i cant put my journal on private...i guess i wont be writing anymore entrys, since SOMEONE has a problem with what i write. *ahem*cunts*ahem*

i would love to shove a hot, lead pipe down your throat and watch you cry out for mercy.

oh hai!

what have you been up to?
i'll tell you what i've been doing.
yea...that would be nothing.

ahhh!!! gotta get out of mass!

imma cut out all the small talk, i know what you really want, pictures!
so here are some, mostly because i dont feel like writing.
ready, set, GO!

buddies!!!


trogdor, being a human.


my LOOOVE!!! murderface!


me with pink hair.



ice cream shirt = best ever


and my current hair, as of 7-17-07


alrighty then.

i havent been around, i know. and for good reason.

to make a very, very long, and exausting story short;
there have been a lot of problems with a certian family 'bullying' my family [for lack of a better word].
there has been a lot to deal with and there is my infant neice involved.
my family is very important to me, and i want to give them any free time that i might have to help.

also, for the passed week and a half, i've been super sick.
fever, chest pain, kindey infection, it goes on.
but, with six and a half hours in the ER and one hundred dollar medication, i'm on the get well track.

awesome.

i dont know when i'll be back. but i'm hoping sooner than later.
xoxo


oh yea, i have pink hair now.

oh dear,
shoot was pushed ahead. sorry everyone.
i messed up times. arg.
soon though. i hope!

nothing really new has happened, aside from getting hired as a go-go dancer at a club! it's so much fun. especially because i get to dance with this incredibly rad chick. ^_^
so far, we've done a v-day theme and chinese new year theme. i love it! tomorrow is going to be marti gras theme. it should be a good time.

as a little side note [and i may get pretty sarcastic], i recently had to close my bank account because they decided it would be a wicked good idea to charge me $60 in one day as an overage fee. BULL-FUCKING-SHIT. all 'cuz the three bills i paid were recieved in the same day, and they all went through even though i didnt have enough in my account to cover them, yet, my check was going to be direct deposited. it gets better, all together, in a matter of three days, they charged me a total of $119. i kid you not, and i didnt even know it was happeneing. awesome, huh?

so i took myself to the bank and asked them why the fee was so high, and he said "because the bank is letting you borrow money you dont have, so there is a fee.". yea, what they dont tell you is that the fee is twenty fucking dollars everytime you fuck up. good news, the very helpful bank employee, who couldnt speek english very well, said the bank could give me back a whopping twenty seven dollars! awesome! i was thinking it would be fucking glorious if you would trade me my one hundred and nineteen dollars for a fresh and new twenty seven. it's about a fifth of what you stole from me you assholes. fuck banks.

so if you use the 'Bank of America' i suggest you watch what they are doing with your money.

so i'm out a hundred bucks...'cuz i have money to burn.

there are a lot of ridiculous people out there. you have to watch your back all the time. it's so crazy how some human beings feed of of drama. if it's not happening then they create it. why? who knows.

you're life is going well, you're happy. but wait. no drama? well, we have to fix that now dont we? lets randomly select an innocent person, who has done nothing to affect you or your loved ones and try and make them miserable.
...or at least make them out to look worse than you are. take the attention off of how mentally unstable you are. because we all know that's the truth. =]

i know these games. you feel better about yourself by being a bully to others. you're just afraid. of what? i'm not too sure yet. maybe it's a personal thing? from childhood that you just never quite never quite grew out of or got over? maybe it's medical? or maybe this is purely for entertainment?
just know, i get more satisfaction out of knowing that YOU need ME to make your life complete than you get out of using me as a pawn. you have an addiction. you cant stop this habit by yourself. it's too bad you dont want help. this is where i had to stop typing, so i could giggle to myself. *hehe*

i find you to be very closed minded. you do not have the ability to put yourself in others shoes. ever heard of 'do unto others'? apparently not. it's so simple, a child could understand it. wow. that's not saying too much for YOUR mentality.


basically what i'm trying to say, is i apparently have a stalker / promoter.*teehe*
but i think they're a little jealous of how i HAVE a life.

i didnt get knocked up in my teen years so i dont have children tying me down. or a husband AND/OR boyfriend[s?]. or maybe it's husbands? sorry, at this point, who even knows. it's so confusing! haha!


so. you just read all that. what do you think? want to send an e-mail? i bet you do. =]

for all others. this is just a rambling of thoughts. i like to write ridiculous things down, in hopes they make more sense to me. some times they do, other times. they dont. humans are the silliest creatures ever.
but sorry if i have confused all of you. =]

oh yea, i have a shoot in february. so new pics soon!