PICS
RAWR!
::sniffles::
so i went into to work today to make signs and shit... and maybe stayed for 45 minutes, b4 going home.
i spent way too much money on cold and flu shit
anyways. I finally finished my mom's mother's day present... I hope she likes them!
(i'm wearing them
)
did u notice my piggytails? I DONT CARE WHAT PPL SAY... i liiike them. And it's hot out here in TX - there's only so many ways to pull hair off ur neck...
alright... I'm off. Happy Tue-Wends Day
::sniffles::
so i went into to work today to make signs and shit... and maybe stayed for 45 minutes, b4 going home.
i spent way too much money on cold and flu shit
anyways. I finally finished my mom's mother's day present... I hope she likes them!
(i'm wearing them
)did u notice my piggytails?
I DONT CARE WHAT PPL SAY... i liiike them. And it's hot out here in TX - there's only so many ways to pull hair off ur neck...alright... I'm off. Happy Tue-Wends Day
EWWW! I hate doing this... it's no wonder i keep putting it off.
reformatting is always a bitch - in one way or another.
and backing shit up isnt much better, really.
also, it means i may be out of a computer for a few days or longer...
and, errr... my pink laptop is the key to everything; no one would ever really get a hold of me w/o it...
::gasp::
anyways. I'm cleaning shit up and backing up pics; on my port. drive and on here
**
didnt get called in today. ::shrug:: mondays are slow.
today's been slow. I think i have a cold. I feel aweful. It's really all in my throat; I feel like my asthma got real bad, real fast and then I ended up with "this" - ::hack hack hack:: it's terribly attractive!
anyways, i'm throwing out like half of the shit in my kitchen in lieu of the results of my allergy thingy; anyone want anything? I hate wasting it... I'm tempted to post something in craigs list or leave little notes on my neighbors doors - its all new - never been opened!!! :;wink wink wink::
i kid, i kid...
::cough::
i feel very unproductive today - i think it's cause i feel so icky...
happy monday sg.
::hack hack::
who's twittering???!!!
reformatting is always a bitch - in one way or another.
and backing shit up isnt much better, really.
also, it means i may be out of a computer for a few days or longer...
and, errr... my pink laptop is the key to everything; no one would ever really get a hold of me w/o it...
::gasp::
anyways. I'm cleaning shit up and backing up pics; on my port. drive and on here
**
didnt get called in today. ::shrug:: mondays are slow.
today's been slow. I think i have a cold. I feel aweful. It's really all in my throat; I feel like my asthma got real bad, real fast and then I ended up with "this" - ::hack hack hack:: it's terribly attractive!
anyways, i'm throwing out like half of the shit in my kitchen in lieu of the results of my allergy thingy; anyone want anything? I hate wasting it... I'm tempted to post something in craigs list or leave little notes on my neighbors doors - its all new - never been opened!!! :;wink wink wink::
i kid, i kid...
::cough::
i feel very unproductive today - i think it's cause i feel so icky...
happy monday sg.
::hack hack::
who's twittering???!!!
there's just no plsing anyone. basically.
but who's perfect? - that's my question.
n e ways. that's really null and void.
i dunno where i was going with that shit.
(i do read all ur comments, btw)
everything seems like such a waste of time.
***
RAWR!
I am frustrated.
I feel like i've been sick for so long in one way or another. I found out bout two days ago that i have severe allergies to like 20 common foods that i was eating all the time, and all my life...
i've learned a lot about how different allergies cause the body to react in different ways... needless to say, it's been like i've been poisoning my body for a long time; everything is so terribly connected - to my fibromyalgia, hypoglycemia, everything...
sigh.
it should be good news.
ironic, but good.
maybe not eating the plethera of foods and stuff that i am allergic too will make everything else go away?
