Why do I go through such phases? Sometimes I am the healthiest person and other times I feel like I can be a bit self destructive. It seems to be a teeter totter of life with me. I have to say drinking is mostly the culprit! Drinking since I have reached the tender age of 28, has no provided me with the most intense and cruel hang overs of my life. This doesn't even have to be from a large amount of alcohol....sometimes I get a huge hang over just from 2 drinks! sometimes from 1 if I drank the day before. UGH! I can't sleep well when I drink and yet, it's very hard for me to go out and just have 1 drink. Sometimes I just drink, and drink, and drink and this lack of self moderation leads to me doing things that are somewhat embarassing......ie. drunk myspacing messages that make no sense.... saying things to people that are a little fiesty.....

Last night I went dancing with friends from 12:30 at night to 4am and didn't drink a thing. It was great. I had amazing sex the night before with one of the sexiest Australians I have ever met, I did hot yoga, I ate a delicious salad and danced with no alcohol. I felt like a million bucks. Why can't I do this every day? Imagine how hot I could become and stay hot like Demi Moore who is 40 years old and looks like she is 28.

I need to wear a string on my finger with a little note that says.... remember how good you feel when you don't drink.

tokyo is crazy.....last saturday night I pulled a 24 hour drink a thon with two gay boys who painted my naked body with liquid eyeliner. It was so much fun! needless to say I am still recovering! Besides that teaching 300 students a week is pretty awesome. Some serious ups and downs happen though. moments I feel very home sick other times I feel like I never want to leave. I have been rubbing elbows with some pretty substantial people though, so that has been really good!

All I can say is Tokyo is amaziiiiiiiiiiing!

The flight was so long. Seriously I feel like I have been traveling for days. I left at 2:30pm monday, and didn't get into Tokyo until 5pm the Tuesday which in Portland time was around midnight because of the time delay and crossing the international dateline.. One of the best things about international flights is you get your own tv, where you can watch any movies on demand for free and you can play video games! Sweeeet!

I sat next to this Phillipino girl from Hong Kong who had the most beautiful british accent. I guess since Hong Kong was ruled by the brits for a long time that they speak with a british/chinese accent, strange, but I loved the accent. She was beautiful, lived in portland for the last 2 years studying her Master's in Psych....she talked my ear off and told me lots of things I had to look forward to being a white person in an asian world. She told me how many opportunities I would have in Japan and in hong kong just because how much chinese and japanese love white people. She was going on and on about how people will want to be my friend just because I have pale skin. This was all very shocking to me as she described how asian women are constantly buying over the counter products to bleach their skin, and feel like white people are superior over them. Isn't that strange? I was perplexed.

Ok so Tokyo is the craziest place I have ever been in my life. I have never encountered such amazing hospitality. I got off a bus in Shinjuku which is a very busy area that is close to the leasing office where I am renting my room .... I get off the bus and my bags are so big and there are so many people on the street, I have problems even walking 2 feet.....I asked these girls if they knew english....They decided to befriend me! This girl not only pulled one of my bags for me but then drew a map for the cab driver to take me to the right hotel, and then gave me her phone number and her email address even though she doesn't speak any english.....cute... I'm making friends without even trying.

Everyone is so tiny here that my suitcases barely fit in the cab. The cab driver spoke absolutely no english. He told me the fare in Japanese I had to look at the reciept to pay it. At this point I am really kicking myself for not learning basic Japanese before coming! Oh well I have a year! But still, talk about making it hard on myself. At the same time, I get a big kick out of looking around and not recognizing any words and having to communicate through charades. It makes me feel like I'm in my own little bubble... I love it!

Then when I got to the Star hotel they didn't have any vacancies. I had missed my opportunity to go move into my house tonight cause the bus got in too late and the leasing office was closed. So here I was in one of the busiest parts of Tokyo with 2 huge bags, and no one really speaks english, I don't have a hotel room, and I am starting to wonder if I am going to have to sleep on the street......everyone is staring at me like I am either the most beautiful or horrific thing they have ever seen.... I can't really tell. I just can't get over how amazingly stylish and sweet and beautiful everyone is. And I feel like a sweaty, traveling train wreck, and yet everyone wants to help me, and that is when I realized I LOVE THIS CITY!

