bucktoothed psycho religious serial killer. I sat there as he very belted at the top of his off key lungs and waited for him to whip out a machedi and start cutting people's heads off...it was quite ridiculous. Everyone looked the other way when the announcer said to give him a hand. My friend said he went to high school with this guy and he comes to sing karoke in a suit and tie, (in a bar full of punk kids) every Wednesday. He also said he had been rumored to have raped some girl in his high school....I thought to myself, WOW high quality folk hang out at karoke night....O
I kicked it with one of my closest girlfriends Mel earlier today, and we talked about boys boys and boys. Seems she has a secret admirer who has been leaving her secret love notes on her pillow and roses on her scooter. She can't tell if he is a stalker, a friend playing a joke, or a possible love interest. She doesn't know if she should be excited to have an admirer or scared for her life?!?!? awwww poopy dick, why doesn't anyone ever write me love letters? All a girl wants is LOVE letters!!!!.... I mean sure I'd like some good hardcore SKULL fucking and dirty needle sexcapades 15x a day...but where is the romance in my life??!?!?!?
I kicked it with one of my closest girlfriends Mel earlier today, and we talked about boys boys and boys. Seems she has a secret admirer who has been leaving her secret love notes on her pillow and roses on her scooter. She can't tell if he is a stalker, a friend playing a joke, or a possible love interest. She doesn't know if she should be excited to have an admirer or scared for her life?!?!? awwww poopy dick, why doesn't anyone ever write me love letters? All a girl wants is LOVE letters!!!!.... I mean sure I'd like some good hardcore SKULL fucking and dirty needle sexcapades 15x a day...but where is the romance in my life??!?!?!?
i have no idea if i am getting launched this Friday or not, but unfortunately for yer all's reading pleasure, this fiesty little biznitch is going out of town...with NO access to a computer for a couple days maybe almost a week.....we'll see.... If I do get launched today well then have fun boys and girls with my pictorial debut. If not, then leave me a message!! I am going to miss you all dearly....
xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo slurp slurp,
Mistress Violet
xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo slurp slurp,
Mistress Violet
i told a secret today
he listened and spoke words of comfort
it feels so good
to say what i want
feel what i feel
without fear that he will run
he likes to know me
the more he knows the more he cares
i wish he didn't live so far away
it's ok
absence makes the heart grow fonder
or yonder
can't do much about it
so i just wait
wait for him to figure out
that we should spend a little time together
WE INTERRUPT THIS LAME POEM TO BRING YOU SOMETHING A LITTLE MORE INTERESTING...
WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH DONKEY PUNCHING? I MEAN SHIT...I BEG A GUY TO BEAT ME IN THE BACK OF THE HEAD SO THAT I CAN FAINT WHILE HE IS FUCKING ME....AND HE JUST WON'T DO IT.....I BEG HIM AND HIS FRIENDS TO SHOVE RANDOM OBJECTS IN MY PUSSY...AND THEY JUST AIN'T HAVIN IT.... I BEG FOR DVDA...AND NO ONE WILL STICK THEIR COCK IN MY TWAT AND IN MY A-HOLE WITH THE COMPANY OF A FELLOW DICK...WTF IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE TODAY SHYIAT.
he listened and spoke words of comfort
it feels so good
to say what i want
feel what i feel
without fear that he will run
he likes to know me
the more he knows the more he cares
i wish he didn't live so far away
it's ok
absence makes the heart grow fonder
or yonder
can't do much about it
so i just wait
wait for him to figure out
that we should spend a little time together
WE INTERRUPT THIS LAME POEM TO BRING YOU SOMETHING A LITTLE MORE INTERESTING...
WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH DONKEY PUNCHING? I MEAN SHIT...I BEG A GUY TO BEAT ME IN THE BACK OF THE HEAD SO THAT I CAN FAINT WHILE HE IS FUCKING ME....AND HE JUST WON'T DO IT.....I BEG HIM AND HIS FRIENDS TO SHOVE RANDOM OBJECTS IN MY PUSSY...AND THEY JUST AIN'T HAVIN IT.... I BEG FOR DVDA...AND NO ONE WILL STICK THEIR COCK IN MY TWAT AND IN MY A-HOLE WITH THE COMPANY OF A FELLOW DICK...WTF IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE TODAY SHYIAT.
Once again i sit here working in front of my computer... Let's see what my day consisted of..
Noon- Wake up to 18 year old boy toy... sheesh he needed to go home. I was not in a good mood this morning and feening to be by myself. Took him home and realized my car's leather seats are not that comfy in the hot summer sun. THE MUTHAFUCKIN A/C is broken! Good thing i have a warranty to cover that shit.
1ish- go to Arbys and pig out! mmmm i love jalepeno pappers...bad grrrrl getting fast food...but hey what the hell i hardly ever do it.
2-4 chat on the internet with suicide members, cute boys, write emails pay bills, take a shower as i realize the fucking bathroom smells like B.O. from the hormone raging 18 yr old boy last night! Damn pheramones...Went and got coffee, had some crazed lunatic on a bike yelling obscene things at me.
5pm working on the net, kicking it....chatting with friends...
