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NOVEMBER 12, 2007 @ 05:39 PM

I finally had another sleep paralysis episode last night! Complete with a (mostly) out-of-body experience and everything. "I loved it!"

I was super tired, dozing on the couch around 2:30am, when the familiar paralysis sensations came on. The instinct is to fight it and wake up immediately, which I began to do. But it wasn't as intense as previous episodes, so I was able to remember to relax and go with it.

As soon as I relaxed, everything brightened, and I could see around the room, although I knew my eyes were closed. There was a gigantic cacophony of noise happening - sounded like the radio & TV were blasting, children talking & playing, things bumping around, music, etc...

I knew I was having a lucid dream/o.b.e., so I looked down at my hand, which was laying on my sleeping cat, & tried to move it. I was able to lift my arm up only about 8", and even that required enormous effort. My goal was to actually get up this time, which I've never been able to do. I can only ever manage some jerky, uncoordinated movements.

I could see both my "astral" hand (or my dream hand, or subtle body hand, whatever you want to call it) moving around, and my "real" hand, still laying quietly on the cat. I moved my hand up and down, and reached out as far as I could a few times, trying to figure out how to get up.

The noise was getting louder, and I was suddenly paranoid that someone was in the room watching me. I had a flash image of my mom sitting on the end of the couch, staring directly at me. This has happened in at least 2 previous paralysis episodes, and scares the shit out of me every time! It's always my mom when she was 20 or so, too, with long straight hippie hair parted in the middle.

The presences in the room got to me, and I couldn't resist waking up any longer. Forced myself to move, and came out of it. I was still kind of hypnagogic though - it took about a minute for the noise and images to fade away.

Right before I woke up, I thought the kitty would surely be pissed off with all this noise and moving about. But after I woke, he was still sleeping as peacefully as before, so I know I was definitely not waving my arm around in real life.

Fuckin trippy!

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Ticktockman

Ticktockman

Raleigh, NC
April 2006

NOV 12, 2007 05:52 PM

Mmm....sleep paralysis, always entertaining. My favorite edition had me lying in bed, then waking to the realization that someone else was there (pretty normal for hypnagogic states). I couldn't see the person, but as she lay on the bed next to me, I could feel the sensation of fabric, and from the corner of my eye I saw a bridal dress. Evidently I'd gotten married!

Only...then I could feel my bride sidling up against me...or at least her bones. I'd married a skeletal corpse -- par for the course, really -- and she was ready to consummate our relationship. I decided to pull myself out of it at that point. I like a slender gal, but that was taking things a bit too far.

-TTm

Bilharzia

Bilharzia

I'm lost
April 2004

NOV 12, 2007 05:56 PM

Ha! Lucid dreams are the coolest. I have them from time to time--I always try to go flying, but it's not always easy...

Years ago I read about a study done in which they had participants ask themselves at least twenty times a day, "Am I awake or am I dreaming?" They found that after only a few weeks most of the participants were reporting having lucid dreams on a regular basis. I tried it myself for a while, but I just couldn't keep up the regimen. Too bad...

sixsixty

sixsixty

Oakland, CA
OLD SKOOL

NOV 12, 2007 05:59 PM

oh that happens to me all the time, and i too can't really move more than a couple of inches and usually just end up shaking myself awake after it gets to be too much. this happens to me a few times a week at least. they used to be more fun when i was much younger, i remember actually leaving my body and doing way more things back then. now it's usually just like how you explained it.

oh and i'm also able to suggest to myself what i want to dream about before i go to bed, and more often than not it works out to some degree. and a lot of time while i'm in a dream i'm able to recognize that i'm dreaming and do what i want in the dream (this is different than the paralysis dreaming).

It_Thing_Hard_On

It_Thing_Hard_On

Humptulips, WA
November 2003

NOV 12, 2007 06:41 PM

I've only woken during REM sleep once (although given what you're describing my episode sounds different). Of course it was right smack in the middle of a nightmare I was having about being possessed and losing control of my faculties, so that was less than cool.

Oz_the_Vamp

Oz_the_Vamp

Lorain, OH
June 2005

NOV 12, 2007 08:52 PM

That's awesome! I wish I had episodes like that. I've just finally gotten to a point where I can remember dreams, so I've got a hella long way to go before I can get into lucid dreaming or anything involving sleep paralysis or out of body experience.

drone_bzz

drone_bzz

I'm lost
September 2006

NOV 12, 2007 10:13 PM

i dont have sleep paralysis anymore, and i'm glad to be rid of it. it was real freaky.

legman

legman

Portland, OR
February 2006

NOV 12, 2007 11:29 PM

my ex g/f used to get something like that, she said it was very scary.

FRED

FRED

San Diego, CA
OLD SKOOL

NOV 13, 2007 01:00 AM


Wow... that's far out!
So it's a kind of paralysis? Interesting.

captwinky

captwinky

I'm lost
July 2006

NOV 13, 2007 12:41 PM

Sounds strange but cool..

Fatality

Fatality

SUICIDEGIRL

Connecticut, USA

NOV 13, 2007 05:55 PM

DEFINITELY consider coming, I'd love to have you here. Let's keep in touch about it over the next months, k?

And I am a HUGE hypnogogic hallucinator. Usually, I think that I am expanding, especially my tongue and hands. I'll think that my tongue is too big for my mouth! When I was severely depressed, they all used to be a lot more morbid, though.

Fatality

Fatality

SUICIDEGIRL

Connecticut, USA

NOV 13, 2007 06:00 PM

And I just read all of your profile, and I think you would love it here. I smoke and meditate and read and read and read and play music and eat fruits off trees and everything lovely!

kiss

Saint

Saint

SUICIDEGIRL

California, USA

NOV 13, 2007 07:05 PM

GOD DAMN IT! I was reading the art that would look looovelyyyyy on SG merch and you named two of my picks CRG and Buff Monster mmmm. I love you.

Prophecusp

Prophecusp

Los Angeles, CA
October 2003

NOV 15, 2007 12:47 AM

wow, that's wild...
i've had a few experiences like that. one time i fell into such a state while under full moon light. i had the shutters open so i could lay there and actually stare at the moon as i dozed off. i remember two floating white orbs descending from the moon and coming through my window. i was coherent enough to be afraid and knew to hide under the covers...and then these orbs somehow spoke through me. these things somehow soothed me enough to sit up in bed in some kind of trancelike state. i was asleep soundly after that and i knew that i had never sat up or had ever been awake for that matter...very unsettling yet fascinating stuff... surreal

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