I shot with a couple of my local photographers for fun,


^John Elder, this one is my favorite


^Steve Badgley

that is all

oh and I finally uploaded some videos, they are from my vine but they will have to do

Splendorlust

There are things I will never understand
how they originate in such a form
that your hair lays perfectly in the sun
and when your eye lids peel away
in the morning,
as your blankets
unfold all that was a dream,
Those eyes are so bright
and deeply blue
and afraid of me.
Out of this
you are a walking nightmare
that holds my reality in check,
while breathing down my neck.
I am tucked in by you
making my nightly wanderlust
in the deepest corners of my brain
invalid.
The wishing well in my head
has run out of water
and coins.
I am powerless to your splendor.




It's crazy how I wrote this three months ago and now it means more to me than ever before...


Sorry I haven't been blogging much. I'm a workaholic and procrastinator at the same damn time.

And as for Hell City, I had an amazing time even though my wallet and my phone were mugged out of my purse. Every single girl there was amazing and I have never felt so cared for in my life. They raised enough money to get me back home and to replace everything. I couldn't ask for a better family, and I cant thank you girls, or the people that donated enough. You will always have my heart.

BTW my set "Cross Bones Style" shot by Alissa will be in Member Review on June 10th. I'm so excited to see how it does with my black hair.. Alissa is truly amazing to work with and such a sweetheart.....





By the way, I read all of your comments and your support really amazes me and enlightens me. Love you guys!!!

Good vibes, good times, and good riddens,
Vayda

So I'm looking forward to so much <3

For starters, I went to the Jamboree festival in Toledo, Ohio this weekend.
Drank lots of beer, smoked lots of dank.

I am SOOOO SOOOO pumped for Hell City. I just found out that I will be working the Suicide Girls booth. So happy. I'll be there late friday, and then will be there for the rest of the weekend. Come say hi



Oh and I got my tattoo just about finished, just has two hours left.


Last but certainly not least, my set "Cross Bones Style shot by Alissa will be in MR on June 10th at 6pm. So excited to see how my set with black hair will do. Here's a couple previews.

So I finally got my hair back close to where I wanted it.


I am so excited for these next two weekends.
This weekend I'm going to the Jamboree in Toledo, Ohio. So excited to go to a show besides my town. Need a little vaca away.

AND
LAST BUT DEFINITELY NOT LEAST
this following weekend is hell city in KIllumbus, Ohio and I get to meet so many lovely ladies and members. I really cannot wait, it feels like Christmas is coming.


I also will be getting my leg finished, (or close to it) on Friday (April 12th). I will be posting pictures on my instagram and twitter @vaydasuicide

Also I know many of you have messaged me about prints, I will have some available shortly.


And just to let you guys know, I read all of the comments on here and instagram and twitter. LOVE YOU ALL
<3

So I am really unfamiliar with Zivity. any pointers?

here's my page http://www.zivity.com/users/VaydaSuicide

Here's a preview of a new set I'm about to upload in the next "New Model Prize" prize section in ZIvity. Shot by chrisclinton


^(instagram photo)
P.S. I will be selling prints of this set very soon. Will be signed too.


also, I'm getting so giddy about Hell City, Killumbus. OMG, going to meet so many lovelies. EPIC
and I get to shoot with Brooklyn. Miss her to death.
Keep your eyes peeled for a new set on SG really really really soon.

This is how cynical I am today.


^^ yeah that's how I really feel.

Study # 2
two hours/ graphite



kinda blurry^

happy kinda topless tuesday everyone!

I have no doubt that I've been lying to myself for a very long time. I've been telling myself that I can't draw, and that I'll never feel the same about it again. This is no masterpiece, it's a 20 minute sketch of Louis Icart's "Smoke". However, I haven't felt this calm and connected to my happy place in a long time. And I'm proud that after months of not even drawing, I can produce something decent in 20 minutes. I should probably draw almost every day and see what happens...



^ I know it's rough, and it's bad camera phone quality picture taking... but I'm proud that I approached this side of myself again. Oh how I have missed you.




By the way I just started using Zivity. The site is kind of confusing so if you guys have any pointers or guidance let me know. MY PROFILE

I can't stand being sick. Gets in the way of everything... well almost everything..






oh yeah and by the way it's still fucking snowing like it's chirstmas over here in western, ny.

o_0 I'm goin crazzyyy