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JANUARY 7, 2013 @ 01:00 PM


Hello Dirty Birdies!

I am in bed this fine late morning/early afternoon tending to a horrible sickness I have been dealing with for officially a week now. It started in the stomach. I was sure I had food poisoning because it was violent for 24 hours. I brought in the new year puking my guts out. The next couple of days following I felt exhausted literally run down. My bones and body ached and I had a splitting headache. Next a tickle in my throat which by Friday night became a hoarse voice. Saturday morning I woke up with no voice what so ever. Working Saturday sucked! I spent the shift telling my customers "I sold my voice to a sea witch for new legs to dazzle a prince." Becoming a mime and using hand gestures. Now my voice is somewhat back but I now have a gnarly cough and the sniffles. I am spending today in bed hoping to be well enough tomorrow for my tattoo appointment. If I reschedule I may have to wait a month to get in frown .

In other news I am co hosting with Selene our first mini shootfest here in Portland! We have some local girls already on board and some ladies from Washington traveling down for some fun! I am so excited for this. I am trying to put some "oomph" back into the pacific northwest community. I am really hoping this event will be a success. The weekend after Selene & I am traveling down to NV for the Vegas SG shootfest! I am so excited for this trip! I need a few days out of Portland it's been very cold and rainy lately.

I am on the hunt for a new second club. I'll be leaving the Acropolis beginning of February. It's been a good run there... nearly 3 years but its time to move on and try new places. I'll still be at Sassy's and hopefully I'll be there more. Besides dancing I've been trying to book more modeling gigs and try different venues. Getting prepped and ready to return to school. I have been thinking about alot of things lately. It's time to change for the better.

So hoping after this illness passes I can return to the gym and start working out! I have some new fitness goals and I really want to try yoga again. I have a couple of tattoo appointments coming up too so I'll have some awesome new pieces to share with you all! I wish I had some photos to share but I have been ill so no photo shoots yet frown. I hope I'll have new photos to share soon but until then smile

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Stay Cool k?! ^ BTW this is coming to SG in March! smile

Toxic- Satisfaction Redefined
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^ 97% and over 1,300 comments! I want to thank each and every one of you who have supported my newest set so far. It means the world to me and I <3 you all so much!

Toxic-Robots In Disguise
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^RID is at 98% and nearly 1,800 comments say whhaaa?! OMG Thank you all sooo much! <3

You all make my heart melt and me feel warm and happy!

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...Yes that was a big bang theory reference....

I got the first season on blueray! I watched the first disc last night. It came from an unlikely source...

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

So my mother and my biological father (John) got divorced before I turned 2. I have not seen/spoke to my biological father since. I don't even acknowledge him as my father. I know some of his side of the family but not him. My mother was with Mike from the time I was 3 until I was 14. I was under the impression that Mike was my father for years (my whole life I was under the impression he legally adopted my brother and I). We called him dad and we were a family until my parents split. After the split my mother moved my brother and I down to Oregon. It broke my heart because I loved my dad and I was a total daddy's girl. I still called him Dad and Mike was my dad until my 18th birthday. After my mom and him split he got "remarried" and took on her two daughters. He changed 100% as a person when he got with this other woman.

Mike decided to disown me on my 18th birthday when I told him I wanted to be a Suicidegirl. Also because I posted a picture on my myspace of me in a red corset and long red silk shorts. He said some terrible things to me and called me some horrible words. He hurt me more than anyone ever could. We broke ties that day. He had a son with her, and I left that chapter behind...Well tried to. After though his new "wife" internet stalked/ harrassed me for almost 2 years. It got so bad I had to conatct legal advice/aid. She is a psycho and had a serious jealousy complex. To this day she is still spreading false rumors about me. Mike and her split a while ago (they actually never legally married). She even made up some fictacious things about him...trying to ruin his life too. Thing is now he is in councling and feels terrible about what he did to me. He wants to reconcile... I am not ready to. My mom and him are actually friends again and talking about picking up where they left off...I don;t like this. I am so confused and not ready to forgive. UGH so for Christmas he got me the first season of big bang. I don't know what to do... life has been confusing lately.