GOD, GOD, GOD, GOD, i hope so.
sigh; seriously tho this is the list: soybeans, milk, eggs, peanuts, cashews, almonds, oranges, crab, lobster, pinto beans, green peas, chicken, turkey, rice, corn, strawberries. (and before being vegan, I ate everything on that fucking list - for years; i grew up on quarts of chocolate milk, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and oranges...)
well shit! - being vegan I lived off of soymilk, tofu, soy products, various nuts (almonds and cashews being my favorite), pinto beans, green peans, rice, corn and misc rice and corn products, and strawberries of course!
no wonder i never felt right... if i wasnt weazing, having an asthma attack, a panic attack or experiencing bouts of my hypoglycemia crap, i was experiencing the fibro bs or just feeling ill in gen...
***
did i mention i'm still not allowed to do carbs - cause of the hypoglycemia thing?
really?
what food does that leave me, exactly? serisouly. if anyone has any suggestions, i'm so in dire need of them.
i have a hard enough time going to the fucking grocery store... now no soy products or things with soybean oil (which is everything), no oranges or strawberries
or juice with them in it, nothing with corn or rice in it... no bean burritos at most places... and even then - the flour tortillas...
today sucks.
I was weazing during mom's whole dinner. i felt aweful. she feels bad about finding out that i had so many severe allergies - who woulda known tho? - there were plenty of other reasons... no one ever thought to do a test - they are not "common" and are expensive... also, its hard to rerally determine an allergy because of the mixes of food we eat you know... it was hard to find a pattern to make sense of things.
i do know tho that my adrenal glands are not in good shape. i'm doing more tests for more stuff, but i wont know for a while what that means - probably that ill be even more limited in what i can eat.
but hey - i'm skeptical, but i hope that removing these foods that i can eat will in turn make everything else better.
i sent some of the prom pics to twitter - http://www.twitter.com/tatiansuicide
i gtg thru my storage closet and throw the "bad" shit out now.
this is gonna cause a worse aversion to food, i can see it now...
but who's perfect? - that's my question.
n e ways. that's really null and void.
i dunno where i was going with that shit.
(i do read all ur comments, btw
)everything seems like such a waste of time.
***
RAWR!
I am frustrated.
I feel like i've been sick for so long in one way or another. I found out bout two days ago that i have severe allergies to like 20 common foods that i was eating all the time, and all my life...
i've learned a lot about how different allergies cause the body to react in different ways... needless to say, it's been like i've been poisoning my body for a long time; everything is so terribly connected - to my fibromyalgia, hypoglycemia, everything...
sigh.
it should be good news.
ironic, but good.
maybe not eating the plethera of foods and stuff that i am allergic too will make everything else go away?
GOD, GOD, GOD, GOD, i hope so.
sigh; seriously tho this is the list: soybeans, milk, eggs, peanuts, cashews, almonds, oranges, crab, lobster, pinto beans, green peas, chicken, turkey, rice, corn, strawberries. (and before being vegan, I ate everything on that fucking list - for years; i grew up on quarts of chocolate milk, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and oranges...)
well shit! - being vegan I lived off of soymilk, tofu, soy products, various nuts (almonds and cashews being my favorite), pinto beans, green peans, rice, corn and misc rice and corn products, and strawberries of course!
no wonder i never felt right... if i wasnt weazing, having an asthma attack, a panic attack or experiencing bouts of my hypoglycemia crap, i was experiencing the fibro bs or just feeling ill in gen...
***
did i mention i'm still not allowed to do carbs - cause of the hypoglycemia thing?
really?
what food does that leave me, exactly? serisouly. if anyone has any suggestions, i'm so in dire need of them.
i have a hard enough time going to the fucking grocery store... now no soy products or things with soybean oil (which is everything), no oranges or strawberries
or juice with them in it, nothing with corn or rice in it... no bean burritos at most places... and even then - the flour tortillas... today sucks.
I was weazing during mom's whole dinner. i felt aweful. she feels bad about finding out that i had so many severe allergies - who woulda known tho? - there were plenty of other reasons... no one ever thought to do a test - they are not "common" and are expensive... also, its hard to rerally determine an allergy because of the mixes of food we eat you know... it was hard to find a pattern to make sense of things.
i do know tho that my adrenal glands are not in good shape. i'm doing more tests for more stuff, but i wont know for a while what that means - probably that ill be even more limited in what i can eat.
but hey - i'm skeptical, but i hope that removing these foods that i can eat will in turn make everything else better.
i sent some of the prom pics to twitter - http://www.twitter.com/tatiansuicide
i gtg thru my storage closet and throw the "bad" shit out now.
this is gonna cause a worse aversion to food, i can see it now...
headed to work.
thought i'd say HI.
cheers to coffee and stuff.
my legs hurt today.
i've lost weight over all, but since being on a new diet my legs haven't hurt AS bad as usual!
thats a long story.
