I might consider returning to give you more excuses to leave "We want vag" tags.

It's been quite a while, huh?

I must admit that even if I have been really busy with my studies and work there are other reasons for my unactivity on the site. Like my ideas about aesthetics and challenging the beauty standards - the very reasons I became a suicidegirl. This site has changed a lot since I had my first set live and I'm not sure if I like the new style. I'm not telling that my views are any better - they are just different. It's like when I'm leafing trough magazines like playboy, they appear as weird anthropological artifacts to me, I really can't get into the heads of people preferring that kind of imagery. And when it comes to this site, I can tell you I'm not a great fan of airbrushing sets nor do I like portraying women as young girls - they are maybe the most unchallenging things you can do when you are trying to "change the beaty standards".

Since this isn't my site I've been thinking whether to try to change the site from inside, id est, shoot sets from my point of view or should I just retire. I got some of my answers when two of the sets I shot, Korento's Ordeal by roses and Miranda's Heavenly Creature got rejected - I guess I'm not shooting the sets staff wants. I thought that maybe I'm just clinging to the past and the new wider audience wants other kinds of sets. So I was quite surprised to log in after Miranda had posted her set and read all the positive feedback we got - maybe I'm not the only one longing for good ol' times

So, here are some of my favourites from Miranda's Heavenly Creature











- leave a comment if you liked it

and from Korento's Ordeal by Roses











it's also waiting for your comments

Maybe next time I'll post a proper entry but now I'll have to go to level my mage. Until then,



PS This isn't one of those "please comment my set!!111++" posts, I just thought to share my thoughts behind my unactivity on the site (though I would love to have new sets from both of my favourite ladies, either by me or Cherry.)

I have lots of work to do, couple of essays for next week, some seminaire work, photoshopping, reading reading reading (which I btw love). I go to cafés and library and drink tea. Lots of tea. Try to concentrate, read some more and write write write.

And I'm too exhausted and busy to do anything else. Sorry for my silence. I still kinda like you all

Sometimes people make me feel like this

I think it's funny that some people are so goddamn uneducated (or just plain stupid) that they fail to see that when it comes to publishing something there are no such things as "personal preferences" that "can't hurt anyone". Everything, every action we take and every choise we make does make a difference. The direction is ours to decide. Every picture on this site has the potential to widen the beauty ideal and vice versa, we can use our photos to promote misogynic paradigm if we want to. It's not "your personal choise" if you wish to show us your support on hate-crimes in a way that has been rather strong trough the history. It's just another representation building up the age-old idea about women wanting to get raped and by supporting it one does support the ongoing discourse that rape isn't actually a serious crime and women's rights aren't human rights. Represntations are highly political. They have social consequences. Why else would we be here trying to potray beauty with bodymodifications and different ideals?

I'm still waiting the racist and homophobic sets
(Sorry I forgot, when it comes to degration, violence or prejudicial action against women, it's not that important.)

Last summer I got to shoot lovely miss Korento but unfortunately our creation, Ordeal by Roses got rejected I think it's one of the best sets I've ever shot and I would appreciate if you could have a look at the set and maybe comment it - I think it deserves a second chance.



What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet. William Shakespeare, "Romeo and Juliet", Act 2 scene 2









Korento : Ordeal by Roses


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International bloggers are preparing an action to support the peaceful revolution in Burma. We want to set a sign for freedom and show our sympathy for these people who are fighting their cruel regime without weapons. These Bloggers are planning to refrain from posting to their blogs on October 4 and just put up one Banner then, underlined with the words „Free Burma!".

More information and banners here.


I'll be replying to the comments later.

Summer's almost gone. After three weeks vacation I finally start to understand how much I needed it - it's been ages since I had time or energy to just surf around, read books, walk in the rain, get enthusiastic about something. Once again I managed to almost visit the lands of numbness and apathy. With my history I should know better. I should take more time to myself. Treat myself with a good book and cup of tea instead of carrying out yet another task.



I also remembered my photography. Photoshopped a set for a dear friend and will start some others soon. Found all the pics from this summer - where did all the rare free days go?

Walks in the forests

Summer cabins


puolukka (lingonberry, Vaccinium vitis-idaea*)

Travelling

Cooking


fungi!

And other things like

Last week PinkyClyde visited Finland.



I miss her already
I think I'll have to start to save some money so I can visit France soon

So, how did your summer go?



* In the the Finnish national epic, Kalevala maid Marjatta becomes pregnant from eating a lingonberry.

Looksie what my lovely Vanessa showed me:




(I'm next to her in the new SG deck - can't wait to get a deck of my own.)

I've been a huge Rion Vernon fan since I don't know when. Before I even knew about SG I used to drool over his webpage (my friends told me I looked like her when I still had my long red hair) and wow, now he has illustrated me. I guess I'm going to faint.