you've got nowhere to go but up.

first things first. they still haven't announced the winners of the august self-shot contest (although i think i know who won!), so if we could get my boom set to 300 comments that would make me a hppy girl. i want new people to comment!

ok. so guess where i was last night?



if i look happy, its only because im crazy.

i spent the night in the er. the room was just like in the movies...all white with nothing in it except the bed, with no covers, that was attached to the floor. the door had no handle on the inside. they took my blood and urine. i waited five hours in that room before the crisis intervention people showed up.

why was i there? like i said before, i tried to drown myself...

o, and croft fucked his ex three times, and made her cum four. i hope it makes you feel like more of a man. and i do hope that she gives better blow jobs than me. because you'll never have this again.

i really wanted to hurt him. physically. i hit him. stupid ex bitch threatened to call the cops on me. a friend came and took me to the hospital because i knew i was going to hurt someone.

and well, thats about it. they tried to keep me at the hospital, but i said no. im home now. missed two days of work. and im pretty fucked. went to therapy today. they want me to go into a partial outpatient program, but i just don't see that happening.

tonight, i am alone. i made burritos and im watching ghost hunters. and not drinking. i need to get my shit together. i need to move the fuck out as soon as possible. this was a wake up call. and im really ready to go.

and oh say you'll miss me
one last time
and i'll be strong
whatever you do
please don't get me rescued

-sassie!