MUAH
might have a random pic for you.
(eeee! I did a gir tattoo last week... or something... i did it. none the less... ill have to find you a pic)
::searches::
well... ::shrug:: dunno if i shared this one. I like this one. I'm trying to put together a better portfolio of sorts; i'm trying to combine all my shit - tattoos, art, pics, etc... into a sexy, artistic-nude kinda thing.
::laughs::
riiiight.
well, we will see. thing is, you cant share everything with everyone... so i ultimately i need to have a g-rated version too i suppose (?)
RAWR.
::rolls eyes::
everybody was born naked, i wish ppl would get over it.
i gtg.
thanks again, for all the love on Skinny Dipping. ----->>>> Did i not write enough in the description???
thought i'd say HI.
cheers to coffee and stuff.
my legs hurt today.
i've lost weight over all, but since being on a new diet my legs haven't hurt AS bad as usual!
thats a long story.
MUAH
might have a random pic for you.
(eeee! I did a gir tattoo last week... or something... i did it. none the less... ill have to find you a pic)
::searches::
well... ::shrug:: dunno if i shared this one. I like this one. I'm trying to put together a better portfolio of sorts; i'm trying to combine all my shit - tattoos, art, pics, etc... into a sexy, artistic-nude kinda thing.
::laughs::
riiiight.
well, we will see. thing is, you cant share everything with everyone... so i ultimately i need to have a g-rated version too i suppose (?)
RAWR.
::rolls eyes::
everybody was born naked, i wish ppl would get over it.
i gtg.
thanks again, for all the love on Skinny Dipping.
----->>>> Did i not write enough in the description??? 300 comments! thank you... for those of u asking bout the fire hydrant in the middle of the creek - see last post.
*
Made the video shoot this morning. OMG. super neat, but i was so so tired. I dunno how I got up out of bed this morning.
I feel like I got so much going on. Work got rid of my insurance :/ (not sure how that happened, but it doesnt surprise me - just make me mad... and sad...) - the new doc office sent me a letter and a bill ::gasp:: like $900.
I think the bill alone is gonna make me sick to my stomach
meh. anyways. that bill is not a priority - paying rent, on the other hand, is. lol.
*
Tried to post a blog the other day with pics... but I guess that never happened. This hypoglycemia thing makes me feel "fuzzy" and i seem to be forgetting things.
*
work messed up my schedule. And have me at a register again. I walked straight into the managers office this morning and told him that it wasnt going to work. (they've had over a months notice bout my new availability).. and that standing w/fibromy. is just torture.
he's gonna call me and let me know.
*
THE MUSIC VIDEO; I got to play a pretty (dead) body in a video that Vermelho was involved in. Im so excited - the whole thing is just so neat. I kinda wanted to stay and watch him work, but I didnt want to intrude and was very tired...
I cant wait to see it.
*
I feel overwhelmed right now. I mean, ultimately things are great; things seem to be coming together - in many ways - but all at the same time, maybe?... and then there is the other half of me that says I'm not moving in the right direction and that maybe these things, while seemingly good are maybe bad - in the long run - some of them...
sigh.
I feel like I know what I want. But that maybe I not ready for all of it... or just all of it at once or so fast, or just "yet"...
if that makes any fucking sense.
::shrug::
*
Did I mention that my whole family is pressuring me to marry my Neo - aka MorbidAngel? He is amazing, but I'm not ready I dont think. If I were I think I'd be packing my shit up right now... He treats me great, like a lady, and he's so giving and caring.
...but...
::sigh::
I'm scared to try. And scared that if I dont try that there wont ever be a chance. RAWR.
this boy thing sucks
*
meh meh meh...
*
I need to lose myself for a while.
