One of my cutomers told me about these dish sets.. they come with the tea stuff.. the pot the plates, the cups.. they come with silverware... the spoons the salad forks the butter knives.. everything.. and the regular dishes like bowls and plates. Its a pretty spiffy set.. and what brings this set togeter is that its ALL unicorns. I NEED this, its true. Imagine me eating a fancy dinner off of these unicorn dishes. My life would be complete.

So its fair week. The carnival is in town! hahaha.. The funny thing about this is that all the carnies come into my work and get tattooed. Ive tattooed like 20 carnies! They get wierd stuff like "Carnie power" hahaha. They ask my best friend out on dates.. god my life rules hahaa...

I bought a table today. Its a chinese antique thing.. like all white etched into shpaes of women and a cart and carriage thing.. With fancy trees. All carved.. with a clawfoot little dragon bottom. Its pretty rad. I admit that I dont need a little table.. but its really rad.
I just love oriental, japanese and chinese art and sculpture...

Tomorrow night i get to go to a cursive show in boston!! yeah Im pretty stoked. I love cursive. Its gonna be Steph, Lars, Ryan and I. Hopefully we get to eat grasshopper too. Im glad lars will be around because my computer is crashed and I took all the pictures for my friend's set (she isnt on the site yet) and they came out hot. So I want to be able to sort through them and get them sent in so hopefully everyone can check out the hottness asap.

due to the interest people have shown in my tattooing and artwork.. I've uploaded some pictures.

A couple tattoos Ive done... a couple of me, and one of my boys.

Ill put up more at a later time... when Im less lazy.

I cant get a hold of my landlord. He's tricky. He acts like hes some nice great guy and then i sign the lease and hes nowhere to be found.. hmm... I want my bulkhead fixed. I need him to approve this kitty.. blah.

Steph is knitting Lars a scarf.. god they are so cute its disgusting.

Ryan brought me a sandwich today.. after he made me 3 sets of needles.. and the sandwich had pickles. I hate pickles. Gross! ha.. I mean despite the fact that he made me needles for 2 hours.. he should obviously bring me perfect sandwiches.

I just suddenly remembered that I have a candybar at home.. its flat so i didnt see it.. it was hiding in the cabinet.. so i forgot about it. But this suddeny meory spurt is really exciting becuase i really need to eat that tasty treat.

Hm...
I guess being naked in front of lots of people on the internet really starts to put things in a differnt light. For instance.. Yesterday morning. I woke up in my nice new house. Not used to not having curtians.. i stripped down to my underpants and was sitting on my bed, probably contemplating life.. or what to wear, when I realized 4 neighbor teenaged boys were standing next to my window. My old reaction would have been to grab clothes and laugh.. but I guess my first thought now was something like "eh, whats 4 more people on the list of whos seen my ass".. so i continued dressing at my own slow speed.

I think ryan is making us spring rolls for dinner. Yummmm....

I just got an email from my X-boyfriend's mom. It was a reply to an email I sent her.. I guess my email made her cry. She printed it out and saved it. ha.. Moms are so crazy.

My own mother just called me to tell me my cure jean jacket it almost finished. It had to be resewn. Yea!

Im hungry.
Theres only so many soy yogurts a girl can eat in one day.

Steph is knitting. It looks so cute. It makes me think about when we were traveling all over the country.. and in our spare time we'd knit. Mostly in restraunts and at shows and stuff. Old ladies always came over and hung out with us (at the restraunts) they love seeing younger girls knitting..

I need to draw more appointments and make needles.. but instead im going to make ryan make needles. I hate them. they make me want to die

Thursday i get my kitty. Yes, its true.. I gave in.. i brought the kitty I found to the humane society.. shes getting a kitty abortion and getting fixed. Then im taking her home thursday.. I need a name for her.

http://www.friendster.com/viewfullphoto.jsp?id=4100529

This is a picture of that fucking wierdo stalker.. I wouldnt go this far normally.. but it really illustrates his creepy uglyness Don't forget that hes also balding which adds to the creepy effect. haha

I think you have to be in friendster for it to work... so log in and then click oin the link to view it...

Hmph. Sometimes people are seriously fucking wierd. Ok so BF's X boy writes me a rude message telling me he read my SG journal and blah blah I shouldnt talk about him behind his back (despite my not mentioning names, and despite that my vent was due to finding out that he not only spoke behind my back to one person but to various people) Then he tries to defend himself fruitlesssly about everything else. Then he tries to act like hes not being a creep. BUT think about this.. First hes trying to spread rumors and talking to people about my personal life.. then he tries to ask my best friend about my personal life.. and lastly.. he shows up in SG reading my journal. What a fucking creep.

