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The fun news! My newest set is live on zivity! It's called "Angelic Glow."
Go HERE to see it or to sign up for a free 30 day trial. You get one vote that you can use however you like, but if you vote on my set, I get 60% of that votes royalties ($.60 it will add up over time, just slowly). I now have four sets up and a lot more pending. I loooove this site they accept all different types of models, sets, photography styles, etc. SO much variety.
The not-fun news!
My jaw still hurts, though it looks a bit better. I had a really rough night last night, just couldnt sleep at all, even after a few special drinks. I had a couple Benadryl for allergies, and also took a stimulant (prescribed for the sleep apnea) to balance it out as I didnt want to pass out at 7 tried to go to bed at midnight, and just didnt sleep at all. Took more Benadryl.. It was horrible. Laying down made my jaw and head ache something fierce, and the alcohol wasnt even touching it. I think its been about 32 hours since the last time Ive had any real sleep.
Im going to eat some more food and a TON of water to try to get some of these ridiculous amounts of medicine out of my system before I go to bed.
Maybe I should stop medicating myself, but I cant go without sleep. I have an appointment tomorrow morning with the dentist and hopefully Ill get some more good meds so I can stop mixing cocktails, which i'm sure isn't the best idea.
Go HERE to see it or to sign up for a free 30 day trial. You get one vote that you can use however you like, but if you vote on my set, I get 60% of that votes royalties ($.60 it will add up over time, just slowly). I now have four sets up and a lot more pending. I loooove this site they accept all different types of models, sets, photography styles, etc. SO much variety.
The not-fun news!
My jaw still hurts, though it looks a bit better. I had a really rough night last night, just couldnt sleep at all, even after a few special drinks. I had a couple Benadryl for allergies, and also took a stimulant (prescribed for the sleep apnea) to balance it out as I didnt want to pass out at 7 tried to go to bed at midnight, and just didnt sleep at all. Took more Benadryl.. It was horrible. Laying down made my jaw and head ache something fierce, and the alcohol wasnt even touching it. I think its been about 32 hours since the last time Ive had any real sleep.
Im going to eat some more food and a TON of water to try to get some of these ridiculous amounts of medicine out of my system before I go to bed.
Maybe I should stop medicating myself, but I cant go without sleep. I have an appointment tomorrow morning with the dentist and hopefully Ill get some more good meds so I can stop mixing cocktails, which i'm sure isn't the best idea.
OK, still swollen at chipmunk proportions! I ran out of pain meds too, so I'm pretty cranky. I didn't feel so well today, might be from something else, but I pretty much slept the day away.
I've fully moved into my parent's house, and it feels so nice to have some spaced carved out as my own. I have my computer/sewing table which is now my center of operations. Muwhahaha.
I'm sewing again!!! I'm so excited. I pulled apart a civil war ball gown I made because it had some really lazy/sloppy construction and i want to make something new out of the yards of white and red satin. I'm really excited to begin creating things again.
Some pictures of stuff I've made:
A photographer sent me some funny edited pictures that I thought I would share.
Tori as a Pirate:
Tori in a Computer Game:
I've fully moved into my parent's house, and it feels so nice to have some spaced carved out as my own. I have my computer/sewing table which is now my center of operations. Muwhahaha.
I'm sewing again!!! I'm so excited. I pulled apart a civil war ball gown I made because it had some really lazy/sloppy construction and i want to make something new out of the yards of white and red satin. I'm really excited to begin creating things again.
Some pictures of stuff I've made:
A photographer sent me some funny edited pictures that I thought I would share.
Tori as a Pirate:
Tori in a Computer Game:
Update! Requested video on bottom
Wisdom Teeth Surgery Report: Day 1
All four wisdom teeth were extracted around 9am this morning without incident. Under the influence of laughing gas and pain killers, patient told doctor about her great new wigs. One of them is really long and fluffy! (Coming to a SG set near you)
The sibling next in line to me, the oldest male of the family, took me to the doctor and waited for me to be done. He said I asked if I could take the gauze out of my mouth 3 times in a row without seeming to remember his answer of, NO! Im supposed to change it out every hour or so, but have gone the past hour with no gauze in. I do not like it.