IS my life boring or what? but somehow someway..i love it... Yah know the more i look at this website the more upset i am that I didn't think of this idea first. I love the site design, I love the theory behind it. I love everything...and I wish i could come up with some kind of an idea to create an online community as cool as this one. And even though I sound like a fucking infomerical right now...but I only speak the truth....
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox,
Miss Violet
Noon- Wake up to 18 year old boy toy... sheesh he needed to go home. I was not in a good mood this morning and feening to be by myself. Took him home and realized my car's leather seats are not that comfy in the hot summer sun. THE MUTHAFUCKIN A/C is broken! Good thing i have a warranty to cover that shit.
1ish- go to Arbys and pig out! mmmm i love jalepeno pappers...bad grrrrl getting fast food...but hey what the hell i hardly ever do it.
2-4 chat on the internet with suicide members, cute boys, write emails pay bills, take a shower as i realize the fucking bathroom smells like B.O. from the hormone raging 18 yr old boy last night! Damn pheramones...Went and got coffee, had some crazed lunatic on a bike yelling obscene things at me.
5pm working on the net, kicking it....chatting with friends...
IS my life boring or what? but somehow someway..i love it... Yah know the more i look at this website the more upset i am that I didn't think of this idea first. I love the site design, I love the theory behind it. I love everything...and I wish i could come up with some kind of an idea to create an online community as cool as this one. And even though I sound like a fucking infomerical right now...but I only speak the truth....
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox,
Miss Violet
Well well welll.....Life is pretty great right now. I have been making new friends left and right, and there is a random boy sleeping in my bed right now. I have this 18 year old make out buddy that I like to randomally seduce. It's funny cause I will happily take oral sex from him and give him nothing in return... That is just the dominatrix way i suppose. He is my little play buddy and we have so much fun.
We decided to have a candlelit shower tonight and i was just having an orgasm in his mouth when my roommates came home....and all of their friends... I am sure they were throughly entertained. When we got out of the shower i saw the door was partly cracked open so if walked by they could have seen me having an orgasm in his mouth too.....hahahhahahaha.....good lord i am such a pimp. Isn't that what I become if I take and enjoy and don't give anything in return? Funny if you put out boys can call you a slut, if you take w/o giving back you are a tease...
I think i am just a pimp. pimp pimp pimp...cause i make the boys go limp limp limp...and tumble over in blue balls....muahahahahhahahahaha (evil laugh) well to tell you the truth i did give him an orgasm back, but since he isn't my boyfriend and he hasn't been tested for any STD's. I gave him a specialty hungarian lotion hand job.....god i love giving lotion hand jobs...they are so choice!
We decided to have a candlelit shower tonight and i was just having an orgasm in his mouth when my roommates came home....and all of their friends... I am sure they were throughly entertained. When we got out of the shower i saw the door was partly cracked open so if walked by they could have seen me having an orgasm in his mouth too.....hahahhahahaha.....good lord i am such a pimp. Isn't that what I become if I take and enjoy and don't give anything in return? Funny if you put out boys can call you a slut, if you take w/o giving back you are a tease...
I think i am just a pimp. pimp pimp pimp...cause i make the boys go limp limp limp...and tumble over in blue balls....muahahahahhahahahaha (evil laugh) well to tell you the truth i did give him an orgasm back, but since he isn't my boyfriend and he hasn't been tested for any STD's. I gave him a specialty hungarian lotion hand job.....god i love giving lotion hand jobs...they are so choice!
Meow......meow.....
I am sitting here on my couch waiting for some men to come into my chat room for me to dominate....
I love being a Mistress...it is great fun...
I woke up so late today! Last week was craziness, between house guests, friends visiting from out of town, and trying to get all my final projects done it was just insanity.... It felt good to sleep in and not have to worry about having to be any place all day. All i feel like doing is just hanging out by myself, surfing the web and waiting for slaves to come into my chat room so i can dominate them... ahh what a life i lead!
So I have two weeks off until I start a 20 credit summer quarter...yes that's right 20 credits....yes that's right i am psycho! but at least a motivated psycho.... I wonder what kinds of fun trips i would have taken if I wouldn't have been slaving away with school work
Now if only i could get enough motivation to design my next tattoo...I want to do really really intricate waves on my back, kind of oriental style. If anyone reads this and wants to design me something that would be great!!!
ok, back to work, more later....
xoxoxox,
Violet
I am sitting here on my couch waiting for some men to come into my chat room for me to dominate....
I love being a Mistress...it is great fun...
I woke up so late today! Last week was craziness, between house guests, friends visiting from out of town, and trying to get all my final projects done it was just insanity.... It felt good to sleep in and not have to worry about having to be any place all day. All i feel like doing is just hanging out by myself, surfing the web and waiting for slaves to come into my chat room so i can dominate them... ahh what a life i lead!