I think I am going to bounce though. I hope you all have a great day and week!
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^ Photos by Sobelle

Be well Dirty Birdies! xoxo, your Toxy!
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Tactical

Tactical

I'm lost
August 2009

JAN 07, 2013 01:04 PM

Feel better

Son_of_None

Son_of_None

USA
December 2010

JAN 07, 2013 01:10 PM

And I thought my family story was rough. You win. Sheesh...frown

Cadavre

Cadavre

HOPEFUL

Seattle, WA

JAN 07, 2013 01:17 PM

Aw you poor dear! I hope you get better quickly!!! What a great way to tell your customers about your voice loss though, you absolutely win!!! I can't wait to see your new pieces! I'm dying for more myself! I love all the hard work you are putting into rebuilding the PNW Sg community, all of us WA girls love you for it!!! And I can't wait to come down at the end of the month!

CoyoteMike

CoyoteMike

Iowa City, IA
May 2006

JAN 07, 2013 01:21 PM

I want to go to a shootfest!

Fabrizia

Fabrizia

SUICIDEGIRL

New York, USA

JAN 07, 2013 01:27 PM

I'll see you in Vegas!! Stoked!

CoyoteMike

CoyoteMike

Iowa City, IA
May 2006

JAN 07, 2013 01:41 PM

TAKE ME WIF YOU!!!

bambammer

bambammer

Elizabethtown, KY
December 2007

JAN 07, 2013 01:44 PM

much well wishes and happy thoughts being sent out west to you((((((((toxic))))))))kiss

jimcurt99

jimcurt99

Tucson, AZ
August 2010

JAN 07, 2013 01:49 PM

You're awesome dear- everyone here love you to death!!! Hope you feel better REALLY soonsmilesmilesmile
xoxoxoxox

TC_Nikon

TC_Nikon

New York, NY
June 2012

JAN 07, 2013 01:52 PM

Feel better soon...

Rosie

Rosie

HOPEFUL

Seattle, WA

JAN 07, 2013 01:55 PM

I'm so excited for our little shoot fest!! And I can't wait to see you!!!!!! All of your new pictures are HOTT!!!! I hope you feel better love! And I am sorry I missed your birthday so I got you a little something :-)

xoxo

Hemi_

Hemi_

HOPEFUL

Seattle, WA

JAN 07, 2013 02:35 PM

OMG. Have fun in NV. That sounds like epic fun.

I'm so excited for the PDX shootfest. Ekkkkk!!!

So looking foward to hanging out with you and the other girls. biggrin

AlexSevy

AlexSevy

Canada
April 2012

JAN 07, 2013 02:51 PM

Glad to see you're doing better. Love the pics, as always.

ericwine

ericwine

Charlotte Hall, MD
January 2007

JAN 07, 2013 03:07 PM

I'd love to be at the Vegas shootfest, several people will be there I'd love to meet. biggrin Actually, there are a bunch of PDX area ladies I'd like to meet too. wink
Hopefully you'll feel well soon. Sounds like flu?
As for Mike.... well, I really don't know what to say. That's a sad story.

Littlejohn22

Littlejohn22

Fredericton, NB
May 2009

JAN 07, 2013 03:36 PM

You get feeling better soon... I can not understand why your "dad" would say such harsh words to you ... I , personally hope you can make things better with your dad... It would kill me to lose touch with my daughter... You stay strong...

TwoDragons

TwoDragons

USA
November 2012

JAN 07, 2013 03:36 PM

Huh...and right about the same time you get this crazy horrid illness...coincidence?

Vegas is the place to be. I live there part time, have a place in Summerlin. Just tending bar or high stakes cocktail waitressing you could pull mid six figures, easy.

Food for thought.

Feel better.

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