Thats practicly stalking Eww. Anyway... Today was really slow. BUT I got to do a really sweet cover up.. some guy had his X wife's name tattooed on his arm.. he got it covered with "an eye for an eye" in a banner around a gun. haha. I guess shes taking his motorcycle in the divorce.. hes bitter. haha. I dunno what Im doing tonight.. I might consider a couple of things.. but if i mentioned them, my wierdo jerk off psuedo stalker might hunt me down haha.

Actually, let me tell you a funny story about him. When my BestFriend and I were younger.. like.. she was 16 and I was 18 we begged him to take us swimming. By the time we got to the pond, it was cold out.. and we wouldnt go in., He tried to get us to go in. Then he tried to get us to make out for him. Just to be jerks we told him that if he went into the freezing cold ice pond completely naked we'd make out. Obviously we werent. We didnt think he'd fall for it...but he really is that stupid.. so he went in and we laughed at him. Thats what he gets for trying to be a pervert and make his own girlfriend do something she didnt want to do.

I shouldnt be irrtated with him.. he really is just an asshole. Maybe he's just being all extra agro dickweed because hes balding a lot.. hahahahaha

Anyway.. Im really starving.. Work is almost done and Im gonna go change the answering machine and get my butt in gear so that I can get outta here.

So, I hate my best friend's X boyfriend. Hes an asshole.. they spent every day together for 3 years.. then withought a word he just disapears, cheats on her and doesnt have the nerve to tell her he wants to break up. When she tries to be his friend after this cheating nad lying.. He calls her names, degrading names. Then he flips out at me for bringing her to our mutual friend, and MY x boyfriends funeral for emotional support. How dare I?! So hes pretty degrading and worthless. I refuse to speak to him and for some reason he feels that im the asshole in our dislike for each other. He messaged my best friend last night and told her that he had heard I was on SG, like it was a big secret. Then he started to make fun of me about it.. When my best friend questioned him about what was wrong with sg.. he didnt know any details. He was just trying to ignorantly insult me. After my Best friend explained to him what SG was about he told my BF that he was going to sign his girlfriend up. What a jerk. IT just irritates me that people go so far out of thier way to critisize people withought even understanding why. They just love to try and insult people. They jsut love to spread rumors.. I swear to god, i havent spoken to any of his crew in like a year, yet he always knows whats going on in my life.. always making new stuff up, or spreading new rumors. Its just so disgusting.. his life is really that bland. Then he tried to Brag to my BF that he was making so much money.. like he was rich or something, then when she finally asked how much he made he took ten minutes to say 28thou a year. Like he didnt want to tell her how much he made and hour... he probably works 70 hours a week to make that much.. not to mention that hes bragging to the wrong people. Does he forget that She is learning how to pierce, and Im a full time tattooist? Shell be making 28thou min her first year full time piercing at like 30 hours a week. Money isnt everything.. but i hate hate when people try and act like they are better then others.. specially about money. Hes just trying to brag like hes going places in his life, working at a toystore as a manager making 28 Thou a year.. but its the highest his job will go, hes not going to school and he has no ambition. No talents hes willing to explore. I jsut dont see how that was supposed to impress her. I dont see how making fun of her for going to school to be a hair stylist, and a piercer is so funny? I mean god forbid she have two career choices.. ones she can expand on and that she enjoys. eh. Enough complaining.. Its not like im angry.. i just think hes so ignorant and pathetic.

I could have sworn that I added a new journal entry the other day... but it seems like I didnt. Wierd eh?

Ive been cleaning a lot.. I need a cleaning maid ha. I recently rented a new Apt. and its filthy. Cheap, filthy and in a crap section of town.. go figure. # bedrooms, kitchenthats huge, big living room.. a pantry and a huge huge basement... which will be cleaned up into a laundryroom,a recording studio/room a storage area, a tool workbench area... and lastly.. the large empty area.. we plan on holding shows. We jsut have to really move in and get settled. The porch was friggin nasty.. so we scrubbed the filth and painted over all the stains.. then we got astro turf!! our porch is now converted into a climate controlled yard. ha..

Somehow we have to start moving all of my stored furniture ect now..

oh yeah.. i guess cats keep getting in.. and this one cat thinks he blongs to us.. hes filthy and scrubby and so cute. He tried to get in and i picked it up to bring it outside and it just looked at me purring and mewing for attention. i put it down and it rolled around itching its back in the dirt on the sidewalk. I bet its the cat thats been breaking into our basement. I was thinking about bringing it to the animal shelter to get taken care of.. (not killed.. get shots and cleaned up ect.. maybe given to a new home?) I mean.. ryan does want a cat really very badly.. and it think its barely older then a kitten.. i wonder if it has a home..eh. If so.. they dont take care of it.

dang! Shitloads of comments.

So I came on to try to sdo some replies.. but I seriously have sooo many comments that I just feel overwhelmed ha..

