I write sometimes...



Splendorlust

There are things I will never understand
how they originate in such a form
that your hair lays perfectly in the sun
and when your eye lids peel away
in the morning
as your blankets
unfold all that was a dream.
Those eyes are so bright
and deeply blue
and afraid of me.
Out of this
you are a walking nightmare
that holds my reality in check,
while breathing down my neck.
I am tucked in by you
making my nightly wanderlust
in the deepest corners of my brain
invalid.
The wishing well in my head
has run out of water
and coins.
I am powerless to your splendor.

DjDymacel sent me a Carhartt hat!
Thank youuuuuuuuu, made my day!



If you also feel like being extra extra extra generous, I have a lot of wishes in the link below
Wishlist




oh by the way, I'm getting my stitches out soon for my dog bite. The area where it happened on my arm is so weird, pretty sure he damaged some of my nerves.... oh well.

I got a new job bar-tending/waitressing! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Pretty nervous, and I start tomorrow. I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine.

You all really brighten my day. Thanks for your support.
Love always, Vayda

By the way I got my SG merch in! I took a picture of myself in their adorable tee shirt <3




My dog bite is starting to look a lot better!


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the past few days have been hell
I've been wanting to update but I don't have the will power

I'm sorry I'll be back to update soon

It seems as though all of the hopefulness I've received from you all, my family, and friends have really created an amazing turn around. Like, this sounds crazy, but I went back to the eye doctor and he explained to me, that in fact I don't have Glaucoma, and he made a medical mistake? So thank goodness I don't have Glaucoma, however, I am now left wondering what I do have. He told me to continue using my steroid eye drops and see what else progresses, I couldn't thank you guys enough for your love, seriously, I was in tears.

*sighofrelief*







and more..






I really want to blow down so much reefer.
DROOL



and make sure you remember to....



Zombie knows what's up with this <3

"And you won't ever fucking know
'Cause I won't ever fucking show it
Except when I be wheezy from that other cup of potion"

I love you all, your support means so much to me<3

Really really need some sort of hope right now. Finding out you have Glaucoma at the age of 21 is never a good thing to hear, they aren't sure what strand of Glaucoma I have at the moment. I'm not trying to be like poor me right now, but going blind could possibly just be my worst nightmare. Now the only thing I can do is wait and see...

I don't even know what to do with myself right now.

Much love, Vayda



"Taxi driver
I swear I've got three lives
Balanced on my head like steak knives
I can't tell you the truth about my disguise
I can't trust no one"



I just made a Facebook

So I am super excited to be going to NYC this weekend to do a couple shoots with Brooklyn <3 The black hair will be different to work with haha. Not too much else has happened since my last post besides finding a red lipstick that I love hahaha


Yell Magazine feteaured me and Heathen in an article the other day
http://www.yellmagazine.com/suicide-monday-heathen-suicide-vayda-suicide/44576/2/


Also I'm excited to FINALLLLYYYYYYYY learn how to snowboard this year, aahhh!
My friend gave me a sweet snowboarding jacket

^^A little drunk right there hahaha


Are you guys excited about Thanksgiving? What are you thankful for (besides all of the beautiful ladies in SG)?


Here's some tumblr randomness

"We destroy the things that make the world go 'round, we are the reason there is blood on the ground"


Stay golden