He also said that the doctor was explaining the medicines to him and the fact that the anti-nausea was oral. I reiterated that suppositories were bad with expansive gestures and shouting, IT BURNS!!!!!
I do not remember any of this.
No complications so far. Moderate amount of blood. I do not like the feeling of drinking something cold and then sensing a warm river through the drink that you know is blood. Pain meds are so far being tolerated well, with main side effect seeming to be increase of heart rate and dizziness/near fainting when getting up.
My face is swollen, but I can still talk without too much difficulty. My round cheeks and square jaw do not help with the resemblance to a chipmunk. May see if I can make one of the little siblings take pictures.
Upon doctors suggestion, I have taken on of my moms old bras and invented a slingshot ice holder. I literally have ice boobs on my cheeks. I have tied the straps securely on top of my head so I can sleep without any slippage. Genius!
Both parents out of town, Im out of commission, and the oldest male seems to have disappeared to his friends house. Remaining three siblings taking advantage of the Free time. Recently got up and tried yelling at them to put away their food messes and to do the laundry.
I will tell Jaws that she is in charge in case something happens to me. I trust her to get the mission done.
Tori over and out.
I look like this:
Wisdom Teeth Surgery Report: Day 1
All four wisdom teeth were extracted around 9am this morning without incident. Under the influence of laughing gas and pain killers, patient told doctor about her great new wigs. One of them is really long and fluffy! (Coming to a SG set near you)
The sibling next in line to me, the oldest male of the family, took me to the doctor and waited for me to be done. He said I asked if I could take the gauze out of my mouth 3 times in a row without seeming to remember his answer of, NO! Im supposed to change it out every hour or so, but have gone the past hour with no gauze in. I do not like it.
He also said that the doctor was explaining the medicines to him and the fact that the anti-nausea was oral. I reiterated that suppositories were bad with expansive gestures and shouting, IT BURNS!!!!!
I do not remember any of this.
No complications so far. Moderate amount of blood. I do not like the feeling of drinking something cold and then sensing a warm river through the drink that you know is blood. Pain meds are so far being tolerated well, with main side effect seeming to be increase of heart rate and dizziness/near fainting when getting up.
My face is swollen, but I can still talk without too much difficulty. My round cheeks and square jaw do not help with the resemblance to a chipmunk. May see if I can make one of the little siblings take pictures.
Upon doctors suggestion, I have taken on of my moms old bras and invented a slingshot ice holder. I literally have ice boobs on my cheeks. I have tied the straps securely on top of my head so I can sleep without any slippage. Genius!
Both parents out of town, Im out of commission, and the oldest male seems to have disappeared to his friends house. Remaining three siblings taking advantage of the Free time. Recently got up and tried yelling at them to put away their food messes and to do the laundry.
I will tell Jaws that she is in charge in case something happens to me. I trust her to get the mission done.
Tori over and out.
I look like this:
For those of you who dont know, Ive moved back home for the summer. I havent lived in my childhood home since I moved out at 17 (with much bitterness and no monetary or other forms of support from my parents). In some ways, this is a paid job just like my nanny job which has come to an end. Instead of one infant/toddler, though, I have the responsibility of four siblings and an absentminded dad while my mom is away for the rest of the month. The parents have paid off my car and added me to their insurance, which is my summers payment. Besides being a job, Im also looking to repair my psyche by returning to the place where my dysfunction started (the depression).
Ive realized some heavy things about my family, and tried writing about them in my censored, boring blog, but I took it down because I believe my anonymity has been compromised on this site. Im not sure how to fix things, especially with my mother. Sometimes I feel I should just let the past go, realize that she did the best she could, and its not worth it to give it a name and put the blame on her shoulders. I feel that I wont truly be accepted or supported because our religious/moral beliefs are so fundamentally different. I wonder if the best way to keep the peace is just to ignore the elephant in the room, but that idea nettles me.
