Dear kids.
So i woke up wthis morning very late.. adn with a huge sense of loss. I kept tryign to go back to sleep.. to finish the dream. If i had 5 more minutes.. i jsut felt like it would end happy and i could start my day. Instead.. It ended sad.. and for the first few hours i felt really pathetic. haha.
Have you ever had one of those dreams? Dreams where you are soooo happy.. you cant rememebr havign that absolute happiness in real life? Then.. for soem reason its ruined.. and you have this sense of loss.. you wake up knowing you could be sooo happy.. but that it was an illusion? haha..
Yeah. So the wierdest thing.. si what my dream was about.
When i was in high school Marilyn Manson got all popular.. i was never a big fan. My best friends really liked that band. But personally, I was content with punk rock and grunge haha.. So yeah. Now, almost 10 years later.. I was taking music from friday's Itunes.. and I accidentally took marilyn manson. So when I hit Shuffle option.. it occasionally plays a couple songs. Which i no longer dislike. I cant say I like all the songs.. But i liek a few.. and i dont rush to change it like i might have a few years ago. But yeah.. So i think that helped create my dream.
So.. In this dream.. I was workign at a tattoo convention, and i met this guy who was a little older with black hair past his shoulders in a ponytail. He wasdressed pretty normally, if not a little fancy. At first I didnt really pay any attention to him.. but we started to chat. And eventually we decided to hang out. We went on a few dates.. and pretty soon we were datiing. After a while He admited to me taht he was Marilyn Manson. And i was shocked because i had never liked that band and would never have imagined that i would fall for him since he looks pretty silly most of the time. But In my dream he was extremley intellegitn and funny. (which is probably stemmed from an interview i saw on Tv like 7 years ago where he was talkign about politics) But yeah. So When he was dressed normal, he looked a lot different. But he admitted to me that he liked me at first because i didnt recognize him.. and I liekd him for his mind and wit and not his $bling$. So.. yeah. Shortly after I found out his true identity.. he and I began to get more serious.. and He involved me more in his life.. .and vice versa. We got into fights abotu silly things.. like how he always had 10 billion stalkers, and how he always had to be so dramatic in public, and how he was a super rich dude who bought expensive shit that i thought was overdoing it. And We fought about how He and I were in two different worlds. But we were really in love. And I felt connected to him. So we kept dating. But then we got into a fight and i said mean things.. ebcause thats the sort of thing Id do in real life. And he decided taht we shouldnt date. But it was horrible.. because he was so stubborn.. and kept telling me no.. Even though I knew for a fact that it hurt him as much as it hurt me. Even though I knew he was in love with me. So i kept arguing.. and he cut me off.. and then i woke up. I fell back asleep.. and instead of it changign to a happy ending.. I was at work.. watching Tv and i saw some mtv thing.. and he was with some famous moviestar. One of the really fake ones.. a paris hilton type ha. That made me even more upset.. ebcause i knew he couldnt be happy. And then i woke up again.. and felt sooo shitty. But also kinda stupid.. haha. because thats a rediculous dream!
But Its even worse because now I have a crush on my dream version of Marilyn manson.. not because of his looks.. but because of his personality. A version im sure he couldnt even live up to haha. But yeah. What a wierd dream huh?
And its happend before.. with other people.. not people I see and think "dang that persons hot!!!" but jsut random people.. soem in my life.. some on tv.. whatever. haha.
Anyway.. have any of you had wierd dreams bout falling in love or havign your heart broken?
Anythign about moviestars or rockstars?
Tell me about your interestign dreams.. xox