So i've been without the internet since sunday which has been quite unnerving since i'm totally addicted to looking at naked ladies on the internet. But it was nice to finally get it up and running again tonight and was nice to see all the new naked ladies. Who knows, i might be a naked lady on the internet myself sometime soon. I shot my set (with cherryonionkiss) last week and once i send it in i just have to wait to find out if they dig the set. If i may say so myself, it turned out pretty good so hopefully it'll be a go. Besides getting nekkid in front of my lady friends not too much has happened. I'm going out for a beer tonight, which is way over due. I've been terribly stressed with the amounts of homework and internship stuff lately and tonight i get to do fuck all which is wonderful I also have a lot of movies to watch like Love Actually which is the best non-cheesy love movie ever, that i started watching again last night but didn't have time to finish cuz i had to get up early to go to school for my psychology test which i think i marginally passed cuz the last few chapters were all about metacognitive skills and was really boring. Ahhh...BEEEEEEEER!

Last night my brothers friend came over (who is also good friends with the fireman) and we hung out for a bit and she told me that the fireman obviously likes me. Fuck! Is he a good guy or a bad guy? He's like teetering in the middle right now and its driving me crazy. I've placed him in my mind as a womanizing individual who's company i love who i can adore from afar, and now there's possibility that he's actually not a womanizer. Arg. It'd be better off if he could just be a womanizer then i could rest asure knowing that he's better off out of my mind. I went on a date tonight with the guy i met on saturday and again he was a total gentleman and we had good conversation. Except i have this retarded crush on someone i shouldn't be thinking of. It was pleasent tho. Now i'm hyper from too many bad coffees. I should draw. I drew a super nice enlarged detail of my face today that im proud of. My drawing skills are coming along nicely and i feel more confident in my work so that puts a smile on my face. Anyhoo, SGMTL meeting this weekend! WoooHooo!

g'nite....

What a wonderful weekend. Friday i was hanging out with the girls and i got a phone call from the fireman around 11. I went over to his place and we ended up listening to music and talking non-stop till 5 in the morning. Of course i didn't disguise the intent of the phonecall so it was nice to just relax and have good conversation. Perhaps firemen are a bit more complex than presumed. I still don't trust this one tho. For a fraction of a moment i allowed myself to think how wonderful it would be to be his girlfriend then i remembered his game, the game i have chosen to partake in. So i put that thought out of my head, otherwise it will only lead to heartache.

Saturday was fun too. Bowling, then a freestyle MC to live musicians kinda show at a pub, then dancing at a club until closing and leaving with the digits of a very goodlooking total gentlemen. Coffee tuesday perhaps. It is so good to be single, the world is your oyster, and life seems to fly by in one big exciting blur...

Today I took some pics in hopes of one day joining the ranks of all the other SG ladies. Wishful thinking maybe? Thx to cherryonionkiss, my friend who can work miracles with her camera. Quite an experience lemme tell ya. Its so important to be able to laugh at yourself!!

Another good day. Taught a lesson at school, the kids dug it, and the day went smoothly. 2mrw, i go back to the school, early early start but not to worry, its friday. I wanna go see a scary movie this weekend. Actually I'd like to go on a nice romantic no strings attached date. Hmmm.

I have dishes to do. What a mediocre way to end a good day...

So the whole pretense under which we have idealised firemen is completely false. They are not the perfect men we have construed them to be. From my recent experiences anyways. They serve about as much purpose as a chia pet does, but they're fun to have around nonetheless.

The student teaching is going really well. The 2nd lesson went more smoothly than the 1st and i can only hope it gets smoother as things go along. Mind you i am not cut out for elementary school. Unless we could start using whips and belts again.

I'm very happy as of late for other reasons; my penpal who i lived next door to in england when we were 3-6 is coming to visit me in august and we've only seen eachother once since then. So i'm so excited to see her and show off my city to her!

Also b4 she comes i'm most likely going to Jersey to work in the beach stores. It'll be hard work, long hours, but i'll be independent and meeting tonnes of new people and having a blast so i hope it works out. The girl who manages the store down there said i have the job so basically there's nothing stopping me from going

Thats about all the good news for now...

So i asked out a fireman, he said he'd call. I did this because saturday night i found myself in an interesting predicament with him and he said he liked me, wanted to take things from here, bla bla bla. So i took the bull by the horns and asked him out. He said he'd call the next night and he was MIA. how rude! So instead of seeking anything substancial with this person im just gonna make him my chia pet. how fun!

On a more serious note i started student teaching this week which was terrifying and exhilerating all at once. This is awesome. I feel like i'm really starting to know where im going in life and it feels awesome.

And my job interview for the art specialist at a summer camp went really well and if the ppl who did the job last year aren't coming back then i have the job. The woman in charge said there's a 99% chance i have the job cuz she really liked me. YESSSS.

Tonight there's a booty party. And i get to see my long lost girls. Life is good!

Today is the worst day. I'm sick. Very runny nose. A creepy cousin moved in for a lil while, WITH HIS PITBULL, and i'm scared of him. And the pitbull too. And I just broke up with my boyfriend. Worst. He's a good guy. Complicated. Too complicated. Its better like this. And everything goes up. Just sux when yr down.