SuicideGirl: Trixie
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Trixie does not take herself seriously at all. And she will steal your dog.

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JULY 6, 2008 @ 05:34 PM

I'm currently so over having sex.

It's been so long since I've been with anyone who is actually exciting to me. I want someone to make me breathless. I want someone who doesn't touch me like a fumbling 7th grader. I want someone to make ME work for it.

Chloe and I were reviewing my dating history in San Diego and I have to say that the dating scene here sucks a whole hell of a lot. The boys that I did date here I dated out of boredom and because i missed sex. But the sex was never even remotely exciting. I must say that i had the most fun and the best sex in the bay area. I hope that portland will be better.

I just want to meet someone who I want to impress. Someone who doesn't fall for my tough girl act so easily. I have mastered that art of making a certain type of boy fall for me. It's so easy. I want a challenge. I want to NOT wear the pants for once. I want to be the girl. I want to chase someone. Not like I want someone to treat like shit...i've had that plenty of times....I just want to meet a man who understands that confidence and independence are so damn attractive. That being occasionally unavailable, being busy with your own shit and your own friends makes a girl want you. It's not about being a dick....it's about not stopping everything in your life when you meet someone. I just want someone to carry on living normally and date me at the same time.

Never happens.

Not sucking in bed would help too. Lately I notice that I don't even want to try to impress anyone in bed. I find myself being bored and distracted. I'm such an asshole.

Oh well.

In other news:
We have a week left in our house. I'm freaking out. I'll be homeless and I just want someone to say, hey it's going to be okay. This is hard but it's going to be okay.

I'm selling all my shit. Everyone in SD needs to come to our garage sale. I'll put up a flyer for it later.

At least we're still having some fun...
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YonderBoy

YonderBoy

San Francisco, CA
December 2002

JUL 06, 2008 07:35 PM

I agree! And we certainly do talk about it enough... if the business does well we may just do that!

We've gone twice in the past year and both times we've loved it!

Sick

Sick

Minneapolis, MN
June 2003

JUL 06, 2008 07:40 PM

Don't look to me. I'm terrible in the sack. The meds don't help any, either.

I was just thinking the other week about humans make things so complicated. Other animals have simple needs. Eat. Sleep. Mate. Humans have the same needs, but they get them all tangled up and change them until you can't even recognize them.

But from now on I'm going to simplify my classification of things into three categories. Things to eat, things to run away from, and things to mate with.

Dr_U

Dr_U

Cincinnati, OH
November 2004

JUL 06, 2008 08:26 PM

Everything will be alright. You'll find someone in Portland to make you all tingly

Cheyenne

Cheyenne

SUICIDEGIRL

USA

JUL 06, 2008 08:45 PM

i didn't know you guys lived in SD. damn. wish we coulda hung out. good luck in portland

iamtony

iamtony

New York, NY
December 2003

JUL 06, 2008 08:48 PM

most girls i think want exaclty what you want. a guy who's a challenge. i recently dated a girl, and if i didnt call or emai or textl, she would wait about a week and i knew she would call me. then if i called her or showed her any interest, she would blow me off.

this went on for about 3 months, even before we kissed, and then she spent the night, i tied her hands to my bed, and had my way and she freaked out. it was amazing. so the next night i was dj'n and she was gonna meet me at my place later, so i gave her a set of keys to let herself in. i didnt make it home until like 6 am so she didnt come over that night. but then she started do the random drop ins, which is totally uncool.

so i diidnt call her or email her for about 3 weeks. it wasnt because i didnt like her, but it was because of all the shit that was going on in my life. and she knew i was leaving for a long time and the prepration involved. so when i did call her, she ripped my ear off, through the phone.

and she still hasnt sent me my keys either.

i dont know who's crazier, women or men?

muller

muller

San Jose, CA
July 2002

JUL 06, 2008 09:00 PM

It will always be ok. Embracing the unexpected change will force you to iprov and adapt, and that always turns out to be the best growing and learning experiences.

imagex8

imagex8

Wheeling, IL
March 2007

JUL 06, 2008 09:01 PM

Fuck sex.

PaulNikon

PaulNikon

Melbourne, FL
February 2003

JUL 06, 2008 09:19 PM

I left San Diego too soon.

_Catalyst_

_Catalyst_

San Diego, CA
February 2008

JUL 07, 2008 08:45 AM

i've been homeless before, and it REALLY IS going to be okay! i promise.

i know exactly what you mean... i have had one guy in my entire life make me feel the way you describe.. god damn i still fantasize about it! he could get me to fuck anytime, anywhere.

sex kinda feels like a duty now.. it's what keeps my man happy, so i do it for him mostly.. though i do reap minor hormonal benefits i suppose.

it's interesting to me how guys are so turned on by what's happening physically.. chicks tend to be more turned on by the situation, by the sexual tension, by the story... by the emotions.. at least i know i am.. i don't fantasize about some cock getting shoved into some hole.. i think about that guy.. how he made me feel dirty and innocent all at once..

_Catalyst_

_Catalyst_

San Diego, CA
February 2008

JUL 07, 2008 12:46 PM

hey. at least you didn't just add an entire season of baywatch to your netflix queue because it reminded you of childhood! i am teh gayness. lol

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