*
Thanks to everyone who's left me love on the new set Skinny Dipping.
*
I happened to leave the cd with most of my san diego trip in san diego... so, yeah... no pics yet, except for a small few;
(ok, n/m... i keep uploading, but they're not showing up..)
*
Ok. I really gotta go now.
thank you... for those of u asking bout the fire hydrant in the middle of the creek - see last post.*
Made the video shoot this morning. OMG. super neat, but i was so so tired. I dunno how I got up out of bed this morning.
I feel like I got so much going on. Work got rid of my insurance :/ (not sure how that happened, but it doesnt surprise me - just make me mad... and sad...) - the new doc office sent me a letter and a bill ::gasp:: like $900.
I think the bill alone is gonna make me sick to my stomach
meh. anyways. that bill is not a priority - paying rent, on the other hand, is. lol.
*
Tried to post a blog the other day with pics... but I guess that never happened. This hypoglycemia thing makes me feel "fuzzy" and i seem to be forgetting things.
*
work messed up my schedule. And have me at a register again. I walked straight into the managers office this morning and told him that it wasnt going to work. (they've had over a months notice bout my new availability).. and that standing w/fibromy. is just torture.
he's gonna call me and let me know.
*
THE MUSIC VIDEO; I got to play a pretty (dead) body in a video that Vermelho was involved in. Im so excited - the whole thing is just so neat. I kinda wanted to stay and watch him work, but I didnt want to intrude and was very tired...
I cant wait to see it.
*
I feel overwhelmed right now. I mean, ultimately things are great; things seem to be coming together - in many ways - but all at the same time, maybe?... and then there is the other half of me that says I'm not moving in the right direction and that maybe these things, while seemingly good are maybe bad - in the long run - some of them...
sigh.
I feel like I know what I want. But that maybe I not ready for all of it... or just all of it at once or so fast, or just "yet"...
if that makes any fucking sense.
::shrug::
*
Did I mention that my whole family is pressuring me to marry my Neo - aka MorbidAngel? He is amazing, but I'm not ready I dont think. If I were I think I'd be packing my shit up right now... He treats me great, like a lady, and he's so giving and caring.
...but...
::sigh::
I'm scared to try. And scared that if I dont try that there wont ever be a chance. RAWR.
this boy thing sucks
*
meh meh meh...
*
I need to lose myself for a while.
*
Thanks to everyone who's left me love on the new set Skinny Dipping.
*
I happened to leave the cd with most of my san diego trip in san diego... so, yeah... no pics yet, except for a small few;
(ok, n/m... i keep uploading, but they're not showing up..)
*
Ok. I really gotta go now.
thank you all for the love left so far on the new set!
I am so flattered (and honored) that it was posted on the front page - thank you staff. You really REALLY made my day!
***
Just got home from a long day of flying... so this will be short, but just know that I plan to share the plethera of pics from my trip soon
ni nite SGland....
thanks again - all of you who left me comments - really, really... thankyou!
I am so flattered (and honored) that it was posted on the front page - thank you staff. You really REALLY made my day!
***
Just got home from a long day of flying... so this will be short, but just know that I plan to share the plethera of pics from my trip soon
ni nite SGland....
thanks again - all of you who left me comments - really, really... thankyou!
Thurs, April 30th - "Skinny Dipping" will be in member review.
***
other updates:
- Gramma is doing well. she went into surgery today for breast cancer...
- Mom is good. Still limited in her movement, but she's a little more mobile.
- "A" is officially a terrible friend. One not worth keeping around. i wish you luck with your whorish endeavors. But i want nothing more to do with you... friends don't do what you do... acquaintances and I have better repoire - it's a joke, really... ur "idea" of caring... i know better and I deserve better.
- Michael came out for a few days along with my brother Jason and his gf Nicole... the visit went well... we had a lot of fun and i took Michael around Austin a bit. He is so wonderful and treats me so good; we're not even dating, "fucking" or otherwise, and he treats me like a wife. (thank you Neo, I truly love you - you are the epitemy of what a man should be. hands down. I hope you know that)... I cant wait to visit with you again. You are a very bright part of life. If it weren't for you and all that you do for me...
