xo
Syd
And it's not that I don't love you, it's just that the FB is easier to get on my iPhone. And faster.
Well, Today is my birthday, and I can say that I'm estatic to have the last year over with, and I'm hoping that my 26th year on this planet is just as exciting, if not more so-but decidedly less painful.
All I want is a better year, for my birthday party tomorrow to be kickass, and some closure from a ghost in my past.
Love,
Sydni
I'll be in the Moisture Festival next week.... and then off to a weekend long party up in the mountains. I hope to be wearing nothing but snow boots, a bikini and a fur coat. I probably won't be the only one.
After that I start my big preps for Le Cabaret Noir which begins in April all the while developing my act for the Seattle Erotic Arts Festival in May.
Monday I send in my grant application for my performing, and also my application to Miss Exotic World.
My personal life is in flux. Things are changing, I'm trying to ignore the heartache of Niko's absence from my life, all the while deciding to really spend time on my friendships and my art.
Burlesque is inspiring me so much right now. Cross your fingers that I get my grant!
xoxo
Sydni
Sydni is a BAD PANDA!!!


From my Queen act:


From my AC/DC act:


xoxo
Sydni
Times are changing. To be honest, I'm awfully confused these days, with my only constant being my desire to perform.





xoxo
Sydni Deveraux
www.myspace.com/thechocolateglamazon
Photos by Michael O'Neill.



xoxo
Sydni Deveraux
PS: The blonde is fellow performer and friend, Inga Ingenue.
Today I'm sitting in my bed feeling sleepy and worn down, like the last year has settled into my body challenging me to do something different and change how I look at things. In a few hours I'm going to go do something called Ki Training. It's kind of like a martial art and meditation. I went a couple days ago and it was really nice. I was invited to come back....
Niko and I are on a strange journey. It's almost as if we keep getting pulled back together when for awhile it looked like we'd always be apart. I don't know anything except for the fact that we love each other, are in love, and trust each other. I've a feeling that the next few months will be challenging and rewarding.
My new years eve was nice-Niko took me to dinner and then we hung out with friends. I drank too much, he took care of me, and we had a really nice New Years day despite my hangover. It was the first time in years that was mellow and I wasn't performing.
I don't have much of a resolution, except to double my attempts to better myself, to love myself and be true to what I want.
I hope that this year brings all of you more happiness than you experienced last year. Cheers.
Come to my show!

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Since I've been snowed in for 6 days, I'm going a bit crazy. Thank goodness I'm getting picked up in an hour and being driven to my families house where I shall be for the holidays.
My christmas list:
Coco Chanel
Snow Boots
and that's it. I don't really need much unless I'm creating an act, and so that's all stuff I have to pick by hand. I guess I don't need much but love!
I'm also sick today. I think I caught it from Samling after talking to her sick face on facebook. ![]()
I don't have much in the way of New Years resolutions besides trying to surrender to the moment, to be more grateful, to see the bright side of things and to continue to put on a good show. I've started now, so no need to wait a week.
What are yours?
Happy Holidays and Happy New Year, SG.
xoxo
Sydni Deveraux










