SuicideGirl: Temper
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NOVEMBER 14, 2012 @ 03:09 PM


I need to update just so my heart doesn't break again each time I click on my profile and see his last picture.

I'm still not over Stu's death. I have nightmares and my jaws hurt because I relentlessly grind my teeth at night. I talk to him and bring flowers to his grave. I desperately try to unlearn the innumerable habits created by his presence - double checking before opening the window, closing the bathroom door before going out, checking if he has enough food and water, whether he pooped under that one corner of the cage again, if he disassembled the little dog figure with the wobbly head or stole my thimble. He's still everywhere. I stil miss him like crazy.

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Lee

Lee

SUICIDEGIRL

Quebec, Canada

NOV 14, 2012 07:11 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss.

PhileasFogg

PhileasFogg

USA
August 2008

NOV 14, 2012 07:20 PM

Temper,

I'm so sorry about Stu. Anyone who has loved a pet knows just how your heart is breaking right now. I cried when I read you last post at how painful that must have been. I'm not going to make any trite platitudes, but one day when the time is right you may find another pet who won't be Stu or replace him but will be a special friend in their own way. I believe that Stu himself will let you know when you're ready.

Take care.

Arroia

Arroia

SUICIDEGIRL

South Africa

NOV 14, 2012 09:29 PM

I'm so very sorry about Stu. frown
I hope the pain lessens sometime soon.

Steam_

Steam_

HOPEFUL

USA

NOV 14, 2012 11:39 PM

I read your last blog on tumblr originally, and it brought me to tears. Not just because I know what kind of pain losing an animal is, not just because I love birds despite never having the privilege of having one, but because Stu was in every part of your life, and I could feel that. I could feel through all your blogs well beforehand that he was so completely a part of your life that losing him is beyond any words.

The first thing I said on any of your blogs was how much I love birds, but they hate me. You told me they probably dont hate, they just dont show their love they same way as others. Like the things you get from them are just from their presence.

I get that now.

I hope Stu stays warm<3

Shaine

Shaine

SUICIDEGIRL

Quebec, Canada

NOV 15, 2012 05:25 AM

I'm so, so sorry. It's not easy to lose something you weren't ready/are never ready to lose. <3

caryn

caryn

I'm lost
December 2008

NOV 15, 2012 06:12 AM

That, to me, was the and remains the hardest part of losing my cat. That my "self" hasn't adjusted to her loss, so that I keep tearing open the wound by checking her water, her food, or her litter box, even though I put all those things away to try and keep myself from doing just that. For me, the only answer was to get a kitten who could need all that stuff, and fill the house with her sounds and self, while leaving me free to miss Herself.

Owie owie owie....

HeatherAnn

HeatherAnn

SUICIDEGIRL

Colorado, USA

NOV 15, 2012 10:20 AM

I'm so sorry again about Stu. I know exactly how you feel about not being over his death and how he feels like he's still around. It's so hard.

Many hugs.

kevbrook66

kevbrook66

United Kingdom
August 2012

NOV 15, 2012 01:58 PM

sorry for your loss
hugs

Lior

Lior

United Kingdom
August 2005

NOV 15, 2012 05:03 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost one of my rats a week ago and it's incredible the impact such a small creature can have on your life. It's hard to break the habits you build checking on them, making sure everything is ok, not just because breaking habits is hard but I think because breaking the habits you build around a lost animal feels a little like a betrayal. At least that is how I feel about it.

Stu was a gorgeous little bird and I'm glad you're the one who found him, because I don't think anyone else could have cared so deeply for such a tiny soul.

Felice

Felice

I'm lost
January 2006

NOV 16, 2012 02:03 AM

Trauer ist eben Teil des ganzen Prozesses damit klar zu kommen, dass jemand nicht mehr da ist. Vogel, Hund oder Mensch. Und es zeugt einfach nur davon, was für ein feinfühliger Mensch du bist, der sich um jede Kreatur kümmert und kümmern will. kiss

Key

Key

SUICIDEGIRL

I'm lost

NOV 16, 2012 05:43 AM

Sending love and positive thoughts your way!

Boxhamster

Boxhamster

United Kingdom
July 2005

NOV 16, 2012 03:32 PM

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. frown

Tez

Tez

SUICIDEGIRL

Australia

NOV 16, 2012 08:39 PM

This still breaks my heart.

hotcurry

hotcurry

Los Angeles, CA
June 2004

NOV 17, 2012 06:04 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you much love.

Neftis

Neftis

SUICIDEGIRL

Chile

NOV 19, 2012 03:09 PM

frown

kiss

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