PICS
she was named "bad andy" after me. crawled up to my front door, drenched with rain at 2 in the morning. i was out somewhere, who knows where...that was five years ago. i call her fatsy cline.
took this yesterday. i love nude pictures in the bathroom in front of the mirror. no makeup on, insomnia, pain that has come back and again i have to go to the doctor. this time i refuse to cover it up, i'm sober and i just want to get rid of whatever it is that is trying so hard to tear apart my body. i won't even take a fucking tylenol. i'm in a little bit of a rotten mood here, but this is me at 4am. gained a little weight back, well 5lbs to me is a lot when you are so tiny to begin with....too many hormone changes with all that is going on. *sigh* i am horribly self conscience right now, and all the messages about my latest set looking like a holocaust victim isn't exactly helping. sometimes i hate the jerks that are members here....isn't this suppose to be about NOT being the girl next door playboy model and being yourself...fat or thin, big tits or small tits. well fuck you, you make me not want to be a part of this place anymore...when i could be sharing my fucking amazing beautiful self with people who do not judge.
took this yesterday. i love nude pictures in the bathroom in front of the mirror. no makeup on, insomnia, pain that has come back and again i have to go to the doctor. this time i refuse to cover it up, i'm sober and i just want to get rid of whatever it is that is trying so hard to tear apart my body. i won't even take a fucking tylenol. i'm in a little bit of a rotten mood here, but this is me at 4am. gained a little weight back, well 5lbs to me is a lot when you are so tiny to begin with....too many hormone changes with all that is going on. *sigh* i am horribly self conscience right now, and all the messages about my latest set looking like a holocaust victim isn't exactly helping. sometimes i hate the jerks that are members here....isn't this suppose to be about NOT being the girl next door playboy model and being yourself...fat or thin, big tits or small tits. well fuck you, you make me not want to be a part of this place anymore...when i could be sharing my fucking amazing beautiful self with people who do not judge.
i have a new set....in review....go look at it right now. went to vegas on valentine's day...vodka and feather pillows, met several hot ladies...Fractal shot a set.
it was cold
it was cold
charlotte sometimes....
she hates me, but she is sooooooo cute and old
being the crazy cat lady is gangsta
just my face, bare...how i like it
le sigh...he could NOT focus the camera but whatever i've been working out....okay not really
she hates me, but she is sooooooo cute and old
being the crazy cat lady is gangsta
just my face, bare...how i like it
le sigh...he could NOT focus the camera but whatever i've been working out....okay not really
bound by the chaos that i have created...stamped on my body, typed on my heart
this is not silence, this is rust and cognac
will i ever come out, aged and bleeding where i have not yet been touched
it surprises you that i cannot scream
with my mouth open, gold on my fingers...they are long. they are thin, they point to where we will not go
this is not silence, this is rust and cognac
will i ever come out, aged and bleeding where i have not yet been touched
it surprises you that i cannot scream
with my mouth open, gold on my fingers...they are long. they are thin, they point to where we will not go
it hasn't snowed this much since i left for tour, so that was some time ago. i left the house yesterday for the first time in over a week. i live in this small town just north of Portland. there isn't too much here, no bars, no nightlife, no friends. i walk to the vietnamese market to get tofu everyday and a tiger beer. i'm not really sure what i do or how i pass the time, but it just happens.
i ran into someone yesterday at the store, i was buying a dave matthew's cd for my mother. i think they were a member on here...and i'm sorry if i seemed like a snob. i think you asked me if i was miss Snow, and i said of course i am. you just stood there and stared at me. "why are you here?" well i live here, where else should i be? "but here? did you grow up here? why are you here?" haha, i told you it was quiet and i blushed because i am so shy. i guess you must have expected me to be somewhere else. "oh, well i really like your sets, i can't believe i found you here." so sorry if i reacted weird, but i don't really go out much and when someone knows who i am it makes me uncomfortable, but i feel a little proud. i wouldn't be red in the cheeks if it didn't get me a little excited. sometimes it just feels good to know that someone notices...your words, your eyes, the way you express yourself to the world.
i spend this time alone, hoping that something great will come out of me.
i ran into someone yesterday at the store, i was buying a dave matthew's cd for my mother. i think they were a member on here...and i'm sorry if i seemed like a snob. i think you asked me if i was miss Snow, and i said of course i am. you just stood there and stared at me. "why are you here?" well i live here, where else should i be? "but here? did you grow up here? why are you here?" haha, i told you it was quiet and i blushed because i am so shy. i guess you must have expected me to be somewhere else. "oh, well i really like your sets, i can't believe i found you here." so sorry if i reacted weird, but i don't really go out much and when someone knows who i am it makes me uncomfortable, but i feel a little proud. i wouldn't be red in the cheeks if it didn't get me a little excited. sometimes it just feels good to know that someone notices...your words, your eyes, the way you express yourself to the world.
i spend this time alone, hoping that something great will come out of me.
i found this picture last night, from the tower records signing...thought it was funny. i don't remember much from that trip, except i did score a mogwai and a mountain goats cd.
"she is dancing, he is dreaming"
hehe so serious
just another picture from my friends clothing company. if you go to my myspace page, his company Underground Clothing is one of my friends...and you can look at more of my pics...and BUY clothes because i get a percentage
ummm...i have so much more to write about, but right now i have to go play world of warcraft, i have a level 70 undead warlock that i am quite proud of...yes i roleplay, yes i play d&d
hehe so serious
just another picture from my friends clothing company. if you go to my myspace page, his company Underground Clothing is one of my friends...and you can look at more of my pics...and BUY clothes because i get a percentage
ummm...i have so much more to write about, but right now i have to go play world of warcraft, i have a level 70 undead warlock that i am quite proud of...yes i roleplay, yes i play d&d
me and the wall...took some photos for skateboard company
and absinthe is now LEGAL in my state...hello sugarcube
and absinthe is now LEGAL in my state...hello sugarcube