First off, thanks for all of the compliments

As for my tattoos... They are done by a variety of tattooists... My stomach is Tattoo machines.. one has a halo and is blue with clouds behind it.. the other is red with bones and spiderwebs. It was done by mike lussier of artfreak tattoo in Providence RI. www.mikelussier.com My Arm, neck, thoat and one ankle was done by shawn kinney, and in progress.. its been years ha.. He works at midnight moon in chicester NH. My arm is vampire princess miyu, as a few people mentioned My ankle is a best friend tattoo, and my thoat is Stick and Stones.. which are lyrics from Submission hold.. about how women grow up and are born with all of these words to mold them. They are taught that if you enjoy sex, you're a dirty slut.. if you have unmarried sex, youre a whore, if you have a personality or an opinion, you're a bitch.. All of these things try to strangle women into being someone they arent.. Women are afraid to have sex, they are ashamed of thier bodies, they are afriad to speak out for fear of being insulted.. afraid of being degraded.. and so these works shape us. They are more powerful than physical pain.. they ARE sticks and stones.. and they are always with us, they are always trying to strangle us. My neck is a nautical compas with no directions, just a heart in the center. Umm.. My Other ankle, and my wrist I did my self. The ankle one is two sparrows around the earth.. symbolizing hope for the earth. It was my first tattoo that I did. My wrist says "I can not content myself to just count the days" It has an old kanji symbol on the front, which reminds me of a regret I used to have. And the top of my wrist is a NH outline with a banner that reads XNHX and lots of color.. Around it it says LIVE FREE OR DIE. (NH state motto) My butt and underneath my breats Albie rock did.. He is currently working in Conway NH at White mountain tattoo. His work has been featured in a lot of magazines, like Tabu ect... My butt is a boy and girl pair of underpants on either side.. and my stomach is a cartoon type portrait of my mom with two blue roses.
WHEW. And! I just got my lower lower pelvis done with a heart with a keyhole and two crossing keys with pink stars and fog stuff behind it. By Jason Scot of portsmouth tattoo. www.portsmouthtattoo.com *sigh*

So.. I havent had much time to get on here because Im trying to get an apartment! A big one! I want to be able to have shows, pets and enough room to set up a music recording studio and a art studio. Yes, Im spoiled.. thats waht happens when you work you ass off and make the big bling hah.

I actually truly tattooed tazmanian devil fireman on someone today.. haha... and a mikey mouse holding a flower on someone else. People are insane.

I wish that I had plans tonight.. but i dont. Its what? wednesday? y best friend is off saying her goodbyes to her boyfriend leaving for college.. Josh and ryan are at work and I just finished work. So... Maybe ill go home and make a big dinner.

Ha.. I just thought of this.. some of the things that people said to me in my set comments.. and please dont get me wrong, i appreciate the feedback.. but a few things made me laugh really hard, but i dont think they were supposed to be funny. I just thought about what i would think if someone said that to me and real life and I laughed a lot.

The guy I tattooed taz on was wearing the same perfume my grandad used to wear.. IT made me laugh because when I was 10 he used to drive us to church all together weather we wanted to or not. Well, he would leave the windows open a lot until my grandma made him stop. I guess a cat got into his van and my grandma rolled the windows up because it was there for like 2 weeks. The van smelled like pee.. but the cat was hiding so we just thought it snuck in and peed when papa left the windows down. so then he made extra sure to roll them up. Unfortunately.. that kept the cat inside.. peeing on everything. Well one day we were in church and we noticed brown on my papas pants.. so all of us kids started to laugh and tease "papa pooped his pants!" and he was not havin it. He kept saying how it must have been frosting fro mgrandma's chocolate cake. But when we reached the van.. a nice dark cat turd was waiting on the seat.. slightly dried like a giant turn crayon. We found the cat and let him go.. but the van smelled horrible. EVEN after we scrubbed it clean and took it to a car cleaners.. so my papa just sprayed his perfume all over the place.. which smelled like peeperfume. But it was a really good memory.. and everytime i smell it.. I just think about my papa telling us about granda getting chocolate cake frosting on him and seeing the dried up turd on his seat haha. Whew. So the whole tattoo I kept laughing to myself.. that and also because it was a taz.

God im hungry. I need some vegan treats.

I still dont have any friends on here haha.. but I feel like the first one should be something really special.. I don't want to lose my friend virginity to just anyone.. the first is always the hardest

ha.. So things are looking a little less hectic...

Ryan is being tattoo apprenticed by my old boss, thanks to my begging and blah. My best friend, steph, is getting her piercing appreciceship on.. SO. In a few months My job will consist of the two people I like the most and art art art! Awesome.

My backup bestfriend, josh, is leaving in a couple weeks for tahoe. I hate that. Stupid california.. always stealing all of the people i love.

no one has threatened my life or my general well being in like at least a week!

