meh.

i am tired...

of everything...

if u've ever seen a completely heart wrenching music video of a broken hearted person with a fucked up mind, that would be me right now - a million times over...

quick! someone change the channel...

so i am bouncing off the walls right now I am SO damn excited. I did the "GIR dance" in front of my mom and stepdad...

::dances like GIR::

eeee!

I dunno if I can tell you why, but to say the least, I am REALLY looking forward to my birthday this year, for once in a LOOONG time...

--> --> OCT 12th ::hint hint:: <-- <--

::cough cough::

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THANK YOU ALL AGAIN for all the wonderful feedback I've recieved from you all. I especially love the amount of SG feedback I got on this last set; it tugs on my heart strings - I want so badly to be loved on this site... especially by the SG ladies! MUAH!

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ANYHOOOO... (Still no internet at home)

And I am still out of work; til tuesday? I dunno. HR keeps pushing things off - guess things were taken very seriuosly after all... so I should be happy - that HR is taking care of the issue (I think) - won't know the nitty gritty details til later on... but i will try to keep u all updated - for those interested...

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So... the other day I was in a dress up mood and feeling a lil creative and I shot another self shot set; took me a good 6 hours to do it. I think it's the best self shot one so far, but we will see i guess... Should I upload it?

I need a vote of yay or nays... lol...

It's a "birthday suit" set... but i have not decided on a name yet. It's pretty cute and artistic I think. Hope u like it...

Anyways... YOU ALL ROCK. thanks for the support and luv..

XOxoXOxoXO... as soon as I get a connection on MY laptop, i'll post new pics and a few pics from the new set...

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I'm visiting my mom's tonight and just wanted to take advantage of their connection... LOL... but I gtg for now...

Sash is fucking hot ::swoon::

But anyways.. I sent in that HR statement.

I am scared shitless. I know ya'll keep telling me not to worry but I can not help it... He is a scary guy!

Thanks for all the love in regards to BREATHE. I am greatful for all of you who left me LUV... But it could always use more! I am praying every night that this set makes the front page... le sigh*... it's been a while you know? A while and a whole bunch of sets... ::pouts::

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Thanks for all the prayers for my gramma! I actually got some good news about her today from my dad; the doctors went back and decided on only ONE valve (again) and then to work on the artery... I wish they'd make up their damn minds - they've got me going crazy with worry over her... But, as of "today" they decided to not do the two and to only do one... (sligh sigh of relief). Tomorrow they will prob change their minds again. I hope they don't, but ultimately I just wants what will be best for HER...

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Anyhoo... I got internet access thru the club house at my apartments.. But it sucks cause I have to leave my place to get it. Oh well... at least it's free... can't bitch too much about that!

If ppl were not in here, I'd totally spend some time and go thru my comments to thank all of you, but alas, I am trying to make this quick. Maybe later on today...

Miss you all very much. Sorry to be "mia" (just super super stressed right now)

My mind is going a million miles a minute. I need to slam the breaks on all this bull shit.

::sigh::

Peace, Love and all that jazz!

here are a few "happy GIR pics" for you (thanks, again to HANS! XO)

FUUUCK these legs why must they hurt so damn much?!?!

I wanted to post again before i left for Houston.

Have you seen my new videos? Tell me what u think. I'd tape more of them if i thought it was worth the effort... they need love

here are some pics for you...













but... anyways, I'm gonna re-post my last post on the bottom of this one...

don't have much to say today, except that my legs are killing me and the store meeting last night sucked ass. I walked in "dressed up" apparently... (which i didn't, I was in black capris and a red tank top - hardly dressed up)... my manager gave me a funny look down.

SIGH... I am glad to be going on this trip, but I am beginning to get worried about having to fight one of them (him) off during our stay out in Houston...

just the other day, I was on the phone with my manager -yesterday. I wanted to ask him for a day off (today) so i would have at least one day out of 14 days to relax and rest...

