Can NOT bielieve that this is coming so close to home. THE PLOT IN YOU, I DECLARE WAR and much more are playing a show in my area. It will be awesome that they are coming to such a small town, with a dwindling music scene. Our music scene used to be fantastic. Maybe this is the little nudge our town needs.




The Plot in You


Fit for a King


I Declare War
<3



I don't know if any of you are familiar with these bands, but this is huge for my town.

So stoked!!!


By the wayyyy, happy topless tuesday everyone
My first set "Frolic" shot by Brooklyn in the summer of 2011

^ pretty tan there, huh?
haha

Today my lover turns 20. So weird that he isn't a teen anymore. I still am one at heart.
We will be eating good, smoking good, and drinking lots. The weather today is gorgeous compared to what it has been. As bizarre as it may seem to some of you, I am happy that it's 45 degrees Fahrenheit out side. The sun is shinning and I'm happy.



much love

this is still one of my favorite pictures from my first set "Frolic" shot by Brooklyn

today has been a lazy one.

"I must also have a dark side if I am to be whole."
-C.G. Jung











Recently someone in my family overdosed on Heroin. If you know anyone who is using, let them know that if they don't stop they might have to make their loved ones watch them puke up blood, and have seizures. Be fucking hard on them, don't enable them before it's too late. Tough love is the only love an addict really NEEDS. Let them know that you are in for the fight, and that they are not alone. I'm losing too many people around me to Heroine, and if I could banish the drug I would.

I've had a rough day. But I'm going to fight for them.
Any positive energy would be greatly appreciated, I'll be fine, it's my family that needs it.

I have news.

I am now slightly ginger looking haha



I was aiming for blonde, but I kinda like this look and might keep it a while, who knows though with me hahaha



and since it's Valentine's Day and all I think you all deserve a little Badankadonk from yours truely




If you're alone today, remember that you are your own special someone, and no one can take that away from you. I'm so sick of seeing people sad because they don't have a "special someone" on Valentine's Day. Do something to treat yourself. Take care of yourselves lovelies. Have a great day!

Finally had more work done on my leg, only part of the boarder but oh well. All this broke girl can afford at the moment haha




Speaking of being poor, I have a wishlist.
really need more options of clothes to shoot in....

you can also find me on instagram @vaydasuicide



oh and by the way, I am extremely jealous of all the girls who went to the Las Vegas Shootfest. Looked amazing and I can't wait to see the pictures <3



Much love
Vayda

I was bored the other night haha

I write sometimes...



Splendorlust

There are things I will never understand
how they originate in such a form
that your hair lays perfectly in the sun
and when your eye lids peel away
in the morning
as your blankets
unfold all that was a dream.
Those eyes are so bright
and deeply blue
and afraid of me.
Out of this
you are a walking nightmare
that holds my reality in check,
while breathing down my neck.
I am tucked in by you
making my nightly wanderlust
in the deepest corners of my brain
invalid.
The wishing well in my head
has run out of water
and coins.
I am powerless to your splendor.