SuicideGirl: Siara
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Siara .................

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JUNE 6, 2006 @ 04:19 AM


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Hello!!! biggrin ... well I had to update today.. just so i can have 6.6.6 written on my page...... m/ kiss

Well the set that I sent in a month or so ago was rejected....... frown not sure why.. the light wasnt good enough or something.. the only colours in the pictures were pretty much red/black/white which made all the lighting on the pics all weird and hard to work with in photoshop........ so no new sets for me .. but I can post some pics on here now.... so here is me nekkid.................... tongue











The entire set is in my pictures in the rejected set folder if you want to check them out... so now I really have to get around to doing another set soon!.. I have some ideas and just have to try to make them happen now........ surreal but it will probably take me another year to get around to doing another one...

ARRR!!!

I am currently addicted to Taro Milk Tea with Pearls........ yum!!! love Fuck it rules...... I want some now!!! I tried to buy some today but the place was closed..which made me sad.. frown
Taro Milk Tea = <3



skull

The new Mini Winter Range for Beserk Clothing is almost finished...!! Finally! i am a week past my deadline, due to no fault of my own.. which is the most annoying part when there is absolutely nothing i can do about it!!! ... but I am picking up all the spy jackets and constraint skirts on Friday.. I then just have to print up the skirts and then everything will be ready to send out next Monday to the shops!!.. biggrin ... I hope it all sells.. !! whatever
You can see a preview of my range here...
Or I am still having a huge SALE on everything in my
Beserk Webstore - with up to 50% OFF!!! So check it out!!!



ARRR!!!

Warning :: depressed ranting ahead .............

Well I have defiently been going through the most fucked up time of my life over the past month.. as well as being flat out with Beserk, I spent a week in bed with the worst cough I have ever had, plus dealing with some fucked up relationship stuff that I haven’t ever had to face before.... and which I always promised myself i would never go through, which makes it worse and has made me realise you can never trust guys when it comes to sex.. even when you think you can... guys love their cock more than anything else.. lol...
So once again made me realise how you can trust no-one.... and relationships are just lies.. So I destroyed myself for a few weeks over what someone else did.. which was pointless.. not sure why it effects me as it was nothing to do with me.. i guess it is just hard to not feel like you failed.. but on the positive side.. I now hold 2 x get of jail free cards... wink lol... plus there are now going to be big changes... smile

I actually went to the doctors the other week and asked about anti-depressants... he gave me a trial pack of Zoloft.... which has been sitting on my table unopened ever since.. :surrreal: I have always been extremely anti anti-depressants.. but I really wonder if they would help me at the moment.... somedays I don’t want to get out of bed and I am getting more and more negative and secluded by the week ... keep thinking everyday I should try it.. argh..... i would love to hear anyones thoughs on anti-depressants.. experiences etc.. I have actually been feeling better the last few days and more positive about everything which is good!

END RANT.. sorry ..tongue

skull


I have black hair now!!... hmmm not sure for how long though....... i miss red...

So back to beserk land for me... I am working on the new website so it will be ready for when the new range hits the stores!!.. kisses to y'all!!! kiss kiss


SIARA
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anatdevice

anatdevice

Brooklyn, NY
April 2003

JUN 06, 2006 03:46 PM

Sorry for the trials and tribulations, luv. At least Beserk is really happening, right?

The pics look good, but i see what you mean about fixing the color. i'll bet it's the lights. That sort of color usually calls for natural light, or really good studio lighting, with dark walls. (for me, anyway)

OO

OO

I'm lost
May 2005

JUN 06, 2006 07:13 PM

Hooray for more pics, boo to them not being passed. You look awesome as always!! I look forward to the next set, even if your busy schedule makes it a ways off.
I've only ever experienced aniti-d drugs from the outside, watching the change from super down to regular type moods. If you feel really bad and think your quality of life and connection to others would benefit, it would be worth trying. I do agree with 'oldgreeneye' though in regards to eating healthy as a first step to feeling good. Also exercise or physical draining by walking, riding a bike or punching a boxing bag until you are drained. This makes me feel 100% better after just a week of doing it, a great release of toxins through sweat and burning them out.
Be careful of the comedowns of nerve drugs like ppl have said here. I was on bicofen or something years ago to stop me having morning spasms after my neck injury. They opened the gateway from my brain to my spine and kinda worked....but if i missed a day or worse, two days, holy shit!! nightmares, confusion, depression, it was scary. i reached maximum dose and ran out for a few days and it was horrible, you have to work up to it and work off again.
Good luck with feeling happy and your awesome clothing creations.
Much love(evol) kiss