I call him up and say, "Hey, I want to talk to you..."

he says, "WHAT? you WAAAAANT me?"

::sigh::

I laugh, and say, "NO. I want to TAAAAALK to you."

"ok," he says, "be right there"...

he gets there and I ask for friday (today) off... he says, "no problem", then looks at my head cashier and gives her instructions to give to someone else in scheduling to take me off the schedule...

then later on that night, at 9:30 was the meeting... when he looked at me all funny...

the rumors at work are getting out of hand.

Anyways, that was my rant for the day i guess...

here is my old post... !!!!!!!!PLEASE PRAY FOR MY GRAMMA!!!!!!!!! if she's dies, i will die...

**** **** **** *****

Ok. First and foremost...

The plan is surgery for my grandma at the end of October. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if u could do anything for me ever, I ask a few things of you; one of them is to send prayers (or happy thoughts, if u dont "pray") for her, her surgery and her recovery... I am very stressed and worried over this issue. My hope is to fly out to see her during the operation (which, btw, is ONE more reason I am gonna need you ALL to PLEASE leave me love on the NEW set coming out on the 23rd - NEXT TUES.) If the set gets bought, I am using that money to help pay my way out to cali to see gramma...

Ok... Next thing.

I will be heading out to HOUSTON for a week, come saturday to help with Hurricane relief. I am going with a group of ppl from The Home Depot (co-workers)... I am scared of this (too) but am also glad to be headed out there to help. I will not be able to respong to calls, msgs or anything (to my knowledge) as I am not sure what kind of internet access, if any or cell phone reception i will have out there... So I appologize ahead of time for not responding to msgs for a good week or so.This trip is a BIG deal - 12 hour days are the norm... so I will be very exhausted, but i think it will be WAY worth it, if it means I can halp anyone who was affected by the hurricane... Please send us all happy thoughts for the trip too...

Ok... NEXT THING

MYNEW SET - I will NOT be in town/available when my new set - BREATHE. (NOT AVAILABLE just yet - but it will be on TUESDAY) If you could ONE other thing for me - ALL of you (besides to pray for my gramma) - it would be to PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE comment on this set; tell me what you think... I think this is the BEST set of me by far - Velmelho was wonderful to work with and he does AMAZING work. I really want to work with him again. So far, none of his sets have been denied. And I hope, hope, hope that that says something about HIS work and about what to expect from this set...I want to work with him again (I LOVE his "style"), and if this set gets no love, then I'd truly feel lost here...

::SIGH::

So, yes...

1) Gramma is going in for surgery at the end of October (PLS pray)...
2) Headed to HOUSTON to aid with Hurricane relief (PLS pray)...
3) the new set, BREATHE comes out next week - TUES - the 23rd in Member Review... Please, I won't be around to remind you... if you could leave me feedback, I would be much appreciative...

OK. that's about it, aside from new rumors at work, which i wont even bother mentioning to the full extent, except that ppl are talking about my boss and some other department head having a bet on who's gonna "fuck me" in Houston....

UM.... ::sigh::

I don't even know what to say to that, except, "dream on".

Hope you all are well... I'll end this post with a few preview pics from the new set... HOPE HOPE HOPE you LOVE it as much as I do, Velmelho is truly talented and amazing...XOxoXOxoXOxo







that's all u get I love you all... thanks for all the support in regards to my fibromyalgia. I am greatful for you all! XOxoXOxoXOxo...

Ok. First and foremost...

The plan is surgery for my grandma at the end of October. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if u could do anything for me ever, I ask a few things of you; one of them is to send prayers (or happy thoughts, if u dont "pray") for her, her surgery and her recovery... I am very stressed and worried over this issue. My hope is to fly out to see her during the operation (which, btw, is ONE more reason I am gonna need you ALL to PLEASE leave me love on the NEW set coming out on the 23rd - NEXT TUES.) If the set gets bought, I am using that money to help pay my way out to cali to see gramma...

Ok... Next thing.

