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My brother is visiting from home. Sorry for the inactivity. Will be posting and such again after the 3rd! <3
First of all I wan to share two things (sets rather) that I love and I think should be on the FP.
1. MY LOVE Delia in Jungle Cat . It really shows how cute and fun she is.
2. This girl Pyke in Fascinating Facade . This hopeful has had a few beautiful sets...but this one is just amazing and is what she is all about.
Also, I mentioned I was going to be doing some costuming in my last blog.
Clue #1: Green and Yellow.
1. MY LOVE Delia in Jungle Cat . It really shows how cute and fun she is.
2. This girl Pyke in Fascinating Facade . This hopeful has had a few beautiful sets...but this one is just amazing and is what she is all about.
Also, I mentioned I was going to be doing some costuming in my last blog.
Clue #1: Green and Yellow.
SG, there is something that I have never told you. Late elementary was when my first eating disorder began. I began to over-eat. In junior high it continued. I would go all day without eating until I got home from school and would eat and eat. Then I would eat what my dad would cook for dinner too. I didn't want anyone at school to see the fat girl eat, maybe they wouldn't know her weight problem was because of all the food she ate.
In high school is when the disorder began to evolve. I continued the old habits but added something into the mix. I started to make myself throw up. Slowly I started to lose weight. No one ever knew this was happening. I ate so much and so many bad things that I was maintaining a regular weight. I started to have panic attacks when I couldn't throw up the food or when I didn't think that I threw it up soon enough.
The end of my senior year/after I graduated it got worse still. I began to eat only once a day. A lot of the time I would eat a slim fast snack bar and that was all. Then, I proceeded to take diet pills. I started with the weaker ones then moved on to the more intense ones. I remember exercising for hours in front of the mirror, criticizing myself. I remember taking so many diet pills I thought I was having a heart attack. The caffeine made me restless at night. Every time I would eat anything, I would feel guilt. I wouldn't want to go hang out with my friends because I felt so fat. I was under 100 pounds.
Ok, so what is the point of posting this so many people can see? Since then I have gotten a lot better with eating. It was and still is not easy. I have gained some weight. I really had no clue how to eat and exercise right because I have never done it correctly.
Today I ate so well and decided to go for a run. I have been so depressed I have not even tried to work out at all, today I did it. The right way. I felt so good I wanted to cry. I never thought I could do this.
In high school is when the disorder began to evolve. I continued the old habits but added something into the mix. I started to make myself throw up. Slowly I started to lose weight. No one ever knew this was happening. I ate so much and so many bad things that I was maintaining a regular weight. I started to have panic attacks when I couldn't throw up the food or when I didn't think that I threw it up soon enough.
The end of my senior year/after I graduated it got worse still. I began to eat only once a day. A lot of the time I would eat a slim fast snack bar and that was all. Then, I proceeded to take diet pills. I started with the weaker ones then moved on to the more intense ones. I remember exercising for hours in front of the mirror, criticizing myself. I remember taking so many diet pills I thought I was having a heart attack. The caffeine made me restless at night. Every time I would eat anything, I would feel guilt. I wouldn't want to go hang out with my friends because I felt so fat. I was under 100 pounds.
Ok, so what is the point of posting this so many people can see? Since then I have gotten a lot better with eating. It was and still is not easy. I have gained some weight. I really had no clue how to eat and exercise right because I have never done it correctly.
Today I ate so well and decided to go for a run. I have been so depressed I have not even tried to work out at all, today I did it. The right way. I felt so good I wanted to cry. I never thought I could do this.
So. I went to San Diego Comic Con for the first time on Sunday (and only Sunday). First of all before I give my opinion on this I just want to say that meeting all of the other girls was really great all of them were really really sweet.
On the unfortunate side, I am the type of person who goes to a comic convention for the comic aspect. I think the branching out from that aspect has gone way too far. It is to the point where I think they should make a separate convention for both, it would also make it less crowded as well. I felt so discouraged reading article after article, after article on the convention and the comic aspect was not mentioned.
I also want to take the opportunity to show love for all of the real geeks and nerds who really have a passion for the nerd culture. I really tired of people making the claim and not backing it up. It is not just a little fad you can go through. I don't really care if it has become "cool" or what everl (trust me, it wasn't that way before),I think it is pretty cool. But to be a nerd, you have to like nerd things, and do them. Don't wear a Batman shirt if you know nothing about him.
