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This is a picture from my performance I won the burlesque competition with:
Since the last time I posted, my love returned from Greece and our reunion was everything and more than I expected. We are really happy and again we are running around together making each other smile and laugh. There is nothing like a connection with someone that makes you feel like you are perfect the way you are, even when you are being neurotic.
I'm having a really emotional day. Here's why:
RELATIONSHIP
1. I really love my Greek.
2. I want to live with my Greek, spend the rest of my life with him.
3. But if you know anything about Greeks....and Greek Orthodox, it means you don't live with someone you aren't married/engaged to. They live with their families until then.
4. And it's only been just over a year, and we've both vowed to take our time and do everything we can to be really strong and awesome.
I'm lucky that his family digs me, and that's why I spend the night at his house most of the time. I'm just tired of having an overnight bag, and cooking in two different kitchens.
meh.
I've been on the phone talking to him about it though, and he understands my frustration and wishes he could do something about it right now, but it's a bit complicated. I am really thankful that this isn't for lack of love. I love that he's so very traditional because deep down my values are too, but at times my frustration complicates what I really want.
OTHER MINI UPDATES
1. All of a sudden I have started to wake up early. Like 7 am. I used to be a vampire, sleeping into the early afternoons. So strange.
2. I started my job last Friday. I'm really excited about it, and I think I'm going to be good at my job.
3. You may see me on television in the near-ish future. I don't know how I feel about that yet.
4. My body hates it when I drink. I think I have to stop drinking, maybe save for a glass of wine occasionally with dinner.
5. I've been cooking, and I enjoy it!
THINGS I WEAR ON A REGULAR BASIS
1. Leggings. Fuck off, it's Seattle in the summer.
2. Slouchy tank top dresses
3. Neckerchiefs
4. Gold indian earrings
5. Things with leaves on them
6. The color green
7. Subtle tiger print
8. boots
9. Gladiator sandals
10. long light weight sweaters
THINGS I AM CRAVING
1. enclosed platform heels
2. more lightweight day dresses
3. cupcakes
4. Ostrich.com 50" burlesque fans
5. Sydni colored rhinestone dance shoes
6. A super fucked up punk haircut with steps
7. To finish my half sleeve
8. An engagement ring (le sigh. I know)
9. A trip with Niko to a secluded island
10. Some cute flats
11. Turkey feather boas in turquoise and baby pink
12. A Darth Vader mask and jet black rhinestones (I got me a project!)
SHOW ME
1. Something you love to wear
2. A great website about fashion
TELL ME
1. The best part of being in love
2. The worst part of being in love (when it's reciprocated, and they haven't left you)
3. What your theme song would be for today
My theme song:
Since the last time I posted, my love returned from Greece and our reunion was everything and more than I expected. We are really happy and again we are running around together making each other smile and laugh. There is nothing like a connection with someone that makes you feel like you are perfect the way you are, even when you are being neurotic.
I'm having a really emotional day. Here's why:
RELATIONSHIP
1. I really love my Greek.
2. I want to live with my Greek, spend the rest of my life with him.
3. But if you know anything about Greeks....and Greek Orthodox, it means you don't live with someone you aren't married/engaged to. They live with their families until then.
4. And it's only been just over a year, and we've both vowed to take our time and do everything we can to be really strong and awesome.
I'm lucky that his family digs me, and that's why I spend the night at his house most of the time. I'm just tired of having an overnight bag, and cooking in two different kitchens.
meh.
I've been on the phone talking to him about it though, and he understands my frustration and wishes he could do something about it right now, but it's a bit complicated. I am really thankful that this isn't for lack of love. I love that he's so very traditional because deep down my values are too, but at times my frustration complicates what I really want.
OTHER MINI UPDATES
1. All of a sudden I have started to wake up early. Like 7 am. I used to be a vampire, sleeping into the early afternoons. So strange.
2. I started my job last Friday. I'm really excited about it, and I think I'm going to be good at my job.
3. You may see me on television in the near-ish future. I don't know how I feel about that yet.
4. My body hates it when I drink. I think I have to stop drinking, maybe save for a glass of wine occasionally with dinner.
