8 year SG anniversary today!!

This sums up my month of October.





....more to follow....
XOOX

Whoa, I am overdue for an update. I want to make sure my one main mutual sg fan will be able to have some updated xtina info.... lol... so here you go hexfix93 But the past 2 years of my life have been *WAY* beyond crazy and one SHITFUCK of a rough ride.... with a few good fleeting moments but spiked mostly with terrible memories, unbelievable debt and some items that are way too personal for the internet. take my word that it's gruesome and you probably don't want to know.

Basically, I made it out alive. But I got into a serious car accident (the damage to ME wasnt serious, but my car wouldve cost 8000 to fix... so NO more car. Also I got evicted the first time in my life, so now back at home..... Still engaged to my man, trying to concoct a Halloween wedding but not much time to plan, and certainly no money... lol. But our 5 yr relationship is only 2 weeks away sooooooooooooooo... we shall see

I have been avoiding all humans the entire year, I am just way to fucked up right now in the head to be around people and make friends/handle friends. Plus I owe everyone and their moms (and my moms) money.... so I just feel like my tail is permantly between my legs. So if anyone that reads this I owe money too - I am soooooooo sorry. It was never my intent to borrow money then total my car, get evicted, and lose my job and be out of work for THIS long... since March 31st...... i promise i can do something to make it right, just not now.... I am trying to even walk in a straight line the right way at this time in my life. heh. I feel like I am 15 again.

Right now I am working at a kick ass haunted house, and ill have to post a few pictures.. I just redyed my hair black... well blue black. Believe it or not, on my 2 year absense from SG blogging, my hair was all platinum blonde (totally not my usual color, but really really enjoyed it) but now I am back to black!


Over and out, this is the most personal info I have posted in years.... little bits at a time girls... hehehee

Here is a few pics to make it sassier...





And maybe if I am feeing super social later this week, I will upload a bunch of my Haunted pictures... they are iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinsane. You just wait!

Ok ok, I maybe did get another sweet one with my favorite sweet chicken hen I love to hold and kiss and feed that lives right by me here it is!!!

***********FOODOLOGY***************

1. What is your salad dressing of choice?
Greek

2. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
Yamashiro's (where they filmed memoirs of a geisha, in hollywood hills, LOVE IT, best japanese food ever)

3. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
Double Stuff Oreos, Veggie Tempura, Velveeta Shells and Cheese, Margherita pizza...Anything my Mom cooks

4. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
bacon, pineapple, & ham

5.What do you like to put on your toast?
a whole shitload of jelly... grape, raspberry, or strawberry! i also like cinnamon w/extra butter

***********TECHNOLOGY***************

1. How many televisions are in your house?
5

2. What color cell phone do you have?
It is black & chrome, but I have a hot pink casing on it.

3. How long would it take you to look up who invented the Rubber Band?
as soon as I could load up wikipedia

4. Have any idea how may Megahertz your computer has?
Obv


***************BIOLOGY******************

1. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
right, boring!

2. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Yes, I had surgery on my womanly bits back in 07 and had some whack shit removed!

3. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
Cases and cases of wine at work. To be exact, Oak Leaf Merlot. I lift heavy boxes of wine all day

4. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Yes, when I was little my beagle wrapped her leash around me, and then bolted, knocking me out and literally swept me off my feet and i fell to the ground with the wind knocked out of me.

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

1. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
I think yes

2. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Scarlett of course

3. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Shit yeah, where is it?


************DUMBOLOGY******************

1. How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
I will just guess, um, 17 or 18

2. Last time you had a run-in with the cops.
I got pulled over last week for texting, heh.

3. Last person you talked to?
Jon

4. Last person you hugged?
Jon <3

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

1. Season?
It would be between Spring, and Fall....

2. Holiday?
My Anniversary, it's a holiday just for us... 11/10/04

3. Day of the week?
It used to be Tuesday, but now my days off are Wed & Thur, so probably them now!

4. Month?
March

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

1. Missing someone?
Amy, Amanda and Holland

2. Mood?
Productive & Content

3. What are you listening to?
the rain

4. Watching?
New York goes to Work

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

1. First place you went this morning?
To work at 7am

2. What's the last movie you saw?
7 Pounds

3. Do you smile often?
no

4. Sleeping Alone Tonight?
Nope, haven't in 5 years.

***************OTHER-OLOGY*****************

1. Do you always answer your phone?
Hardly ever.

2. Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Jon's dad, lol

3. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Light blue-ish green

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
I've never been!

