You shouldn't ever be afraid of a relationship ending. Of course it's going to end. No one lives forever. Every relationship, like everything else in the world, has a life expectancy. Every day is a different part of that life expectancy and should be enjoyed as it's own experience. Cause there'll never be another day like it. Don't be sad that this stage of your relationship ended, be happy you experienced all of it thus far and will experience other aspects of it as it evolves. Just as you still the relationship with Sean today.

wow , and all this time i thought you were just some pretty face on the internet , but now i know your one tough cookie.......with a pretty face. i truely wish you good luck and all the best in your future

Hey! Enjoy your time back home with your family!
Ok!

That was good

As a male that has never had to go through being physically abused or raped it is difficult for me to understand what you have been through and I probably never will.......
I lost my older sister to an abusive boyfriend, strangled while she slept. A crime of passion the judge called it.
For the life of me I cannot understand why some men do this to their girlfriends/wives.

I certainly hope you are able to get through the next few weeks and you are able to get your family to understand your situation......

From your blogs it seems you are an eloquent and intelligent woman with a heart full of love and integrity......
we are the fortunate ones to have you on this site which has allowed us to interact and get to know you a little and now, with this latest blog, to understand what makes you, you.

Please keep blogging....

((hugs)) you're a strong person to have survived all that.

Big hug!

I understand better the flurry - the storm I have sensed around you.
Memory and wishing is both a blessing and a curse.
I think I am healthiest when I look to the moment as it happens.
Some say that lowers my expectation -
in my case - maybe more good than bad thing ?
A better vantage to see and possibly learn ?
Always be interested in something.

be well

I love you, im going to read this blog later, i just had a quick read. xxx

Respect. It takes guts, and a lot of strength, to write these kind of blogs, exposing parts of yourself to the world. You have a hard road, but it looks like you keep making choices that make it better, and that you have the balls to come out on top. .

Take care of yourself and enjoy being back in the u.k.!

wow... power - fucking - full .... for this reason I cannot see you just sitting in your flat and not doing anything... you get out and enjoy life...

when i got to the part about rape, my body tensed and my nostriles flared, and my mind went red. nobody, NOBODY should ever have to deal with that. people who rape others and then dont even feel the slightest guilt about it are lower them murderers and are lower then the scum of the earth, they deserve a painful slow death. our hearts are always with you, no matter wear you are. we are always here for you and we will always be here. no matter where you are, you are in our hearts and in our minds, you are a one of a kind girl who deserves the best. dont let anyone ever put you down.

choose!!!!!!!!!

I wish you the best in things to come and I understand what you are trying to convey here in this blog.
I absolutely do not pity nor feel sorry for you when I say these things.
I am just reading honest truths from a very strong, beautiful woman.

Take care!