Living with my family is as tough and as rewarding as expected, except for dealing with my little sister. After one week of confrontations with her, I admitted to my parents that Im in over my head.
Shes 16, and fine with me being her friend and advocate, but the second I turned into any bit of an authority figure or seemed like I was siding with the parents, she started being nasty. As an example, I asked her to put away the little boys laundry while she was folding a load. She point-blank refused. I told her I wasnt going to argue with her, and I would just call dad and let him decide. She said, I will NOT put away their laundry, in a mean, almost yelling voice. He simply told her to put her phone in his room, and hung up on her, so as not to argue (its not worth it, I promise you!).
So, she blames me for her getting grounded, and Im told that I suck, etc.
I guess Im doing my penance for being such a difficult teenager myself, but, at the same time, I wonder at her ferocious anger and her lack of interest in trying to fix anything (she refuses to go to therapy or anything like that).
I dont know how much good I can do, especially since I still have to protect myself, and make sure the added stress of her anger/depression wont trigger my own sadness. I guess Im hardening. I cant be empathetic all the time you get torn in too many directions. I understand where my parents are coming from, I understand my sisters grief and in a way, Ive been forced to take sides in issues that maybe I shouldnt have to in the first place. But, Im here, and I guess, just like my parents, Ill do the best that I am able to do.
Ive realized some heavy things about my family, and tried writing about them in my censored, boring blog, but I took it down because I believe my anonymity has been compromised on this site. Im not sure how to fix things, especially with my mother. Sometimes I feel I should just let the past go, realize that she did the best she could, and its not worth it to give it a name and put the blame on her shoulders. I feel that I wont truly be accepted or supported because our religious/moral beliefs are so fundamentally different. I wonder if the best way to keep the peace is just to ignore the elephant in the room, but that idea nettles me.
Living with my family is as tough and as rewarding as expected, except for dealing with my little sister. After one week of confrontations with her, I admitted to my parents that Im in over my head.
Shes 16, and fine with me being her friend and advocate, but the second I turned into any bit of an authority figure or seemed like I was siding with the parents, she started being nasty. As an example, I asked her to put away the little boys laundry while she was folding a load. She point-blank refused. I told her I wasnt going to argue with her, and I would just call dad and let him decide. She said, I will NOT put away their laundry, in a mean, almost yelling voice. He simply told her to put her phone in his room, and hung up on her, so as not to argue (its not worth it, I promise you!).
So, she blames me for her getting grounded, and Im told that I suck, etc.
I guess Im doing my penance for being such a difficult teenager myself, but, at the same time, I wonder at her ferocious anger and her lack of interest in trying to fix anything (she refuses to go to therapy or anything like that).
I dont know how much good I can do, especially since I still have to protect myself, and make sure the added stress of her anger/depression wont trigger my own sadness. I guess Im hardening. I cant be empathetic all the time you get torn in too many directions. I understand where my parents are coming from, I understand my sisters grief and in a way, Ive been forced to take sides in issues that maybe I shouldnt have to in the first place. But, Im here, and I guess, just like my parents, Ill do the best that I am able to do.
Well, it's over 
. Adam's plea hearing was today.
The outcome:
-He was found guilty, so he will be a felon and have a record
-he accepted the terms of the plea agreement which included:
-30 days of jail time
-5 years of probation
-no contact with me or my family, even through third parties
I'm relieved. He didn't get sex offender status, which I think he should have, but I'm not bitter or anything about it. The really good thing is he was not allowed to plea "no contest" which basically means he wouldnt have been designated as guilty of the crime.
In other news, Ive shot my latest set for SG, called Crucify. Its inspired by the Tori Amos song by the same name, and my personal experience with the condemnation and hypocrisy of the Christian community.
Heres one preview:
. Adam's plea hearing was today.The outcome:
-He was found guilty, so he will be a felon and have a record
-he accepted the terms of the plea agreement which included:
-30 days of jail time
-5 years of probation
-no contact with me or my family, even through third parties
I'm relieved. He didn't get sex offender status, which I think he should have, but I'm not bitter or anything about it. The really good thing is he was not allowed to plea "no contest" which basically means he wouldnt have been designated as guilty of the crime.
