This all that is really going on in my life right now.

This expression ....

Happy New Years to all you lovely people out there in SG world. Hope you all have a fun nighttttt

my veins do not flow of gasoline
although my head lay in ruins
a toxic spill erupted my epiphany
imagination was stolen

On my facebook page, one of my old friends just posted this on my wall.... I am crying

im sure you hear it all the time but i wanted to say that youre gorgeous. one of the prettiest girls ive ever had the pleasure of knowing. i know you dont agree with that, and that sucks. but with that being said i just wanted to thank you for being such a nice person. youve never said a single rude word to me. you accept everybody unless they give you a reason not to. you dont judge people by appearances and thats awesome. just do me a favor and stay you. assuming youre still the you i knew. and yea. that did rhyme.

dont be sorry. everybody needs there space. ive just been around a lot of grimey people lately and it made me realize who the few that arent really are. youre an amazing person. youre beautiful and have an awesome personality. i wanna see you go far in life. and im sure you will.


Like that was an amazing end to my year. Idek know what to say, I forgot the people that had this much fate in me.




On another note this is a little something I wrote this morning

another thing I wrote

So it is three days away from Christmas.... I live in New York (not NYC) and there is absolutely no snow on the ground. For some reason though, it's not just the lack of snow that doesn't feel like Christmas. The people in my town lack a certain light that is supposed to come around the holidays. I don't know if it's just my outlook on my personal life or if what I'm seeing is correct. To be honest, it's making this time of year even more of a struggle, and well, I feel completely lost. None the less, I'm trying to stay strong and make certain changes in my life, spend more time with different people, revisit the things that made me feel life myself, and try not too dwell so much on my fear of the future. If I don't revisit to post another blog before the holidays, I wish you all a Merry Christmas, or whatever you like to call it, and I hope 2012 is a good year with new memories and experiences to come.



Love you all,
Vayda.




PS:
I watched the Grinch today
LUFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF that movie

Recently, my life is very torn in between two different worlds, and usually that would sound exciting. It's nothing but struggle though. Thank goodness the holidays are here, I'll be surrounded and reminded by what matters most.

I had a Christmas Party recently!




SHINAAAAYYYYY DRESS <3

It was pouring so hard outside today. Very weird for New York to be having a rain storm in December and not a snow storm. OH WELL. I can't really complain, I hate the snow mostly.








This is my jam of the day. I've been humming and dancing to it all day

All we want is someone that cares enough to take away our pain.

I miss my burning passion,
what drove me to deprive thee,
drove me to fight for him,
to kiss and conquer him.
Passion fruit,
it was dripping from my lips
and the tears of the sky.
Hip bones accessorized my figure,
so fragile I was.
Cheek bones could cut glass,
my face wasn't even posing.
The fire brought me to darkness,
and It was my home.

New bra