Hello everyone! ... I think I'm fucken dying, Ive been getting this fucked up pain on the right side of my stomach for the past 6 months and Ive been to the hospital 3 times for it....
Soooo I went to the hospital again like 2 days ago in severe pain!! they ran some tests on me and figured I have gallstones!!
So they gave me Vicodin for the pain and some nausea pills 2. Well they work good for a bit but the pain still keeps coming back... they said id need surgery so I went to a hospital and they said they cant do anything just put me on a waiting list that could last up to a year!!!
WTF! I don't want to be in this pain for a year or taking that vicodin that long......

Oh and wait!! they said only if I go as an emergency and my gallbladder is about to explode ONLY then can they put me through surgery!!

I don't understand why they would want my life to be in danger to get the surgery done instead of doing it now that I'm not dying!! Ugh I'm so fucken frustrated!! I want these fucken things out of me to stop the pain! I'm gonna rip my fucken hair out! Oh ans that stupid lady said "If you don't think you'll make it to the hospital call 911 and they will bring you" WTF! so how the hell am I gonna know if I'm dying from this shit or just the excruciating pain I've been getting!

Sorry I'm in such a fucked up mood but I think you'll understand!

xoxo *Sinner*

My tattoo update! finally got some color in it....

Some picture of Izzy at the park!

Nothing much to update on but the tattoo.... how was everyone's 4th of July?

Hope you all have a good week!!

Ok so the weather if finally getting better, at least where I can handle it....
So I took a picture in the shower, figured you haven't seen my boobs recently lol....
I think my boobs have been through a lot... they were normal in my 1st set, huge in my 2nd set cause I was breast feeding and now I think there smaller than before.... eh as long as I still have them!

Here I am waiting in the car cause Izzy was asleep, like always when we go for a ride!
Here I am at breakfast, Steve gets mad cause I always make goofy faces! haha
And here I am in the shower, naked lol........

Izzy eating Watermelon... yum!

Izzy the biker... hes so funny... we went to this store to buy something for Steves bike and we tried this Chaleco on his and when we took it off of his he started crying like we took his favorite toy away! So we bought it for him!


Well thats it for now..... I hope every ones week is going great!

Who can help with resizing these pictures, so I can try and get my profile picture changed. I'm tired of my face with the blond hair.... I need them to be this size, its whats required.... 235 pixels wide 175 pixels length exactly! Help me please!




I'm a loser when it comes to this!

Thank you!

Oh yeah I was gonna post pictures of the progress with my tattoo but I cant get any good ones on my own. I have one more session to go! yay!

Holy fuck, its hotter than hell!
I hate the heat! Im melting!

Fuck it felt like a life time since my last update! lol...
Got some cool pictures of me with my friends at some bar....

A bit more on my tattoo... not much just an hr but it made a big difference.

And here at the beach with my lil mad Izzy! he loves the fucken water... I thought he would be scared but it was the opposite he kept running in and trying to go in further! I'm glad he loved the beach.

Well I was freaking sick yesterday, my stomach was hurting so bad like I ate something bad! Today I feel way better.... I have to go to the gym but I'm tired at the end of the day. I'm babysitting my lil nieces and nephew ages 4, 3, 1 and Izzy which is 1 also... so thats why I've been so tired at the end of the day! its so crazy... I don't know how people take care of so many kids at once. Lil punks take my energy away lol.

Well whats up in the outside world? anything new people?

Fuck it fealt like a life time since my last update! lol...
Got some cool pictures of me with my friends at some bar....

Does anyone know what kind of spider or insect bites humans but isn't deadly?

I think a spider bit Izzy a couple of days ago. . he slept in his diapers cause of the heat and woke up with a bump that looked like a mosquito bite BUT it was hard and had lil tiny bumps around it!! Its almost gone now but I want to know what freaking thing did this to him!!

Anyone know. help please!

Tattoo update! Went to my second session yesterday Check it out. Oh and thank you for remembering and wishing me a happy mommy's day!....

Ok but 1st here are a couple of pics from Saturday at a club I took my friend to.

Ok here are the pictures of the new progress on my tattoo! yay!

I'm going back next week again so he can work on the rest of it a bit!
I'm so happy with it so far and hes making time to work on it.
Oh shit! I forgot to mention that well I was waiting for Chuy to finish tattooing someone I stretched my ears a bit... I think its like an 8 gage or something like that lol. I think that fucken hurt more thatn the tattoo!

How the heck is everyone?
Anything new or interesting going on?

Ok so how the heck is everyone in here?
I got some awesome pictures.... way at the bottom of the page......

I went to see Throw Rag last Friday and Sean is a freaking sweetheart! he pointed me out and started asking Steve, is that your girl? the mother of your child? she is so beautiful! I was like who me? but yeah it was me he was talking bout lol. That made my whole night there.

Well lets see this was such a long week! I am being like a lazy bum lately and haven't gone to the gym in 2 months... ugh! I keep saying I'll go but never come around to it. My mom and uncle said I'm gaining weight, What the fuck!! I've been a freaking stick my hole life and when I finally gain a bit of weight they point it out like its a bad thing... I do feel like a fat pig though, not just cause I gained weight but cause I've been eating crap food and don't work out. I've been thin my whole life no matter what I ate but now things have changed lol. .

Well my son was sick with a high fever of 103 and I was fucken freaking out because I take soooo much care of him (like moms do) and he was cranky and just wanted to be carried, which I did but at night he was too hot and uncomfortable that he couldn't sleep.... thank freaking god that he is all good now! What a freaking scare though.

Ok so now I have been thinking hard and I don't want to go to the gym and just sit there and work out with a bunch' sweaty fucks! I want to do KICK BOXING! I love working out and learning to kick ass at the same time and it actualy relaxes me in the end... I did Tae kwondo for a couple of years but that was so long ago but I remember then I just love the sparring and being physical. I also did a police training class for about 4 yrs which I fucken loved cause I was the Drill Instructor ( I was that good j/k) but that was always out doors and also the environment makes a difference. Yeah so I think I'm gonna do kick boxing with Jujitsu.. now thats gonna be so awesome!

So tomorrow I'm calling Chuy to see when he can work on my tattoo again! FUCK!!! I'm so exited and cant wait to see the finished product! I hope he can squeeze me in for next week already.

Ok so what else I'm I missing here?

Here's my lil man... I love these pics of him at the park with his awesome Johnny Cash shirt!

Here's my best friend ever! oh and now I have purple hair!

And 1 last picture of a scare right above my eye!

Hope everyone is having a good weekend!