- My ex Chris is taking care of my mean little piece of shit dog (who bit me on Saturday - attacked me, really.. for no good reason)... thank you Chris for that, I owe you some gas money and another bowl - also, I hope all goes well with ur new lady friend - truly - i just want you to be happy.
- No luck with the computer yet. I'm getting an external hard drive tomorrow to back up all my shit; then it's on to reformatting and duel-booting my dell with linux (Ubuntu, to be exact) and (hopefully) Windows XP if i can get my hands on a CD.
So yeah... Happy Monday SGland.
I really hope you like the new set getting posted in Member Review on Thursday - I'll probably be in the midst of flying back home when it goes up... and then I got a full weekend after that. so there might not be any more reminders... SO MARK UR CALENDARS - kidding... kidding...
***
Did I mention I'm gonna be in a music video? EEE! It'll be very exciting to be a part of it. It's gonna be shot this coming weekend in Austin; as soon as I have links, etc... i'll try and share it with you guys.
***
Also, this wednesday, I'll be swimming with the dolphins - something i've dreamed about for a long, long time. i'll have tons of pics to post
things are goooood, overall...
until later, ni nite....
***
other updates:
- Gramma is doing well. she went into surgery today for breast cancer...
- Mom is good. Still limited in her movement, but she's a little more mobile.
- "A" is officially a terrible friend. One not worth keeping around. i wish you luck with your whorish endeavors. But i want nothing more to do with you... friends don't do what you do... acquaintances and I have better repoire - it's a joke, really... ur "idea" of caring... i know better and I deserve better.
- Michael came out for a few days along with my brother Jason and his gf Nicole... the visit went well... we had a lot of fun and i took Michael around Austin a bit. He is so wonderful and treats me so good; we're not even dating, "fucking" or otherwise, and he treats me like a wife. (thank you Neo, I truly love you - you are the epitemy of what a man should be. hands down. I hope you know that)... I cant wait to visit with you again. You are a very bright part of life. If it weren't for you and all that you do for me...
- My ex Chris is taking care of my mean little piece of shit dog (who bit me on Saturday - attacked me, really.. for no good reason)... thank you Chris for that, I owe you some gas money and another bowl
- also, I hope all goes well with ur new lady friend - truly - i just want you to be happy.- No luck with the computer yet. I'm getting an external hard drive tomorrow to back up all my shit; then it's on to reformatting and duel-booting my dell with linux (Ubuntu, to be exact) and (hopefully) Windows XP if i can get my hands on a CD.
So yeah... Happy Monday SGland.
I really hope you like the new set getting posted in Member Review on Thursday - I'll probably be in the midst of flying back home when it goes up... and then I got a full weekend after that. so there might not be any more reminders... SO MARK UR CALENDARS
- kidding... kidding...***
Did I mention I'm gonna be in a music video? EEE! It'll be very exciting to be a part of it. It's gonna be shot this coming weekend in Austin; as soon as I have links, etc... i'll try and share it with you guys.
***
Also, this wednesday, I'll be swimming with the dolphins - something i've dreamed about for a long, long time. i'll have tons of pics to post
things are goooood, overall...
until later, ni nite....
Well... it's friday.
plans for today:
1) exxxercise.
2) website.
3) back up computer.... reformat drive.... get rid of VISTA
and install Ubuntu 
lol...
4) try AGAIN to upload newest set.
5) look at nudie pics (it's been way too long!) SG ladies neeeeeed love
6) walk the doggie...
7) clean house
not in that order. lol...
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ok. so i tried to upload again... not so much - i am not gonna try again til someone tells me that the album wizard is fixed. ::RAWR::
i hate that thing. Rigel always msgs me whenever i send in a set and it's the same msg: the set didnt upload completely... try and resend...
meh.
prob. too many prettier ladies uploading sets (???).
lol
anyhoo...
did i say happy friday?
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my PRIOR post has new pics, btw... check them out - they are tattoo pics and then a *spoiler* from the newEST set i'm sending in, as soon as Rigel gets back to me and lets me know what the hell is goin on
have u seen her new set...??? "vs. Aliens" --- cuuuuute. u should go see. SHould still be on the front page..
also... Abbiss has a MULTI! eeee! I am excited.... go look. I love that little girl.
