bright orange lights fill my room of darkness. strong orange scents fill my room of madness.

maybe i like youuuuuuu...maybe i donnnnn't

picking pumpkins. buying apples. making love. reading poetry. writing grocery lists. learning latin. burning clothes. opening whiskey bottles. eating cheese. squeezing breasts. grinding teeth. sharing.

going to dantes this sunday to see the SG perform! i am so excited!!!!!!

oh it is so early! i have not been up this early in ages!!!

i may be doing some modeling for www.hypnox.com soon. the photographer wants to shoot me next time i get up to seattle........sounds like fun to me. he actually asked me back in june, but i haven't been up that way all summer.

well i am off to take a bath!
xoxo

hah! now you know what i look like when i wake up at one in the afternoon!!!

remind me to not eat cheese. it makes me puke.

babies are great, when they are not mine. i choose not to reproduce at this time (or maybe ever), but that doesn't mean that i don't love babies and kids to DEATH. i am babysitting my nephew on Thursday. he is 6 months old and a huge fun-ball. he weighs 28 lbs......which is very large!!! for a six month old. i can barely lift him. so i will roll him around.

i've got, i've got, i've got charles in charge of me.

i really don't have anything meaningful to say right now. i just thought you all should know. it has been an uneventful day, and that is all right with me

oh i am upset that i didn't go see veronica, luxe, siren, jessica etc. tonight. i forgot all about their little show. maybe next time!

I really wanted to make my own personal ad........even though I don't need a mate......just some friends to go eat sushi with or go see a movie once in a while. But the day is almost gone and darnit I am just not in the mood. So maybe Tuesday will be MassageGirl's personal ad day....

Things were good today and they can only get better (or at least I am going to look at it that way). I reupholstered a chair today. Black vinyl seat, velvet lime green back with a black star in the middle. It is so hot looking! I swear I was so excited, I want to start making them and selling them. Everyone will want one. They are so cute. Okay enough.

I made muffins.
Muffins are good.

mmm...that shoe was good.

grrrr.....everytime i see the body piercing ad for the guy who is going to apprentice me, i get so anxious! i need to do something to make money fast so i can start making tons of $$ and be very happy poking holes in body parts!!! massage is just paying the bills right now, and it will take me months to save 4grand. any ideas? i thought about a 2nd part time job but i don't want it to interfere with my appointments. maybe stripping, taking my clothes off on the internet or for some photographer has got to produce some fast $$ (and i have had offers!), a sugar daddy, donating my body to science, giving massages half naked, 2 girls giving massages half naked, selling my eggs, robbing a bank, selling emroidery to little old ladies......i don't know. i can't get a loan cuz i don't have a "stable job like every other american", even though i could afford to make monthly payments.....grrrr. i am selling my 65 chevy, that will at least get me half the money

shit. i need to go get groceries. there is not a single appetizing thing in this house.

Ahhh.........I feel much better now that I have slept. When you don't sleep for 3 days, everything becomes as issue. An issue that drives you insane.

Now off to work on my massage office...........la la la.
xoxo