Yea, last night I had a wicked depression spell. It sucked. I guess I'm lucky to have great friends to take care of me and talk to me. Unfortunately, my mood isn't much better today. It was, up until the time I got on the T this afternoon.

I went out to a local petstore to get crickets for my cutie tarantula. When I got on the T, some creepy wannabe abercrombie model kid sat across from me and spent the whole ride making me uncomfortable by staring at me with this creepy smile on his face. So, I got my crickets, and took the T back to my place. I got on, and these two little bitchy girls just stared at me and made fun of me the whole entire ride. I don't understand why people have to be such assholes. I mean, normally I don't give a fuck about what anyone thinks of me, but I was already in a shit mood...

Anyway, I'm feeling slightly better at the moment. Watching little Squee eat crickets in such a brutal way was somewhat comforting. I know it's such a beautiful day today, but... I don't feel like doing anything but sleeping...

Love,
Sid

So my pet shop objective has been met!!! I am now the proud owner of Rosehair Tarantula that I've named Squee (because he's cute, shy, and timid).



There are a couple more pics of him in my candids. He is adorable, and the best part about him, is he's pink and blue!!!!!

Anyway, went to a party last night. Had a good time, of course. Bored now. Boredom = too much thinking for me, and too much thinking for me = bad cause I depress myself that way.

Current depressing thought: Tired of being lonely and seeing so many happy couples around. Damn them all. I will probably end up throwing myself at the next guy who shows a definite interest. If I weren't such a pussy, I'd probably would stop acting so tough and actually tell someone I might be interested in (assuming there actually were someone) that I am... Oh friggin well. I'm used to shitty and unhappy relationships!

Love,
Sid

The club was so much fun last night. I ran into Scarlett and Stormy. I'm so excited I got to meet Stormy. She's so cute and tiny!

So I finally went out and bought the book I need for one of my Music Business classes. I feel so damn used. It's like a 100-page piece of crap, and it cost way too much. I will probably never use it again after tonight cause, well, I'm feeling like I should actually do homework for once. At least my roommate's not around right now, and it's quiet for once.

I need to find a pet store in this fair city. There don't seem to be too many in my area. I particularly enjoy how the Boston phonebook tries to direct me to places in like other states that are impossible to get to without a car. DAMN the yellow pages, DAMN them to hell.

Anyway... yea, I'm done except one final thought: Quiescence is the greates person alive!! *bites*!! Thank you, sweetness for getting me out and finally helping me get a social life!!

Love Always,
Sid

Weeeee! My spirits are high today! The club was awesome! Everyone should go and thank Quiescence for being so awesome and taking me to my first fun club experience ever! Thanks to him, I will be making an appearance at clubs almost every Monday and Wednesday till he gets sick of me! AHAHAH!

Maybe I will see some of you tomorrow night at the club?

Love,
Sid

P.S. Please continue to post funny and/or fuct up pics... I like that!

Went back home to RI this weekend for an uneventful one. I basically did nothing, got blown off, and I was gonna get my backpiece done this weekend, but the artist hookin me up was booked. Which means I'll be goin back home again soon.

But as of now, I'm back in hell with the evil roommate who's already begun annoying me and I've been back in Boston for all of 10 mins.

Tonight I will be goin clubbin with my buddy Quiescence. It should be a good time for me. I need to get my mind off of all the people who have been causin me shit lately...

Love,
Sid

P.S. funny pics posted here to cheer my ass up would be much appriciated!

*Yawn* I'm so sleep deprived due to evil roommates, and I've tried everything I could. I even sleep with a blindfold on so their lights do't bother me and I sleep with ear plugs in too.