5. I've been cooking, and I enjoy it!
THINGS I WEAR ON A REGULAR BASIS
1. Leggings. Fuck off, it's Seattle in the summer.
2. Slouchy tank top dresses
3. Neckerchiefs
4. Gold indian earrings
5. Things with leaves on them
6. The color green
7. Subtle tiger print
8. boots
9. Gladiator sandals
10. long light weight sweaters
THINGS I AM CRAVING
1. enclosed platform heels
2. more lightweight day dresses
3. cupcakes
4. Ostrich.com 50" burlesque fans
5. Sydni colored rhinestone dance shoes
6. A super fucked up punk haircut with steps
7. To finish my half sleeve
8. An engagement ring (le sigh. I know)
9. A trip with Niko to a secluded island
10. Some cute flats
11. Turkey feather boas in turquoise and baby pink
12. A Darth Vader mask and jet black rhinestones (I got me a project!)
SHOW ME
1. Something you love to wear
2. A great website about fashion
TELL ME
1. The best part of being in love
2. The worst part of being in love (when it's reciprocated, and they haven't left you)
3. What your theme song would be for today
My theme song:
xoxo
Sydni
Oh holy hell. Last night I tried to sleep after watching this er....a couple of times.
Joaquin Phoenix is pure fucking sex. If you are attracted to men, but not to him, get off my friends list. We can't be friends, it's that simple. I'm sorry, but-you simply have terrible taste in men.
To anyone that has had to wait a month or longer to see the human they are in love with, you can only imagine my level of ridiculousness right now. All my friends want him home too so I'll shut the hell up, I'm sure you, dear reader, is just like "Get fucked already!" Oh....I'm planning on it dear readers. In 4ish hours. Now, Niko is a bit of a control freak like me, so he has planned to unpack before anything fun happens (I would try to plan the same thing-I hate mess, or unfinished business), so I have packed myself a "Unpacking with Niko" outfit. It's understated and red, and I'll be sexing it up with 5 inch heels and backseam stockings. I pity the man.
I've had sex on the brain consistently for the past 24 hours. I should have put my computer down and walked away, but I like YouPorns real sex. It's hit or miss, but I feel dirty for watching.
Book to read: Porn-ol-ogy
The book is about a womens journey to understand porn and societies interest in porn. A quick dirty read.
Things I'm attracted to:
1. Quirks. A scar, gap in the teeth, biggish nose, biggish ears....
2. Light eyes on dark haired men and the opposite
3. Thick hair. I'm a puller!
4. Accents and second languages
5. Hands. I like to watch how they touch things
6. A musical ability
7. When everything they say is slightly dirty (only applies to those I'm already attracted to)
8. So nerdy they blush when they admit just how nerdy they are
9. The ones that look reserved, but have the eyes of a sadist
Sydni's tips for men: (in bed)
1. Take your time when you undress a woman. Get the bra removal under control.
2. Unless it's a quickie-always use foreplay. Even if she's dripping wet. Then it's an awesome tease.
3. Learn to talk about how you like your dick touched.
4. Kiss, kiss, kiss
5. Touch, touch, touch! Not just the "fun" parts. If I had a guy that just touched my "fun" parts, I wouldn't have learned I love the bottoms of my feet stroked.
6. Eye contact. Don't just thrust, look at what you're putting it in!
7. For fucks sake, make some fucking noise so I know I'm more than a hole.
Sydni is lucky she never has to worry about any of this shit, but she sure sees a lot of people complaining.
Things I'm into right now:
1. Dresses, t-shirt dresses. Thigh length.
2. Bold color shoes.
3. The little Vietnamese lady that does my nails. She's amazing!
4. Gold jewelery
5. Scarves, neck-erchiefs.
6. Wet n Wild Liquid eyeliner and Lancome mascara
7. Erotic Literature
8. Joaquin Phoenix (See above)
9. MS2005 (you would be too!)
10. Brown rice and chicken. Yummy.
So....this might be the last that you hear of me for a little bit....thank god. I was sick of me!