Aaronsrod

Aaronsrod

Australia
November 2003

JUN 07, 2006 03:20 AM

Hey thanks for the birthday wishes, I had a top night last night I went to Mondo's Organic Restaurant in on West End, with about 20 close friends, the food was great and the company even better just how I like to spend a birthday. The only thing missing was you and some other SG friends. wink

BTW we now have 2 new dogs at that site a Doberman and a German Shepard, see devil was worth 2 dogs

you have some pretty hot pics there girl, I love reading you posts they are never dull

cunninglinquist

cunninglinquist

Quakertown, PA
November 2003

JUN 07, 2006 10:33 AM

I know exactly what you mean about double checking on orders and their ship to only to find them shipped to the old or wrong address. Then on top of it they call and bitch about having to deliver it twice. I stopped them cold in their tracks, when I said my purchase order shows the correct ship to address, I confirmed the address at this time on this date with this person, and they assured me it was correct, now what is your problem.

Max16Characters

Max16Characters

Korea, Republic Of
March 2003

JUN 08, 2006 05:01 AM

My thoughts on anti-depressents. Happiness in a pill isn't really happiness. On th eother hand, some people reeally do need help. Tom cruise says all you need is vitamins and Scientology.

Max16Characters

Max16Characters

Korea, Republic Of
March 2003

JUN 08, 2006 05:10 AM

Oh, and i lurve your rejected set. Boo to SG for not accepting it. BTW, your hair is awesome!

Liarsenic

Liarsenic

Australia
August 2005

JUN 09, 2006 03:59 AM

if only we could all be naked on the internet...

legman

legman

Portland, OR
February 2006

JUN 09, 2006 05:26 AM

the set is HOTHOTHOT!


thank u for showing part of it here! biggrin

legman

legman

Portland, OR
February 2006

JUN 09, 2006 05:39 AM

I'm all for anti-depresants. I like them. smile

ironstein

ironstein

Australia
December 2003

JUN 09, 2006 02:37 PM

Little known statistic about men - 99% of men give the rest of us a bad name wink

Chin up sweet thing

TheFreddy

TheFreddy

Chicago, IL
February 2004

JUN 10, 2006 06:52 PM

Everytime I read about you, you've going through some more drama. I'm pretty anti-prescriptions myself, but I got a friend who's suffering from manic depression. When he's in a rage it takes him a really long time for him to calm down. Right now, the shrink's got him on 4 types of medication, including tranquilizers. I did see a change in his behavior for the better, it's just the idea that he's gotta get drugged up in order to be "normal". Then again, he went off the meds one time and now he's going to trial for battery. I guess what I'm saying is that, though I hate to admit, prescription drugs can be good for you. I'm still not at ease with the idea, however.

And I need some anti-drepressants now cuz they done rejected your set frown

Lelaina

Lelaina

SUICIDEGIRL

Australia

JUN 13, 2006 04:54 AM

geez. why didnt that get accepted? hmmmm, maybe mine wont then either!! shocked youre looking mighty fine btw wink

Allura

Allura

SUICIDEGIRL

Australia

JUN 28, 2006 02:59 AM

Thanks for the lovely comment darling smile

I hope your feeling better. Personally I would never take anti depressants but I've never been in a situation to really need them. One of my close friends took them for a couple of months but she thought it didn't make the situation any better. She said that she felt like a zombie all the time and found it hard to feel any emotions at all. I had another friend who's dad was a doctor and prescribed them to her when she was a young teeneger now every time she trys to stop taking them she gets so down she considers suicide frown I've heard good stories about people on them too so I suppose it depend's on the person and if you take them sensibly.

Tez

Tez

SUICIDEGIRL

Australia

JUN 29, 2006 05:21 AM

Thanks Siara kiss

One day.. we're doing a multi set together!!

SPOILERS! (Click to view)
If you want to of course.. blush haha

Celtic_Cyclops

Celtic_Cyclops

Australia
March 2004

JUL 04, 2006 05:31 AM

Hey Siara, how are things going?

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