I think I may go home this weekend to get my backpiece started and to see my dogs... I miss them! Speaking of pets, I've been trying to find a baby turtle or something I can keep here in Boston. You know, something little that doesn't require mw to spend a fortune in time and money to take care of. However, I can't find baby turtles anywhere! Are they like suddenly illegal or something? I remember having a couple when I was little, and I named them after characters in that 80's cartoon Jem. Ooo... I would love to watch old episodes of that show!! *must find some online*

Anyway, thank you to all of you who've showed conccern about my semi-severed finger. It's healing nicely and pretty quickly. The only thing I'm worried about is keeping the nail intact until it grows out enough so it's not painful to cut off... heh.

Okay, now it's time for my promotional wh0ring of my friends' band:

Anyone in the Boston area please come out to a free show Wed. Feb. 18th and support my friends in the death metal band: Scourge at Berklee College of Music's Cafeteria (150 Massachusetts Ave). I'll be making an appearance, of course! Hahah, not that that matters!

Please come if you can!
Love,
Sid

yea... happy valentine's day and all that junk! haha... (V-day sucks)

you wanna see my gift to myself? It was more of an accident, really.... Let's just say I was trying to de-safety a safety lighter with a real sharp knife, and it slipped, sliced through my finger AND the nail, nearly cutting part of the tip off.

Now, you've got to understand, I take after my father in that I neglect injuries until the pain is unnatural, or I am forced to get them checked. Therefore, I did not go to the hospital like I probably should have.





pretty gross, huh?

Anyway, Happy stupid card industry holiday...

Love,
Sid

P.S.
more reasons I hate today:
Happy Birthday Grandma.. RIP
8 month anniversary of Dad's passing... RIP, I miss you

P.P.S.
Added new candids (2/15/04)

Well, I've been having issues with an ex boyfriend who taking great pleasure in trying to make my life miserable. I have not talked to him since about September, nor did I intend on ever having any kind of contact with him ever again in my entire life. Now that I'm a suicide girl, he thinks that ruining my life and reputation is a brilliant idea. I really hope it doesn't have to come to this, but I think legal action is my only choice to get him to stop bothering me.

Anyway... I really want to go get my backpiece (tattoo) done soon, but I'm afraid I often spend way too much on my ink-sessions. I need to get friendly with some tattoo artists in my area who'd be willing to give me deals (or free ink is nice too).

RAWR! I'm so dead from 10 am class.

Later. Kiddies!

Love,
Sid

I had an amazing time at the boston SGB show! I mean, I had an awesome time at the one in prov too, but at this one, I wasn't the only SG that wasn't performing there, and it was so much fun to help out and chill with the girls.

The pre-show dinner... It was so fun. Bailey and I squeezed into the smallest bathroom ever and became totally grossed out by a women who didn't wash her hands. Brie is adorable. I totally love her! But yea, the dinner was nice and such. The SG Boston kids are sweethearts! Tom, you better have made it home okay... you drank a lot of absenthe... ahaha!

At the show, it was such a pleasure to meet the beautiful Scarlett (finally!) and the cutest girl, Edea! It felt so great to hang out with the other girls and such. Edea and I humped a lot, but hey, it got us a lot of extra tips for the girls!

Speaking of tips... Bailey beat the shit out of 2 guys who tried to steal from the tip jar! They messed with the wrong suicide girl!

Anyway, then there was the afterparty. Which was so much fun. If I went into detail, this entry would be so fucking long, and it's pretty much there already.

So yea, congrats to the SGB girls for another awesome and sold-out show in Boston! I wish I were going to the one tonight, but no ride to NoHo!

Love,
Sid

OMG! SG Burlesque Providence... DAMN it was awesome! I had a wonderful time, and I got to meet some real cool people.

Today was such an awesome day. I came home to my New Rock boots and my SG undies! Then the show was so amazing!

The SGPVD members \m/ I love you guys! I got to meet the lovely ladies of SG. Got a sweet kiss from Snow during the show.

I absolutely adore all the girls, and Siren was such a sweetie! I can't wait for the Boston show on Monday. I get to meet some more pretty, pretty SG's!!

AHH! I'm so excited!

Point to this post: If you haven't been to an SGB show yet... get off your ass and GO!

Love,
Sid