3 things I ask of you:
1. Recommend some good music
2. What lists should I cover next journal?
3. Tell me about the one food you can't live without.
It's business time!
xoxo
Sydni
Joaquin Phoenix is pure fucking sex. If you are attracted to men, but not to him, get off my friends list. We can't be friends, it's that simple. I'm sorry, but-you simply have terrible taste in men.
To anyone that has had to wait a month or longer to see the human they are in love with, you can only imagine my level of ridiculousness right now. All my friends want him home too so I'll shut the hell up, I'm sure you, dear reader, is just like "Get fucked already!" Oh....I'm planning on it dear readers. In 4ish hours. Now, Niko is a bit of a control freak like me, so he has planned to unpack before anything fun happens (I would try to plan the same thing-I hate mess, or unfinished business), so I have packed myself a "Unpacking with Niko" outfit. It's understated and red, and I'll be sexing it up with 5 inch heels and backseam stockings. I pity the man.
I've had sex on the brain consistently for the past 24 hours. I should have put my computer down and walked away, but I like YouPorns real sex. It's hit or miss, but I feel dirty for watching.
Book to read: Porn-ol-ogy
The book is about a womens journey to understand porn and societies interest in porn. A quick dirty read.
Things I'm attracted to:
1. Quirks. A scar, gap in the teeth, biggish nose, biggish ears....
2. Light eyes on dark haired men and the opposite
3. Thick hair. I'm a puller!
4. Accents and second languages
5. Hands. I like to watch how they touch things
6. A musical ability
7. When everything they say is slightly dirty (only applies to those I'm already attracted to)
8. So nerdy they blush when they admit just how nerdy they are
9. The ones that look reserved, but have the eyes of a sadist
Sydni's tips for men: (in bed)
1. Take your time when you undress a woman. Get the bra removal under control.
2. Unless it's a quickie-always use foreplay. Even if she's dripping wet. Then it's an awesome tease.
3. Learn to talk about how you like your dick touched.
4. Kiss, kiss, kiss
5. Touch, touch, touch! Not just the "fun" parts. If I had a guy that just touched my "fun" parts, I wouldn't have learned I love the bottoms of my feet stroked.
6. Eye contact. Don't just thrust, look at what you're putting it in!
7. For fucks sake, make some fucking noise so I know I'm more than a hole.
Sydni is lucky she never has to worry about any of this shit, but she sure sees a lot of people complaining.
Things I'm into right now:
1. Dresses, t-shirt dresses. Thigh length.
2. Bold color shoes.
3. The little Vietnamese lady that does my nails. She's amazing!
4. Gold jewelery
5. Scarves, neck-erchiefs.
6. Wet n Wild Liquid eyeliner and Lancome mascara
7. Erotic Literature
8. Joaquin Phoenix (See above)
9. MS2005 (you would be too!)
10. Brown rice and chicken. Yummy.
So....this might be the last that you hear of me for a little bit....thank god. I was sick of me!
3 things I ask of you:
1. Recommend some good music
2. What lists should I cover next journal?
3. Tell me about the one food you can't live without.
It's business time!
xoxo
Sydni
MOVIE REVIEW TIME BITCHES!
Last night I saw the most ridiculous movie evar, and I want my fucking $10.50 back. Or just half.
*Side note: $10.50 these days? I'm just going to start buying these awful movies and renting them to my friends or something.
MOVIE: WANTED (?)
My Opinion?: REJECTED!
Now, Angelina Jolie was the main reason why I wanted to see it, because I'm an idiot and saw Foxfire too many times as a teenager, and I can't help but own and religiously watch Tomb Raider. (I'm not apologizing for liking hot girls in "adventure" movies) The other reasons why I wanted to see it?
1. Guns. Guns a blazing, pretty guns, a shooting montage? I want it all!
2. The chance to see some hot nookie.
3. Explosions
4. Morgan "like a twinkie" Freeman
The reason why I laughed a lot:
1. The hard on for trains.
2. The bullet duel. Hilarious
3. The loom. Yes, I said LOOM.
4. The "I am your father" bullshit.
5. The guy that played Wesley will never work in Hollywood again for that performance.
The reason I want just half of my money back?