So I wanted to share a couple things I have read (and/or watched). The first thing is an article, and DO NOT THINK I AGREE WITH EVERYTHING IN IT! But it has some good points.
Fake Geek Girls
On top of that I found a video response which also has some good points.
Pretty much what I take out of these is if you are not interested in nerdy things just don't do it to get attention. It is not worth it to not be yourself, people will probably like you anyway! Also, if you haven't really delved into nerd culture but have an interest and would like to that is not even close to being a problem! I love to help others experience what I love to do, and even after the fact if you find you don't like it that is fine too!
I wish people could just be who they are. Any thoughts on this are much appreciated. I would love to know what all of you think about this issue.
On the unfortunate side, I am the type of person who goes to a comic convention for the comic aspect. I think the branching out from that aspect has gone way too far. It is to the point where I think they should make a separate convention for both, it would also make it less crowded as well. I felt so discouraged reading article after article, after article on the convention and the comic aspect was not mentioned.
I also want to take the opportunity to show love for all of the real geeks and nerds who really have a passion for the nerd culture. I really tired of people making the claim and not backing it up. It is not just a little fad you can go through. I don't really care if it has become "cool" or what everl (trust me, it wasn't that way before),I think it is pretty cool. But to be a nerd, you have to like nerd things, and do them. Don't wear a Batman shirt if you know nothing about him.
So I wanted to share a couple things I have read (and/or watched). The first thing is an article, and DO NOT THINK I AGREE WITH EVERYTHING IN IT! But it has some good points.
Fake Geek Girls
On top of that I found a video response which also has some good points.
Pretty much what I take out of these is if you are not interested in nerdy things just don't do it to get attention. It is not worth it to not be yourself, people will probably like you anyway! Also, if you haven't really delved into nerd culture but have an interest and would like to that is not even close to being a problem! I love to help others experience what I love to do, and even after the fact if you find you don't like it that is fine too!
I wish people could just be who they are. Any thoughts on this are much appreciated. I would love to know what all of you think about this issue.
HALLO! This blog RULES. First of all I got a lovely dress from my wishlist! Hmmm...I wonder who that could possibly be from! (pictures with that later!)
NOW! BIG NEWS!
Does anyone remember when Squeak and Bob were in the Girls of Geek calendar??? Well I will be in the 2013 one! Be sure to like their facebook page here! and preorder your calendars NOW!
I also have been actually using my facebook page as well so be sure to go on there and like it! It is under Severen Suicide of course
Hey yo! I will be at the SG comicon booth on Sunday! SAY HI!
One last thing before I get to the awesome part of this blog! I added a set of paints to my wishlist and whoever may be so kind to get them for me I will send them a signed 4x6 photo...I know it is not much but I would like to alter a lot of Magic the Gathering cards and need more paint! I am also super poor (the set is only like $15).
OK. So I also recorded myself answering some of those lovely questions you asked me and the videos can be found HERE! One of them is just me testing the location of the camera haha.
So the wonderful burnstein28 drew some pretty sweet fanart of me! LOVE.
AND NOW a ton of photos! Many of which contain me making funny faces! ENJOY!
KTHNXBAI!
OH WAIT! Be sure to check out the new set Jungle Cat by Delia ! It rules! (Shot by SoBelle !
NOW! BIG NEWS!
Does anyone remember when Squeak and Bob were in the Girls of Geek calendar??? Well I will be in the 2013 one! Be sure to like their facebook page here! and preorder your calendars NOW!
I also have been actually using my facebook page as well so be sure to go on there and like it! It is under Severen Suicide of course
Hey yo! I will be at the SG comicon booth on Sunday! SAY HI!
One last thing before I get to the awesome part of this blog! I added a set of paints to my wishlist and whoever may be so kind to get them for me I will send them a signed 4x6 photo...I know it is not much but I would like to alter a lot of Magic the Gathering cards and need more paint! I am also super poor (the set is only like $15).
OK. So I also recorded myself answering some of those lovely questions you asked me and the videos can be found HERE! One of them is just me testing the location of the camera haha.
So the wonderful burnstein28 drew some pretty sweet fanart of me! LOVE.
AND NOW a ton of photos! Many of which contain me making funny faces! ENJOY!
KTHNXBAI!
OH WAIT! Be sure to check out the new set Jungle Cat by Delia ! It rules! (Shot by SoBelle !
