I feel incredibly lost and drown out. I can't keep up with anything or anyone in my life.
#whatthefuckiswrongwithme

Maybe this town really is my hell... I always have such a different energy when I'm away from here. It's like my soul lives on blue skies and palm trees.... you don't find much of that here.


^that's an old picture of me. I used to have my septum done, but I took it out. Seemed to be too crowded on my face. I miss it sometimes though...

So here is my Friday the 13th tattoo



It's not that I necessarily believe that today should be filled with unlucky happenings, I belive this day is a sensitive day for spirits. Both good and bad. Not sure why, but that's how I feel about it, that's what it has always seemed.



I'll be heading to Ohio today to get in our hotel and such.
Then the Jamboree is Saturday and Sunday!

So excited.

I love all youus <3 Vayda

This picture makes me giggles

So I'm back from Florida... we forgot the digital camera hahahha
so we had to buy a disposable one. So I'm waiting on getting those developed currently :/
Howeverrrrrrrrrrrrr I took some pictures with my phone at least

When I first arrived to Florida I saw that lovely view in the late morning <3

Thennn we checked into our awesome condo.
Below is me and my boytoy being dorks in our OWN bathroom :X
(I blocked out his face for identity privacy)


The next day we went around Florida doing random things.
Boytoy popped my go cart virginity
So much fun!!!!


The last few days were Disney World and being beach bums.
This picture was taken at Epcot in Disney. After a long long long fun day

^I love this picture soooo much



This weekend I'm going on another adventure!!!
To the Jamboree Music Festival in Toledo, Ohio. SO STOKED
Two whole days of metal awesomeness <3
I'm ready to get all angry and sweaty and stuffinsss
Maybe I'll get into a fight with another boy like I did last year lol.... whooo knows

http://www.thejamboreeohio.com/2012-line-up/


I want to do another set so so so so so so so so badly. I'm so motivated for a new one
Love you all for your support! You guys rock <3

Love Vayda

Just one of those days when I have so much to do, but I don't have the energy or fight.
Also I need a new set pretty badly..

Hope you all are having a better day than mine

<3 Vayda

Hello all of you beautiful people. I'm finishing (well procrastinating) packing up to hit the road for Florida! I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (yes that much) excited. And I get to go with my favorite person in the world.


I'm pulling an all nighter tonight so I can just sleep the whole drive :p

So with that said I won't be on here for a whole week, but I would still appreciate your guy's love and messages to come home to. I hope you all have a wonderful spring break, I'll be coming home with some pictures to share <3

Love and tittes,
Vayda

I hate when I procrastinate on writing essays... ugh. Microsoft Word keeps freezing on my computer. Errrggg. Looks like I'm getting points off.

Anyways here are some pictures of a tubular Sunday outfit lol.


So excited for Tyler the Creator's show OFWGKTA's "Loiter Squad" on Adult Swim tonight, so I'll be watching that this evening



Hope all you lovely people had a great weekend!







^This picture is so cute lol

^ Hahaha most fake smile ever.....

Anyways, I am really excited (yet stressed out because I'm on the borderline of affording this) about going to Florida for a week. I need the beach, the southern comfort, and sand between my toes. I am also stoked that while I'm down there I get to go to Disney for two days!!!!!! I'm going to be all giddy with joy. Are you guys having a nice getaway for your spring break?! It really feels nice to know that I'm going somewhere this year, I haven't really had a "vacation" for three years now (I should feel lucky that I ever had vacations though because a lot of people don't get to experience what I have in my rural area). I feel pretty lucky.


^ My room is a tornado and my mirror needs some windex lol :X

I'm hoping to do another shoot really soon wiff Brooklyn, I need to save up some cash flow for that too. I'm an 8 hour drive away from her, but it's worth it because I think she's amazing.



This nice weather we are having in my town is making me feel so alive!!!! I always get those winter blues, and become an antisocial bear in my "cave" a.k.a. my house.

Hope you all have a lovely evening
Much love, Vayda

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^Shaking it to this

Sometimes I wanna just fly away
and make the birds stay
show them how it feels
to aspire mobility
being limited by feet, airplanes, trains.
Sometimes I wish I could be
a part of the wind,
make the kite hold the string,
and watch me shine in
the sunlight,
watch me dance in
my ribbons of glory.

Most days I just sit
drink my caffeine
light my smoke, make a fire,
I run while standing
in place,
my gift is insanity.
Thoughts soar in the wind,
and flutter like butterflies,
eating at me thin
to make me cold.
Quench myself with water.
I bond with nature
green with envious delight,
I keep this enemy in sight.
One with the birds,
my eyes follow them
inside my wings soar,
my ribbons of hair blow in the wind,
and I feel beautiful, raw.
Dirt underneath my fingernails.
Life is beautiful with a chance of
thunder, peaking through the clouds
taunting me with lightning.

I had a dream about killing myself, I don't even want to die. I feel disturbed. Today is just a bad day.





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I felt pretty worthless today, I missed school... eeks.

I love you all for your continuous support <3

here's some cats and such






^^ Before my face was holy and my skin was inked. (09')


Vayda