1. I saw a lot of blood, and that's cool; but the "pussy pussy pussy" guy brought the Lulzies too quick
2. Fucking scene on the train. FUCK OFF.
3. I don't know how I feel about the bullet duel, but the bullets were pretty.
4. Angelina's last moment v. Angelina's hot ass in the movie. I'm torn.
(Sydni had to apologize to Luminaire for taking him to a movie that we both laughed at for the wrong reasons.)
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Today, I'm going to sit on my ass and maybe go see Mama Mia, but to be honest, I don't trust my movie choices anymore.
Tomorrow, I get my Greek from the airport, and then I get laid. And probably get the soundest sleep I've had in a month.
SYDNI'S PET PEEVES
1. Popcorn in my teeth.
2. People that say "Hun" IRL or on the web.
3. Getting close to an orgasm and being let down.
4. Terrible last line in a movie.
5. Dirty bathrooms
6. Couch pillows that wont fucking stay put.
7. U-scans
(I have about 854,000 more, but I don't need to appear too neurotic.)
xoxo
Sydni
Last night I saw the most ridiculous movie evar, and I want my fucking $10.50 back. Or just half.
*Side note: $10.50 these days? I'm just going to start buying these awful movies and renting them to my friends or something.
MOVIE: WANTED (?)
My Opinion?: REJECTED!
Now, Angelina Jolie was the main reason why I wanted to see it, because I'm an idiot and saw Foxfire too many times as a teenager, and I can't help but own and religiously watch Tomb Raider. (I'm not apologizing for liking hot girls in "adventure" movies) The other reasons why I wanted to see it?
1. Guns. Guns a blazing, pretty guns, a shooting montage? I want it all!
2. The chance to see some hot nookie.
3. Explosions
4. Morgan "like a twinkie" Freeman
The reason why I laughed a lot:
1. The hard on for trains.
2. The bullet duel. Hilarious
3. The loom. Yes, I said LOOM.
4. The "I am your father" bullshit.
5. The guy that played Wesley will never work in Hollywood again for that performance.
The reason I want just half of my money back?
1. I saw a lot of blood, and that's cool; but the "pussy pussy pussy" guy brought the Lulzies too quick
2. Fucking scene on the train. FUCK OFF.
3. I don't know how I feel about the bullet duel, but the bullets were pretty.
4. Angelina's last moment v. Angelina's hot ass in the movie. I'm torn.
(Sydni had to apologize to Luminaire for taking him to a movie that we both laughed at for the wrong reasons.)
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Today, I'm going to sit on my ass and maybe go see Mama Mia, but to be honest, I don't trust my movie choices anymore.
Tomorrow, I get my Greek from the airport, and then I get laid. And probably get the soundest sleep I've had in a month.
SYDNI'S PET PEEVES
1. Popcorn in my teeth.
2. People that say "Hun" IRL or on the web.
3. Getting close to an orgasm and being let down.
4. Terrible last line in a movie.
5. Dirty bathrooms
6. Couch pillows that wont fucking stay put.
7. U-scans
(I have about 854,000 more, but I don't need to appear too neurotic.)
xoxo
Sydni
So I won my burlesque competition! I'm $500 richer and I have the title of Miss Bring It 2008. As soon as I have pictures (my dress I was wearing when I won was fierce) I'll post em.
What a weird name for a title. heh.
So my time here in West Seattle is up, my moms are returning from their trip to Miami today. I hope they brought me something cool.
I think I'm going to buy a new pair of Onitsuka's and pay some muthafuckin' bills. YAY!
The Greek is home from his month long excursion in Greece in 3 days. My lady bits are starting to twitch. I miss him so much.
I think I may spend the next couple days getting my nails done, cooking, and seeing movies I won't have the time to see once my vagina is back in full effect.
Things are good. I hope I'm on a roll. *knocks on wood*
xoxo
Sydni
What a weird name for a title. heh.
So my time here in West Seattle is up, my moms are returning from their trip to Miami today. I hope they brought me something cool.
