I have made my decision. Finally. This was not a bad thing to have happened, my breakup. I was unhappy, and i realise how unhappy now that I dont feel so bad anymore. i'm enjoying music, really good fucking music, and films, I can really aprieciate films again! Is wonderful. I'm sorting out my Ebay sales, got quite a few items ready made to sell (its necklaces and stuff). I've been so busy trying to stop myself being sad and have filled my time with travelling and drinking, it has been quite good actually. But now I have to settle down a bit, need to remember to eat, that would be a start. And a bottle of wine for breakfast is not good!
I have a few things to be happy about right now, I'm in a situation I never would have imagined would happen, its all kind of weird, well, not weird its good. I'm being all cryptic arent I? I'll let you all in on my next blog (its gonna be friends only so add me if you havnt already)
I have felt like a whirlwhild the past month. Just spinning around in my own little world, people all around me but I can see them properly, I certainly cant hear them, and I dont care. My little bubble of alcohol and ignorance is blissful for me. I have a personality again! I began to forget who I was, I wondered if I was even a person anymore. I wasted so much time trying to make someone happy when what i really needed was to be happy myself. I've made new friends and I go out at night often, sometimes i dont even ask where, I just go.
I realise my writing is all discombobulated and scatty, but thats what my head feels like right now!
Its a good feeling too.
I'm still looking forward to London when i can finally foget about this place and all its bad memories. I'm glad I met the people I have and did the things I did (for the most part) but I really feel like a different person now.
Annnnnyway (actually I had a message off a lovely person saying how honest and open my journal entries are and this is the only place a feel like i can be completely honest, despite it being read by hundreds of strangers, i know that the people I intend to understand actually do :kiss
Annnnnnnyway.....
Have you seen the new profile layout? You can now see my Hopefuls sets on my pics bit too, I'm not convinced by it yet, guess I need to make some covers for the Hopefuls sets coz they look out of place on there right now.
I know I promised pictures, but I'm waiting on getting my black/pink and red dreads put in, along with my new septum and medusa piercings, aaaaaand I'm booking in for more tattoos soon. Tragique is alive again! Thanks for everyones concern about me being dead for a short while, but yes I am alive again. Alive and ready to fuck you up hahah I'm being silly now Ladies and Gents. So I'll leave it here and you can have a picture I find amusing as a gift.

I CAN HAZ KAWAII BENTO BOX PLZ? KTHNXBAI