5. Do you own a digital camera?
Yes, who the hell doesn't?

6. Have you ever had a pet fish?
Yes, Punio aka Rotny aka Notorious BIG

7. Favorite Christmas song(s):
I will have to go with my Mom's favorite, Silver Bells, or Winter Wonderland

8. What's on your wish list for your birthday?
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$, or my blue Parrotlet I must get

9. Can you do push ups?
I used to be able to, haven't tried in a while

10. Can you do a chin up?
Yes i can do like 5 or 6. Used to be able to at least.

11. Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Ummm nervous.

12. Do you have any saved texts?
Yes, a couple sentimental ones

13. Ever been in a car wreck?
Yeah I have had more than my far share

14. Do you have an accent?
I don't think so

15. What is the last song to make you cry?
"Wild Horses" by the Rolling Stones it's the song I was listening to when I got the news a friend died .. Every time I hear it.

16. Plans tonight?
Sleeping... after our nightly Oreos and watching the Dollhouse finale

17. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
I *am* rock bottom. Been there for quite some time

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday.
Nothing

19. Have you ever been given roses?
Not as often as I would like, but yeah

20. Current worry?
Too many to list... mostly stemming from $$$.

21. Current hate right now?
People that waste my time..

22. Met someone who changed your life?
My fiance <3

23. How will you bring in the New Year?
Very uneventfully I am sure

24. What song represents you?
Lil Wayne anything

25. Name three people who might complete this?
Tom, Dick & Harry

26. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Fuck yes

27. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yes <3<3 5 years.

28. Do you have any tattoos/piercings? 16 piercings, 18 tattoos

29. Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
Obv, engaged.

30. Does anyone love you?
Jon, and my mom.

31. Ever had someone sing to you?
Yes... if you could call it singing.

32. When did you last cry?
A week or two ago

33. Do you like to cuddle?
Yes, I love to cuddle with my man, and our two birdies. <3

34. Have you held hands with anyone today?
Not today

35. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
Paula Abdul and NKOTB

36. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
Old.. just have a few

37. Do you like pulpy orange juice?
Some pulp, not too too much.

Here is what I have been lookin' like lately.. been monthes since ive uploaded a new pic anywhere.... Its my birthday (and akemis!) in 10 days, yeaaaah... all i want is 2 tickets to brittney spears march 16th, and a new black bebe hoodie (mine got stolen) :*( if you are willing to help me with either of those items, send me a message! i CAN get tickets but they are going for $275! and the hoodie is sold out except for x-small (the size i actually want!) here is the link -
bebe hoodie

So Valentine's day marked my 6 year mark of being a Suicide Girl.

Amazing how time flies....

I don't want to blog cuz my life is too depressing at the moment. Maybe if I could find a fucking job and stop being broke things would be better. My man and I may get married this fall if we can start getting back on our feet. I wanna get married on Nov10 it would be our 5 year anniversary that day!

Well, time to smoke a butt and think about life

So, last Friday night I got fucking fired.

I am so mad, and so fucked....

Somebody hire me!

I am so scared cuz last time I tried to find a job I had to try like 50 fucking places before I got ONE call back.

And the worst thing is, its such a stupid reason. I got fired for "soliciting". Because I was trying to sell a camera on craigslist - and I had a guy come to my work to check it out , he was there for maybe 60 seconds, decided he didn't want the cam, and he left. But the next day I go into work, my boss calls me in the office and said I was trying to "hock my wares" and "solicit paying guests". Well, he wasnt a guest, he just came in solely to look at the camera, and it didn't even sell. I didn't know about this stupid rule, or else I obviously wouldn't have done something to get myself fired.