MUAH
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gonna be leaving for SAN DIEGO this sunday; I'll be there from the 26th - 30th; anyone wanna grab coffee or something, hit me up
plans for today:
1) exxxercise.
2) website.
3) back up computer.... reformat drive.... get rid of VISTA
and install Ubuntu lol...
4) try AGAIN to upload newest set.
5) look at nudie pics (it's been way too long!) SG ladies neeeeeed love
6) walk the doggie...
7) clean house
not in that order. lol...
-----------------------------------------
ok. so i tried to upload again... not so much - i am not gonna try again til someone tells me that the album wizard is fixed. ::RAWR::
i hate that thing. Rigel always msgs me whenever i send in a set and it's the same msg: the set didnt upload completely... try and resend...
meh.
prob. too many prettier ladies uploading sets (???).
lol
anyhoo...
did i say happy friday?
------------------------------------------
my PRIOR post has new pics, btw... check them out - they are tattoo pics and then a *spoiler* from the newEST set i'm sending in, as soon as Rigel gets back to me and lets me know what the hell is goin on
have u seen her new set...??? "vs. Aliens" --- cuuuuute. u should go see. SHould still be on the front page..
also... Abbiss has a MULTI! eeee! I am excited.... go look. I love that little girl.
MUAH
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gonna be leaving for SAN DIEGO this sunday; I'll be there from the 26th - 30th; anyone wanna grab coffee or something, hit me up
catch me on twitter; esp. if ur local to AUSTIN
***
i got TONS of pics to post today... ill be working on that inbetween site designing and editing graphics...
cant wait to share with you guys! I am excited...
i'm revamping an "older site" of mine. when i am done with it, you'll have pics galore, tattoo flash, artwork and modeling prints.
eee!
***
Oh. and with much thinking... i'm gonna post that set i was talking about in my last post. I got the official dvd the other day - the photographer and i put way too much effort into shooting this one than you'll ever know and i would feel wasteful and bad if i didn't post it.
besides...
i know i keep saying this, but i think ull really like it.
i EVEN think staff will like this one!
keep ur eyeballs peeeeeeled for those miscellaneous pics today...
MUAH.
and keep an eye out in the future for the new set i am planning on posting.
***
happy thursday SG.
***
I GOT SOME WHOLEFOOD GUMMIE VITAMINS IN THE MAIL THE OTHER DAY - - THANK YOU! - they are yummmmmmmmmmmmmmy, vegan and GOOD for me
hehehe... i love getting things in the mail... ::dances like Gir::
ONE MORE THING:
thinking bout tattooing those GIR tattoos that i designed... on the backs of my thighs... any thoughts?
herer are some random pics of tattoos i did last week:
nothing special, just basics... but still... at least i get to ink.
***
i got TONS of pics to post today... ill be working on that inbetween site designing and editing graphics...
cant wait to share with you guys! I am excited...
i'm revamping an "older site" of mine. when i am done with it, you'll have pics galore, tattoo flash, artwork and modeling prints.
eee!***
Oh. and with much thinking... i'm gonna post that set i was talking about in my last post. I got the official dvd the other day - the photographer and i put way too much effort into shooting this one than you'll ever know and i would feel wasteful and bad if i didn't post it.
besides...
i know i keep saying this, but i think ull really like it.
i EVEN think staff will like this one!
keep ur eyeballs peeeeeeled for those miscellaneous pics today...
MUAH.
and keep an eye out in the future for the new set i am planning on posting.
***
happy thursday SG.
***
I GOT SOME WHOLEFOOD GUMMIE VITAMINS IN THE MAIL THE OTHER DAY -
- THANK YOU! - they are yummmmmmmmmmmmmmy, vegan and GOOD for me hehehe... i love getting things in the mail... ::dances like Gir::
ONE MORE THING:
thinking bout tattooing those GIR tattoos that i designed... on the backs of my thighs... any thoughts?
herer are some random pics of tattoos i did last week:
nothing special, just basics... but still... at least i get to ink.