So I have two weeks off until I start a 20 credit summer quarter...yes that's right 20 credits....yes that's right i am psycho! but at least a motivated psycho.... I wonder what kinds of fun trips i would have taken if I wouldn't have been slaving away with school work
Now if only i could get enough motivation to design my next tattoo...I want to do really really intricate waves on my back, kind of oriental style. If anyone reads this and wants to design me something that would be great!!!
ok, back to work, more later....
xoxoxox,
Violet
Hey,
This is my first journal entry ever! I would like to say that I am really excited to keep an online journal... I need a way to vent all my crazy experiences, my crazy thoughts, my crazy feelings.... my fucked up crazy neurotic thought processes.....And my ability to be the most BOY CRAZY girl on the planet.
Let me see if i can give you an idea of what my day consists of
10am- wake up prolly from a dream about a hot boy
12pm- have lunch with my friend melody talk about boy drama
1-4pm go to school (while studying hot boys in class)
5-11pm get paid to dominate men on the internet, while getting to know cute local boys on AIM
Midnight- Go out to the bars with ex boyfriend, or hang out with friends and bullshit, or go to bed, design, surf the web, watch a movie, or go on a date
Weekends: kick it with hot boys, kiss them, cuddle, go to parties, be BOOOOOY crazy...
Being so boy crazy is something that I have been like since i was in Kindergarten. I remember being five years old, and spying on the high school boys across the street, and being in 'love' with my little friends older brother. at the age of FIVE! At the same age, I used to run around the yard naked in hopes that the paper boy would see me. (i shit you not) So it all makes sense to why I do what I do for a living.
But the truth about being so boy crazy is that it is really quite emotionally draining to be into something so ungratifying at times. I have been in love before. Three times to be exact. I had one 2.5 year relationship, a 1.5 year relationship, and an 11 mo. relationship I have been in lots of little relationships. I find relationships very draining. I am a pisces, so my tendency to put myself 110 percent into a relationship doesn't leave a whole lot of time and energy for myself. This is frusterating! I would like to experience a guy whose problems don't become my problems, but from what I learned everyone has baggage and it's unavoidable. So to feed the urge of having boys in my life w/o a relationship, I date with no strings like there is no tomorrow.
I definitely think have become quite the infatuation junkie. I love the beginning feelings of the first kiss, the first naked makeout session.. and I usually don't take it to sex unless I want sex. I normally only want sex if I have been dating them for at least a month or so and they are on their way to becoming a boyfriend. I do have sex buddies if I need some un-emotional sex, but that is only if my vibrator is broken or if I am desperately feening for oral sex. I don't allow myself to be pressured for sex by a guy. Which is empowering.....since in my past I didn't know how to deal with that pressure. (I think being a dominatrix and being fed up with being naturally submissive has something to do with it)
Ah well even in my dorkiest forms, I guess you know a little bit more about me. I know i am gonna read this journal entry a month from now and just crack up laughing....
Mistress Violet
This is my first journal entry ever! I would like to say that I am really excited to keep an online journal... I need a way to vent all my crazy experiences, my crazy thoughts, my crazy feelings.... my fucked up crazy neurotic thought processes.....And my ability to be the most BOY CRAZY girl on the planet.
Let me see if i can give you an idea of what my day consists of
10am- wake up prolly from a dream about a hot boy
12pm- have lunch with my friend melody talk about boy drama
1-4pm go to school (while studying hot boys in class)
5-11pm get paid to dominate men on the internet, while getting to know cute local boys on AIM
Midnight- Go out to the bars with ex boyfriend, or hang out with friends and bullshit, or go to bed, design, surf the web, watch a movie, or go on a date
Weekends: kick it with hot boys, kiss them, cuddle, go to parties, be BOOOOOY crazy...
Being so boy crazy is something that I have been like since i was in Kindergarten. I remember being five years old, and spying on the high school boys across the street, and being in 'love' with my little friends older brother. at the age of FIVE! At the same age, I used to run around the yard naked in hopes that the paper boy would see me. (i shit you not) So it all makes sense to why I do what I do for a living.
But the truth about being so boy crazy is that it is really quite emotionally draining to be into something so ungratifying at times. I have been in love before. Three times to be exact. I had one 2.5 year relationship, a 1.5 year relationship, and an 11 mo. relationship I have been in lots of little relationships. I find relationships very draining. I am a pisces, so my tendency to put myself 110 percent into a relationship doesn't leave a whole lot of time and energy for myself. This is frusterating! I would like to experience a guy whose problems don't become my problems, but from what I learned everyone has baggage and it's unavoidable. So to feed the urge of having boys in my life w/o a relationship, I date with no strings like there is no tomorrow.
I definitely think have become quite the infatuation junkie. I love the beginning feelings of the first kiss, the first naked makeout session.. and I usually don't take it to sex unless I want sex. I normally only want sex if I have been dating them for at least a month or so and they are on their way to becoming a boyfriend. I do have sex buddies if I need some un-emotional sex, but that is only if my vibrator is broken or if I am desperately feening for oral sex. I don't allow myself to be pressured for sex by a guy. Which is empowering.....since in my past I didn't know how to deal with that pressure. (I think being a dominatrix and being fed up with being naturally submissive has something to do with it)
Ah well even in my dorkiest forms, I guess you know a little bit more about me. I know i am gonna read this journal entry a month from now and just crack up laughing....
Mistress Violet