If you ask someone if they speak english they are delighted to practice it on you. At this first hotel with no vacancies, I had 2 new people carry my bags up the escelator cause they were too huge .... When the hotel declined me cause they were full I almost lost it. I guess my plan to reserve a hotel room prior to me leaving got shoved to the wayside to do other things like work, being hung over, and hanging out instead of planning this better....

Anyway, after the first hotel denied me this group of freshly graduated college students who were dressed amazing actually not only called and booked a room for me, but pulled my bags down the street . The room is a mere $220 for the night! HAHA! I knew that it was going to be about that expensive, but I am just doing it one night, and I am choosing to be near the leasing office opposed to staying at a cheap hostel and having to cab it too far. Honestly I would have paid $500 to take a shower after an 11 hour flight and a 3 hour bus ride from the airport to tokyo. I am so happy to be looking at some crazy neon lights out my window as it is only 9:49pm here, and it's 5:49am back home.

I must sleep!

Oh one more thing...my phone doesn't work! GOD DAMMIT! THe tmobile people said it should work on the wifi but I haven't got it to work yet. Maybe this will change but in the meantime if you need to get ahold of me either email, myspace, I think I am going to get skype or some other VOIP system.

xoxox

Gosh. I'm having a burning desire to make my own portfolio site for my business and I'm just feeling so overwhelmed by it all. I am my own worst client. Indecisive... Exhausted... Difficult to please...And my own worst critic!

Is anyone in vegas and wants to come model for my website? This is for boys and girls I am needing models to pose with my cool t-shirts on! And they aren't to purchase just to show how well designed they are...I did the sub contracting on the printing but the designs and concepts are all mine!

I'm so tired! God Dammit someone please wake me up!

So I went to a Vice Magazine party last night, it was ok. I did have all you can eat sushi before hand though it was AMAZING!!!!!! Vegas is so notorious for crazy creative rolls and sushi delicacies and all you can eat. It's so strange this doesn't happen other places. I also went to ghost bar and moon bar, both of full of people who are not really my style. However I did meet one nice young gentlemen by the name of Paul. He was nice. I didn't really drink much cause I had to drive, and I have finally and happily quit smoking! Yay! My face and skin feel so much better. I was always just a casual smoker, but still it's gross, and my lungs and teeth thank me. Now I'm off to Magic, Project, and Pool and if you know what those three things are you will think that is cool!

Why is it that I love being alone so much? I just love being left alone to dork out and only be social occasionally. It seems as if I am an oxy moron in so many ways.... an organized person in a disorganized persons body... a social loner...a fiesty sweetheart. An optimistic grump. All I can say is, wherever I lay my head can be home as long as I have a comfortable private bedroom with a good bed, good bedding, and no loud noises of children and people walking around me as I sleep. I think hanging out with children is the best birth control ever. When they are babies they are SO cute and enjoyable for the most part, unless of course they are colicky or something. Then it seems like the pre pubscent or when they start to talk, scream, run, and get into everything it kind of reminds me of having untrained dogs jumping on everything. I love children don't get me wrong, but I am definitely not having any until I'm 35....hopefully I wwon't be barren. hahahaha.

Moving to Tokyo March 24th... it's getting closer and closer and I am so excited I can hardly wait!!!!!!!! I am about ready to embark on the adventure of a lifetime! If you are in Japan, let me know cause I would like to meet up for a drink or sushi. If you are not in Japan but coming to visit Tokyo soon, let me know and maybe we can also meet up for a drink or sushi, or even better Karaoke!!!!!

Just found out last night, that I am one of the newest instructors at a university in Tokyo! I am going to be an t instructor of Conversational English to Frosh and Sophomores of the university. It is going toi be so fun! You must come eat sushi with me in Japan!