someone posted that for me, so i'm taking it down. kinda private.

taken from a message to highside. there seems to be some remnants of me somewhere in there, so i thought i'd post, i'm feeling pretty emo:

i know. i find myself to be more of a rarety not having tattoos than having them. esp. on this site.

my feeling is that eventually you become so punkrock that you no longer need to prove how punkrock you are. that's pretty much the place i'm at now. i still need to prove myself in plenty of other ways, but i'm working on it.

i have blond hair now, although my roots are getting long. the name scout just kind of came to me. one night i spontaneously went out in drag, wearing boy clothes and a hat and i called myself scout. i was awefully faggy. and it has kind of just stuck as an alias.

take care,
scout

i think i'm going to post this response as a blog if you don't mind. it turned more into personal reflection than an e-mail. thanks for asking questions.

this is for you:

it's sunday. i took a vicodin and i'm laying in bed listening to this american life. i like a girl who has a girlfriend and she can't see me. my cat is sitting next to me. it's difficult writing on vicodin, but it gives you weird dreams. maybe if i fall to sleep my life will seem more interesting.

new me:



old me:



changes . . .

uploading pictures is impossible. one more try.

tsutar made this for me as part of his fanart. i am in awe. speechless.

thank you tsutar