In other news, Ive shot my latest set for SG, called Crucify. Its inspired by the Tori Amos song by the same name, and my personal experience with the condemnation and hypocrisy of the Christian community.
Heres one preview:
I've noticed that some older sets from MR have been hitting the front page lately, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that Mount Dora might still have a chance of going live. I can't see anything wrong with it besides it being similiar to my other set with Amina.
It's soo pretty, and it's been almost 5 months since I have had a set live on SG. Who doesn't need more ToriBell bubes?
In other news:
--Working on a new set for SG next weekend
-- Done with finals... think I got all A's this semester
--In the process of moving back in with my family for the summer
-- I'm going to be a nanny for them
-- My pay is that my car's loan has been paid off by my parents (pretty awesome)
--Still angry with stupid people
--I've got Jaws back!!!!
Jaws says hellllo to SGland. She sniffed a bearded dragon's tail this morning and got swatted by a 20 pound, senior cat (Socks, King of this New Land). Jaws finds the large lizards interesting, but rather frightening, and I doubt she will attempt to eat them. The Savannah monitor actually eats fence lizards itself, and since that's the biggest prey I've seen Jaws actually catch.... I think my brothers' lizards are safe.
For now.
Beware all of evil lizarddom. Your days are numbered.
My little sibling tells me that the 9 inch lizard will reach 3 feet. I'm not sure what they will do with them after that point. Seems like an awfully expensive pet to feed.
Maybe start feeding the stray cats to the lizards? Besides the five resident cats, an unknown number of strays eat the outside cat food. Along with the raccoons.
Yes, I am about to live in the boonies. Again.
Signing off!
Tori
It's soo pretty, and it's been almost 5 months since I have had a set live on SG. Who doesn't need more ToriBell bubes?
In other news:
--Working on a new set for SG next weekend
-- Done with finals... think I got all A's this semester
--In the process of moving back in with my family for the summer
-- I'm going to be a nanny for them
-- My pay is that my car's loan has been paid off by my parents (pretty awesome)
--Still angry with stupid people
--I've got Jaws back!!!!
Jaws says hellllo to SGland. She sniffed a bearded dragon's tail this morning and got swatted by a 20 pound, senior cat (Socks, King of this New Land). Jaws finds the large lizards interesting, but rather frightening, and I doubt she will attempt to eat them. The Savannah monitor actually eats fence lizards itself, and since that's the biggest prey I've seen Jaws actually catch.... I think my brothers' lizards are safe.
For now.
Beware all of evil lizarddom. Your days are numbered.
My little sibling tells me that the 9 inch lizard will reach 3 feet. I'm not sure what they will do with them after that point. Seems like an awfully expensive pet to feed.
Maybe start feeding the stray cats to the lizards? Besides the five resident cats, an unknown number of strays eat the outside cat food. Along with the raccoons.
Yes, I am about to live in the boonies. Again.
Signing off!
Tori
Ok... I've been really good and haven't gone shopping in FOREVER because I haven't been making enough surplus money to do that....
but... I really really want to buy at least one of these items.
This 50's dress is just fricken adorable, but is going to take a $100 bite out of my credit card. I don't think I have ever spent that much before on one item of clothing, but it looks like it has been made with very high quality fabric and sewing (the dress even has boning!).
I can't decide if I want the cinnamon or the yellow. I love yellow, but I think the cinnamon color would be better with my skin tone. Thoughts?
And then... Target has a much cheaper red retro bathinsuit that I want, but if I break down and order the dress I won't buy it.
but... I really really want to buy at least one of these items.
This 50's dress is just fricken adorable, but is going to take a $100 bite out of my credit card. I don't think I have ever spent that much before on one item of clothing, but it looks like it has been made with very high quality fabric and sewing (the dress even has boning!).
I can't decide if I want the cinnamon or the yellow. I love yellow, but I think the cinnamon color would be better with my skin tone. Thoughts?
And then... Target has a much cheaper red retro bathinsuit that I want, but if I break down and order the dress I won't buy it.
