It seems as though all of the hopefulness I've received from you all, my family, and friends have really created an amazing turn around. Like, this sounds crazy, but I went back to the eye doctor and he explained to me, that in fact I don't have Glaucoma, and he made a medical mistake? So thank goodness I don't have Glaucoma, however, I am now left wondering what I do have. He told me to continue using my steroid eye drops and see what else progresses, I couldn't thank you guys enough for your love, seriously, I was in tears.

*sighofrelief*







and more..






I really want to blow down so much reefer.
DROOL



and make sure you remember to....



Zombie knows what's up with this <3

"And you won't ever fucking know
'Cause I won't ever fucking show it
Except when I be wheezy from that other cup of potion"

I love you all, your support means so much to me<3

Really really need some sort of hope right now. Finding out you have Glaucoma at the age of 21 is never a good thing to hear, they aren't sure what strand of Glaucoma I have at the moment. I'm not trying to be like poor me right now, but going blind could possibly just be my worst nightmare. Now the only thing I can do is wait and see...

I don't even know what to do with myself right now.

Much love, Vayda



"Taxi driver
I swear I've got three lives
Balanced on my head like steak knives
I can't tell you the truth about my disguise
I can't trust no one"



I just made a Facebook

So I am super excited to be going to NYC this weekend to do a couple shoots with Brooklyn <3 The black hair will be different to work with haha. Not too much else has happened since my last post besides finding a red lipstick that I love hahaha


Yell Magazine feteaured me and Heathen in an article the other day
http://www.yellmagazine.com/suicide-monday-heathen-suicide-vayda-suicide/44576/2/


Also I'm excited to FINALLLLYYYYYYYY learn how to snowboard this year, aahhh!
My friend gave me a sweet snowboarding jacket

^^A little drunk right there hahaha


Are you guys excited about Thanksgiving? What are you thankful for (besides all of the beautiful ladies in SG)?


Here's some tumblr randomness

"We destroy the things that make the world go 'round, we are the reason there is blood on the ground"


Stay golden

I just did a photoshoot for my friend and his studies. This picture was my favorite



I love The Weeknd's videos...

I can not FUCKINNGGGGGGGG believe that I just turned fucking pink. Holy shit. wow

First of all, Brooklyn is the shit. Such an amazing sweetheart who has given me a lot of confidence through this.

Secondly...

I love you guys so much. Thanks for all of your support. I am freaaakkinnngggg outttt hahaha
I'm about to go celebrate.


This picture is 1 minute after I found out.



November 13th ladies and gents.







The king of YOLO died today
Rock on forever dude Mitch,



Ass for dayyys

http://www.underthegunreview.net/2012/11/01/rest-in-peace-suicide-silence-vocalist-mitch-lucker/

Vocalist of Suicide Silence died today in a motorcycle accident. Damn it....

Rest in peace stomp man <3





here's some booty, I apologize for the dirty mirror...

I have too much anxiety from this storm right now. But I want to give my good vibes that I have left to all of my East Coasters, it is getting ugly.



yeah I'm kind of upset.


I love metaaaaaalllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll <3

Hopefully I make some of you smile this morning with this adorable pugseal





hahaha <3

Well my set is still in MR. That's okay though, still staying positive.
I've made a wonderful new friend in my life, and she is a lot like me. I'm so glad I have someone who is 10 minutes away to vent and spill my guts to.

Life is pretty good. And I'm content with that.


I got more work on my tattoo by the wayyyy, not much, but it's all I could afford.


Instagram: @placebosuicide
Tumblr: http://placebosuicide.tumblr.com/


should I make a facebook page? Or just wait to see if I turn pink?