I think I'm going to buy a new pair of Onitsuka's and pay some muthafuckin' bills. YAY!
The Greek is home from his month long excursion in Greece in 3 days. My lady bits are starting to twitch. I miss him so much.
I think I may spend the next couple days getting my nails done, cooking, and seeing movies I won't have the time to see once my vagina is back in full effect.
Things are good. I hope I'm on a roll. *knocks on wood*
xoxo
Sydni
1. Five days until I get to touch the most beautiful man I've ever known. I'm still ridiculously in love. It's been over a year now, and we still have the most amazing chemistry-by far the most life changing relationship yet. Our communication level is outstanding. I'm so blessed, and so hopeful about our future.
The month apart has opened up my mind a lot about relationships, and I've learned a little more about what I want. However, not having sex just fucking sucks. And I'm not much of a personal dj-er so if you can guess my level of frustration.....I'm used to sex everyday. Good sex. Sex that makes you want a sandwich and a nap. it's great.
2. Since I don't start my new job for another week, I'm a little short on activities. I'm pretty bored. I did wash my car today though, so I'm awfully proud.
3. Tonight I go see The Dark Knight with my homies, but I'm really tired, and can't figure out why. I think it's the over the counter sleep meds I've been partaking in to sleep in my moms bed (I'm housesitting). The bed is wayyyyyyy too soft for me.
4. Tomorrow, er, Saturday I'm competing in Seattle's first burlesque competition. I don't know whether to be excited or not. I'm doing my peacock fan dance, and it's really hard to find spaces to practice with these giant fucking fans. I'm also 6'1", so it's difficult. I tried outside, but there's too much wind.
5. I'm planning on shooting a new bonafied set in August. I'm pretty excited about it. My photographer has been shooting my shows for the past couple years, and he seems excited to get to shoot me in a different mode.
6. I'm pretty addicted to Project Runway and Shear Genius. Every night I've been watching Sex in the City reruns, and I'm reminded of how much I loved the series, even though it did spawn some girl douchebaggery.
Movies I want to see:
1. Mama Mia
2. Hellboy 2
3. The Mummy 3 (or whatever the fuck it's called-I loved the previous 2)
4. Wanted
I'm sure there's more, but I'm sleepy.
The month apart has opened up my mind a lot about relationships, and I've learned a little more about what I want. However, not having sex just fucking sucks. And I'm not much of a personal dj-er so if you can guess my level of frustration.....I'm used to sex everyday. Good sex. Sex that makes you want a sandwich and a nap. it's great.
2. Since I don't start my new job for another week, I'm a little short on activities. I'm pretty bored. I did wash my car today though, so I'm awfully proud.
3. Tonight I go see The Dark Knight with my homies, but I'm really tired, and can't figure out why. I think it's the over the counter sleep meds I've been partaking in to sleep in my moms bed (I'm housesitting). The bed is wayyyyyyy too soft for me.
4. Tomorrow, er, Saturday I'm competing in Seattle's first burlesque competition. I don't know whether to be excited or not. I'm doing my peacock fan dance, and it's really hard to find spaces to practice with these giant fucking fans. I'm also 6'1", so it's difficult. I tried outside, but there's too much wind.
5. I'm planning on shooting a new bonafied set in August. I'm pretty excited about it. My photographer has been shooting my shows for the past couple years, and he seems excited to get to shoot me in a different mode.
6. I'm pretty addicted to Project Runway and Shear Genius. Every night I've been watching Sex in the City reruns, and I'm reminded of how much I loved the series, even though it did spawn some girl douchebaggery.
Movies I want to see:
1. Mama Mia
2. Hellboy 2
3. The Mummy 3 (or whatever the fuck it's called-I loved the previous 2)
4. Wanted
I'm sure there's more, but I'm sleepy.
Some of you have asked what my new job is.....
I am the executive receptionist/administrator for a very busy holistic health care facility that specializes in colon therapy (colonics), acupuncture and massage.
I am an official 9-5er Monday-Friday. And I couldn't be more happy about the people and the pay.