I have never been late, had any issues with customers in the past, never had a warning, never called out and never asked for a day off.. so just to be kicked to the curb for such a stupid fucking reason just boils my blood. My fiance who also works there - didn't get in trouble at all. Does this make sense? No, didn't think so.

Now I have a SHIT TON of bills due this month, and not even to mention the INSANE amount of credit card debt I am in. I just want to shoot myself in the face. Or I want a fresh start.

If anyone wants to buy any prints, or anything featured in any of my sets... or if any one is hiring or knows of a job that would take a pathetic ol' Scarlett then let me know!

xoxoox
sad face scarlett


most recent me!


aaand me 5 years ago with katie, just for good measure. too bad this set can't see the light of day! message me if you wanna buy it!

Hey, anyone want to buy my computer, or buy my really fucking rad camera/video recorder?

Here are some links. I need to scramble to come up with rent, its due today, fffuuuccckkk
http://nh.craigslist.org/ele/900601992.html
Samsung SC-HMx10c High Def 8GB Memory, 10x Optical Zoom And 2.7" LCD - $250


Dell Desktop Computer, works great, 17" flat panel LCD computer, CHEAP - $250
http://nh.craigslist.org/sys/900594480.html


Please email me at disk0bloodbath@gmail.com
Thank you xoxoxo

Hi SG-Land

*waves*

Just rolling by to say hello, things are finally looking up for me. After 5 long weeks of unemployment I found a fucking FABULOUS job where I make lots of money and only have to put in 3-4 hours a day and I make more than I did doing 9-10 hr days..... fucking sweet. My man also works with me too, so we have lotsa fun together plus we can car pool!

Only shitty thing is now I am in an assload of debt, without having any income for 5 weeks, we had to put a LOT of expenses, bills, and other things you wouldnt even imagine on credit cards. Yeah, ill be paying off that slowly for the next 5 years. lol.

I got arrested last month, OOPS, gotta do some community service. Excited about it though, I am trying to do some work at this homeless bird shelter downtown, sounds adorable. I love birds, I have 2 little parrotlets

Well, I will leave you with a couple new pix, tell me what you think!





Me and Jason Mewes!

*EDITED* - My multi with Katie that got accepted in MR - got taken down!!!! So, unless staff re-thinks it, or maybe if I get some feedback of people that wanted to see it..... I dont know. I am just really upset about this, and want some help. Does anyone even care about me as a SG anymore? Or should I hang my hat and leave?



SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much is going on. Lots bad, little good. Alas its all pretty personal stuff... so if you are friendly with me, give me a call or email or something.. Id love to hear from people. I feel so distanced.

Anyway, I only have a minute to update, but I promise I will do a real update soon. Fuck, its been since February!! Here is some stuff I can say.... My hair is blond, and pink. I got seam tattoos with a cute little Hello Kitty on the top! I got a new Parrotlet named Butterscotch... and Kiwi my other parrotlet is laying eggs!!! In 2 years they can mate! Umm what else... I am currently on a leave of absence from Cosmo School... just too much personal shit going on, and beginning to not be able to afford to only work parttime hours... I needed to work fulltime. And speaking of work, the biggest pisser of all is I got forced against my will to transfer to a different store location. Its all due to highschool level immature bullshit..... so many people hate me and talk shit about me and judge me bcuz my Dad owns it.... sooooooo he made a "business decision" to transfer me... Ummm ok. Sucky. Its an extra 20 miles each way!!!!! Nevermind tolls too! The store I worked at before was a mile from my house, not even, probably a half mile. It was a ten min walk. Now its 2 towns over. Plus, I work with my fiancee in Nashua..... its so fun. I love working with him. He makes it tolerable.... but NO that is another reason that fucking people talk shit.... cuz he is there too. I hate people.

Well, I do have a set going into Member Review!!! Here is an preview August 9th though!!!


Ok, my friend is here! Time for sushi date!!!

XOXOXOXO
Scarlett