Miss you SG.....

Oh SG how I always miss you so..

I'M GOING TO DUBLIN AUGUST 1ST!!


I'm soo excited!!!!!!!

Oh goodness!!!! I am totally about to have a good night. It will be great. I sear.

So I finally got the internet in my home again!! After many years of not having it. It makes me very, very happy!!

I also came across the world of music sharing via blogs. I am in musical heaven. Although I'm sick at the moment. I feel like my nose is going to fall off!! I even had to call into work!

I have also been hanging out with a boy that is sweeter than cherry pie. I'm hoping things will go as planned, and we will continue to enjoy one anothers company.

I also have no desire to be mean to this boy, or to play head games like I have unknowingly done to others I have dated.

Dating is strange. I havn't really emotionally invested myself in anyone in years. I have always pushed away, and started fights. I think maybe because things were always based on a physical level, and it was instant realationship. Instead of being friends first.

I have faithin myself, and my ability to be myself once again. Instead of the rain cloud I've been for the last three years. I can see the ship coming in.


</3,
Shambles.

So how have things been here?? Hmmm... I still don't have the internet as usual...


I found a cute boy.. and that seems fine at the moment.. I'm sure it's only temporary, but effective for the moment...

Right now I am at my moms..

I went out to Kansas city last night.. I had alot of fun.. I forgot how much I missed this city. I love it.. I love to call it home...

C'mon guys.. you can do MUCH better then that..


Soooo.. I have come to realize that nothing makes me laugh more then people taking the internet seriously..

Getting butt hurt over people they don't know in person talking shit. I find it fucking HILARIOUS even if it is about me. I know who I am, what I look like, where I'm from and so on.. But seeing it from a bullys perspective is effin amazing.. I talked on the phone to my sister as we went through them.. We were laughing so fucking hard.

All that I care about right now is getting my shit together, and getting back to my baby. I miss him so much it almost hurts.. Apparently he has struck a cord in me. God those eyes, and that face, and that smile.. and those arms, among other things.. Ugh.. I should just be patient.. No rushing....

so aso as of late i am still withou the internet.... soon i will be back here.....



-shambles

sooo i am head over heels for a boy.. well not a boy, but a man!!!!


tee hee! i'm excited!!

Once again I am att he bar, using the computer.. one of the many perks of being internetless.. lets just say Wichita Sucks.