If you don't know what a colonic is, it's basically plumbing experts for your body. Heh.
In other news, I compete in a burlesque competition Saturday, and my love returns from Greece next Wednesday. You have no idea how excited I am to just simply smell Niko again. Ugh.
Cheers!
I am the executive receptionist/administrator for a very busy holistic health care facility that specializes in colon therapy (colonics), acupuncture and massage.
I am an official 9-5er Monday-Friday. And I couldn't be more happy about the people and the pay.
If you don't know what a colonic is, it's basically plumbing experts for your body. Heh.
In other news, I compete in a burlesque competition Saturday, and my love returns from Greece next Wednesday. You have no idea how excited I am to just simply smell Niko again. Ugh.
Cheers!
So, things are strange in the land of Sydni.
I'm still unemployed, but I have a couple of interviews next week, and I'm waiting to hear from a job I interviewed with last week.
This next week I house sit my moms house which is near a beach and has a great view of the neighborhood and water. I hope it will be my relaxing time before I am gainfully employed. My moms cable is insane, and there's a mini gym, so maybe I can push off a couple of pounds or tone up before I compete in a Seattle burlesque competition.
My love, Niko, will be back from greece in 14 days. Thank goodness. A month without sex for me is like walking around terribly dehydrated. I miss him so much; he's really one of my 4 best friends, and I don't get to sleep with the other 3. Last year at this time he went on vacation for 2 months. I almost went insane. I consumed very large quantities of alcohol and used friends couches probably way too often.
I've been really lucky to have my best friends pick up the slack for him while he's gone. I suppose that's what friends are for. Luminaire is like a back up Niko without my use of his cock. He gives me hugs, hangs out and lets me say crazy shit before he tells me to shut it and have a beer. His girl friend, Laura Rose, and I cuddle and talk about the state of our vaginas. My friends are better and prettier than your friends.
I spend a lot of time alone; probably more than most are ok with. The last 2 days I didn't see another human, and I'm not sure if I'm okay with that.
Today though, I'll be talking to a photographer about shooting a set for me for this site. As some of you know, I've been pretty wary, as I'm more in the group of "more art, less vag" than the majority of the site these days. That being said though, I'm a part of a pretty small minority here, and I'd like to see it represented with a beautiful set.
Want some more of this?
xoxo
Syd
I love my friend Wes. He lets me abuse him on film.
This is what happened the last time Niko was out of town. HA!
I'm still unemployed, but I have a couple of interviews next week, and I'm waiting to hear from a job I interviewed with last week.
This next week I house sit my moms house which is near a beach and has a great view of the neighborhood and water. I hope it will be my relaxing time before I am gainfully employed. My moms cable is insane, and there's a mini gym, so maybe I can push off a couple of pounds or tone up before I compete in a Seattle burlesque competition.
My love, Niko, will be back from greece in 14 days. Thank goodness. A month without sex for me is like walking around terribly dehydrated. I miss him so much; he's really one of my 4 best friends, and I don't get to sleep with the other 3. Last year at this time he went on vacation for 2 months. I almost went insane. I consumed very large quantities of alcohol and used friends couches probably way too often.
I've been really lucky to have my best friends pick up the slack for him while he's gone. I suppose that's what friends are for. Luminaire is like a back up Niko without my use of his cock. He gives me hugs, hangs out and lets me say crazy shit before he tells me to shut it and have a beer. His girl friend, Laura Rose, and I cuddle and talk about the state of our vaginas. My friends are better and prettier than your friends.
I spend a lot of time alone; probably more than most are ok with. The last 2 days I didn't see another human, and I'm not sure if I'm okay with that.
Today though, I'll be talking to a photographer about shooting a set for me for this site. As some of you know, I've been pretty wary, as I'm more in the group of "more art, less vag" than the majority of the site these days. That being said though, I'm a part of a pretty small minority here, and I'd like to see it represented with a beautiful set.
Want some more of this?
xoxo
Syd
I love my friend Wes. He lets me abuse him on film.
This is what happened the last time Niko was out of town. HA!
SEPTEMBER 2008