I'm currently so over having sex.

It's been so long since I've been with anyone who is actually exciting to me. I want someone to make me breathless. I want someone who doesn't touch me like a fumbling 7th grader. I want someone to make ME work for it.

Chloe and I were reviewing my dating history in San Diego and I have to say that the dating scene here sucks a whole hell of a lot. The boys that I did date here I dated out of boredom and because i missed sex. But the sex was never even remotely exciting. I must say that i had the most fun and the best sex in the bay area. I hope that portland will be better.

I just want to meet someone who I want to impress. Someone who doesn't fall for my tough girl act so easily. I have mastered that art of making a certain type of boy fall for me. It's so easy. I want a challenge. I want to NOT wear the pants for once. I want to be the girl. I want to chase someone. Not like I want someone to treat like shit...i've had that plenty of times....I just want to meet a man who understands that confidence and independence are so damn attractive. That being occasionally unavailable, being busy with your own shit and your own friends makes a girl want you. It's not about being a dick....it's about not stopping everything in your life when you meet someone. I just want someone to carry on living normally and date me at the same time.

Never happens.

Not sucking in bed would help too. Lately I notice that I don't even want to try to impress anyone in bed. I find myself being bored and distracted. I'm such an asshole.

Oh well.

In other news:
We have a week left in our house. I'm freaking out. I'll be homeless and I just want someone to say, hey it's going to be okay. This is hard but it's going to be okay.

I'm selling all my shit. Everyone in SD needs to come to our garage sale. I'll put up a flyer for it later.

At least we're still having some fun...