SuicideGirl: Seska
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Seska is heavily medicated for your safety ...

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MARCH 26, 2007 @ 03:31 PM

Dear friends ... What to say where to begin …

I am lost on a journey of epic proportions. There is no easy way, I must fight this one to the finish. The hardest part of all of course is the loss of that which is most precious to me, that which I have come to understand and love must now be cast away for the greater good. I must lose the very core of what makes me myself, that which is the source of my identity and ego, and which sets me apart from so many others. It must all be destroyed. It is time to strip away all the layers I have built around myself, the personality and socially constructed attitude that suits me so well. I must tear away the pain which I wear like a badge of honour and obliterate all the fears and strange neuroses which I have finally come to accept as part of myself. It is time to merge with my perfected self, but before that, the slate must be wiped blank. The truest form of what I am and have always been is calling to me now. The raw, primal, energy waits as I struggle to rediscover my dimensional consciousness and cosmic connection. It is waiting for me to wade through the shit and corruption that is human society and find that which has always been, but has been long forgotten. I must break free of the weight of obligation and expectation forced on me by the very rigid and self-serving nature of humanity.

It is time to reconnect with the Force and be at one with the cosmos, to vibrate in that frequency of higher consciousness and understanding. It is time to leave the confined spaces created by attachment and longing. It is time …

Musical inspiration provided by Bobby Digital (aka the Rza) - Build Strong …
Comments
ED1E1US

ED1E1US

I'm lost
August 2006

MAR 26, 2007 03:35 PM

Damn Grrl..what took you so long

nicklesanddimes3

nicklesanddimes3

I'm lost
February 2007

MAR 26, 2007 03:43 PM

wow, deep. welcome back

Chalko

Chalko

Sacramento, CA
September 2005

MAR 26, 2007 06:04 PM

Aww...Dear friend, my soul mate sista...

Good to read such a well thought out journal.
Now and again it is necessary to seclude yourself among deep mountains and hidden valleys to restore your link to the source of life.
Breathe in and let yourself soar to the ends of the universe; breathe out and bring the cosmos back inside.
Next, breathe up all fecundity and vibrancy of the earth.
Finally, blend the breath of heaven and the breath of earth with your own, becoming the breath of life itself.

i___zombie

i___zombie

Las Vegas, NV
June 2003

MAR 26, 2007 08:00 PM

sounds like you need to "escape"... wink

adeluxe

adeluxe

Temple, TX
June 2005

MAR 26, 2007 09:09 PM

Wait! I was there just this past week and somehow, lost my way...please leave bread crumbs on your journey, I promise not to eat them. shocked

Anarchie

Anarchie

SUICIDEGIRL

Vatican City

MAR 27, 2007 12:17 AM

Good luck on your journey!

evilgothboy2

evilgothboy2

United Kingdom
September 2004

MAR 27, 2007 09:50 AM

Good luck with that! Please say we can still look at you naked!

jaytan

jaytan

Los Angeles, CA
April 2004

MAR 27, 2007 02:13 PM

Shed the coccoon, butterfly. But you'll find that you can still carry some vestiges of your former self, be they lessons, memories, or even friends and connections.

You'll be ok regardless. Fly high.

Bobbz

Bobbz

I'm lost
December 2005

MAR 31, 2007 08:22 AM

So what your saying is it's time for some deep.....meditation!! Rock on.!!

DWZ3

DWZ3

Bolivia
December 2005

MAR 31, 2007 11:23 PM

smile place a call to ECCO and confirm the reservations.

welcome back. you were missed.

S_Eldorado

S_Eldorado

Australia
December 2004

APR 08, 2007 02:15 AM

Word up FP!!! Nice to see you back! xo

snowisismoon

snowisismoon

Fort Washington, MD
November 2006

APR 18, 2007 06:50 AM

I love closet raid...it's one of my favs on here!

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