scout in motion:








this one is mainly flux, some me

you can find more at destinationsexcity.com. it's a pretty cool project.

so i actually attended an sg event, and here is proof. how much do i not fit in? but i did meet des and blaze and tmronin. and i shot a set the next day. look at me being all active on the site!

i'm doing some . . . research. and in this research i am trying to find pornographic movies on the internet. but here's where this because becomes difficult: i am looking for "good" porn. perhaps what sg would look like if it was in video form, maybe more voyeuristic less artificial. penetration entirely optional. i actually much prefer amateur. i found 1 clip, about 4 minutes, french. it is probably the hottest thing i've ever seen. i don't think i'm allowed to link to the site or i would share.

ok, here's a proposition: maybe we could like do a trade, you send me a link to your favorite internet porn and i'll send you mine. and this is for research mind you.

and if i can't find any, i think i will have to start shooting my own because the current state of things is deeply disheartening.

it's hard not to think about this site when reading emily gould's (i will abstain from inserting an adjective here) article for the ny times magazine cover story and all of the controversy surrounding it. if you haven't read it already, it is fairly interesting, or at least it is exemplary of our current culture and some sg contributors on this site.

and puppies

Hi. I'm not sure where to start since I've been absent for so long. I'm not even sure if anyone is still out there. If not, I understand.

I guess I can summarize what I have been doing since we last spoke:

1. Obsessing over the democratic primaries.
2. Agonizing over grad school applications and interviews. I am almost done, I only have 1 interview left. I go to New Haven next week, after which I will have to make a final decision. Oh, and I will be getting an MFA in Graphic Design.
3. Waiting for the sun.
4. Working.
5. Self-medicating with copious amounts of wine.
6. And therapy. I go to therapy.
7. Feeling old.
8. My computer broke and got fixed and broke and got fixed. And then I fell asleep 2 nights ago with it on my bed and it crashed to the floor during the night, so, although it is technically fixed, it's kinda broken again. I think it's revolting.
9. Not cleaning my room, but often refusing to make plans or go out because I should clean my room.

That's all I can think of right now. Maybe I made it sound like I am depressed. I'm not especially depressed, so don't you guys worry.

What do you do when you get home from work? I still feel maladjusted to this divide between work and not work, or work and play. I'm not sure how to play when I get home from work so maybe if I understand what other people do, I can borrow.

i'm in madrid. if you're in madrid, come find me.

posh just sent me these from a set i shot with sean that was rejected. i hate rejection.