They fired the second tattooist.. so no more grumpy assholes to deal with.. (which also means more bussiness and work for me)

I got tattooed the day before yesterday, for the billionth time. It hurt, a lot. It was where my pubic bone & hair region is.. ha.. so it felt raw and painful. But obviously, I am tuff. I barely even writhed haha. My friend, Jason scott, who owns HOBOS in portsmouth, nh did it. So.. now i have a full sleeve (almost finished) 1 neck, 2 throat, 2 small frontal ankle, my upper stomach/under my breasts, both hips and my newest pubic region tattoo. All big ums. I was supposed to have joel from philly do a drop dead fred portrait and a edward scissor hands portrait... but he moved to the west coast.. so I might have to travel for em eh no big. Im kinda waiting around to get my chest done... Joe cappo was supposed to do it.. but maybe ill have him do my hands or feet instead. eh. Ive got my whole life to plan em.

Eh.. all i ever think about are tattoos.. hah
Im going to start some big paintings soon too.. i gotta go to storage to pull my easle and paint out.. which will be fine.. ill just cut off and area downstairs for it.. I have sooo much space. Theres room for 3 tattooists, and a storage room, and also a book room and file area, a drawing room and a giant room we used to use to let bill and shawn practice thier drums and guitars ect. I want to paint my station and really get things looking better.. but i figure if im going to paint it.. I might as well try to convince them to let me paint it lite pink.. then do dark pink spiderweb/heart and swirl designs. eh.. just thinking of the possibilities. simplicity. I need it simple because i have a lot of fine art prints I like to hang up... I like the customers to have to look at real art instead of cheesy flash. ha

I'm so tired. I sound like a big fat complainer.. but seriously, im not!

So things are always so hectic around here.. Im just always running around trying to get shit done.

Ive started working 5 days a week 8hr shifts minimum. Which is fine with me because im making the big bling. I also have gotten to do a few really decent tattoos. I did a huge piece, from shoulder to elbow/ half sleeve thing on my friend (whos becoming a SG girl under the name of Knight)... ITs a greywork piece all soft shading of a woman I drew. Its kinda Mucha- ish and really classicly beatiful with flowy fabric and wavy long hair. She has flowers in her hair and flowers at the bottom off her hips. She all black and grey except for red lips, bright blue eyes, and a pink backround to bring her out... i mean bright pink. So My friend has this gorgeous bright pink and grey tattoo taking up her whole arm. She sat perfect for 3 1/2 hours too which is rare.

Speaking of tattoos, im getting Jason Scott, my friend who owns hobo's in Portsmouth nh, to tattoo me on monday. ITs gonna kill its a heart with a keyhole and crossing keys with pink or blue (havent decided) backround design and stars. Its a bit of an oldschool design with a newschool effect. im putting it below my hip tattoos and practicly on the vag. ouch.

Ive been dealing with my best friend's X boyfriend, too. They dated for 3 years and he always left her because he wanted to date other girls and party with his friends.. and my best friend just isnt into it. So after 3 years of being dumped for fun.. she broke up with him because he twas treating her like crap.. and after a few weeks she started to date someone else.. and her X floips out about how he loves her and they are meant to be together. Which is funny, because hes dating bethany and fucking andrea. But not to worry, because hes going to treat my best friend like a princess and they are going to be together forever. Eh. So hes upset and calling her everynight and crying.. so she wont talk to him because hes being crazy.. so im like trying to calm him down and make him eat and not OD. He showed up at the downtown hangout and tried to fioght her new boyfriend.. he was flipping out. Hes just lonely and afraid to be alone.. he doesnt really want her that much.. he just wants someone to treat him like she does.. ya know. Which reminds me.. Hes really hot and has a buff bod. He has a souped up racing CRX and makes a lot of money at his job. He was a baseball star in highschool and traveled around the country and is a really good skater... He always has like 3 girls confessing thier love for him at all times because hes so talented and attractive .. and hes going to college too.. Any takers? He lives in maine! ill hook you up on a date with him.. haha

letys see, what else. My friends are moving to LA and then Tahoe. ITs sad.. Josh moves every year... but comes back in the summer.. but summer is almost over.. so hes taking his girlfriend with him (whos my good friend) and that kinda sucks.

My X boyfriend is in town.. but he hasnt called me., I think hes nervous.. or angry at me. Either way we havent talked.. which is wierd since we usually hang out the second he comes into town.. ITs sad.. because even though we arent dating or anything... we are still really good friends.. and id hate to lose him. Hes just going through problems in his life.. that involve finding out he has a kid and shit.. and we argued about him being responsible.. and we havent spoken really since... i just miss him as a person.

I think we are going to grassshopper tonight, which would rule.. but i might go clean and shit first.. blah. My day off is so pathetic.. i wake up late, sit around and answer email and dye my hair.. ha..

hm.. i wonder when my pix are going up...