I will be heading out to HOUSTON for a week, come saturday to help with Hurricane relief. I am going with a group of ppl from The Home Depot (co-workers)... I am scared of this (too) but am also glad to be headed out there to help. I will not be able to respong to calls, msgs or anything (to my knowledge) as I am not sure what kind of internet access, if any or cell phone reception i will have out there... So I appologize ahead of time for not responding to msgs for a good week or so.This trip is a BIG deal - 12 hour days are the norm... so I will be very exhausted, but i think it will be WAY worth it, if it means I can halp anyone who was affected by the hurricane... Please send us all happy thoughts for the trip too...

Ok... NEXT THING

MYNEW SET - I will NOT be in town/available when my new set - BREATHE. (NOT AVAILABLE just yet - but it will be on TUESDAY) If you could ONE other thing for me - ALL of you (besides to pray for my gramma) - it would be to PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE comment on this set; tell me what you think... I think this is the BEST set of me by far - Velmelho was wonderful to work with and he does AMAZING work. I really want to work with him again. So far, none of his sets have been denied. And I hope, hope, hope that that says something about HIS work and about what to expect from this set...I want to work with him again (I LOVE his "style"), and if this set gets no love, then I'd truly feel lost here...

::SIGH::

So, yes...

1) Gramma is going in for surgery at the end of October (PLS pray)...
2) Headed to HOUSTON to aid with Hurricane relief (PLS pray)...
3) the new set, BREATHE comes out next week - TUES - the 23rd in Member Review... Please, I won't be around to remind you... if you could leave me feedback, I would be much appreciative...

OK. that's about it, aside from new rumors at work, which i wont even bother mentioning to the full extent, except that ppl are talking about my boss and some other department head having a bet on who's gonna "fuck me" in Houston....

UM.... ::sigh::

I don't even know what to say to that, except, "dream on".

Hope you all are well... I'll end this post with a few preview pics from the new set... HOPE HOPE HOPE you LOVE it as much as I do, Velmelho is truly talented and amazing...XOxoXOxoXOxo







that's all u get I love you all... thanks for all the support in regards to my fibromyalgia. I am greatful for you all! XOxoXOxoXOxo...

i got some crazy updates to share later on today... some good, some bad-ish and of course, some crazy ones.... lol...

anyhoo, until then... u should check out my NEW VIDEOS and leave me some love! i could totally use it.

have a great day SG land.... post more later on! MUAH

Much of the same today. I almost called into work, they are so fucking bad

I was late, in fact, cause i could barely walk down the 3 flights of stairs i needed to to get to my car...

RAWR!

they are still hurting - i feel like I have fallen down those 3 flights of stairs... that is how my body feels; like it is covered in deep bruises - head to toes, but mostly my legs... SIGH...

I might as well have been in a super bar brawl - wish i had been; woulda made this lame pain a little more worth it - at least then, I would've been able to get out some angry agression while I was getting my ass beat (and kicking ass) HA!

On a lighter note - DAMN! There has been some GREAT multi sets out! jeeez... I need some lady time!

AmberLynn/Amina's front page set.... and Nicolelee/Chanel's set too - WOOOOOOW! - great stuff... if u haven't seen them already - u must check them out! I DEMAND YOU

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anyhoo... the short horror film for the BLOODSHOTS 08 contest is being shown out here in ATX, at the Alamo Draft House (the coolest fucking theatre ever)... at 10 tonight...

SIGH. I am super tired, but when will i get a chance to see something i was in on a huge screen again?

it'll be super cheese... as most grind house (style) movies are, but it should be fun... nonetheless.

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Anyways, I am gonna go dweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell in this terrible leg pain... GIR...

If u haven't already... I got new videos! there are buuuuuuuubbbbbbles leave me some love. I could use it.

XOxoXOxoXOxo, as always!

here's some random pics... la la la la...

(on a lighter note... here's some bubbles for u all... XO)

blah. fuck this.