Massive ramble blog. Need to get a few things off my chest!

I am really pissed off and upset. I really want to do another degree so that I have the prospects for a life long full filling career.

I have got a BA (Hons) Photography degree and I finished in 2010. Since then I have struggled by with working for free and getting experience and it has just made me realise that anyone and everyone can do it, hence I just cannot get a job and I think I have fallen out of love with it now.

I then thought why not try and combine my interest of science and photography, so I began to try and find work experience even just a chat with Forensics teams/Police around London and the UK, then the Forensic Science service disbanded and now there is too many graduates/experienced jobless people so I haven't had any luck there either.

So the over the last few months I have decided to try and follow my childhood dream of becoming a Vet. I decided at 17 not to pursue this career just yet as I didn't feel ready/mature enough, and I lacked the self confidence (I always thought I wasn't clever enough)
I started doing some research, It would take me a long time and it meant be a student again for the next 5/6 years and graduating again when I would be about 30 years old,which was daunting enough but I really want this.

After looking around at all the courses (which aren't many) I finally decided to go for it. I would have to go to college in September for a year to do a Higher Education access course in Science which would allow me to have that final qualification to apply to Veterinary Medicine.

I knew that having a previous degree would mean I might not get full loans, but I knew either doing Vet. Medicine/Medicine/Dentistry is an 'exceptional' course meaning I would get help and also I am a mature student not supported by my parents anymore.

I rang Student Finance today and they confirmed my worse fears, I wouldn't be eligible for ANY help towards tuition fees. Which now due to the government cutting funding higher education therefore tuition fees going up. I pretty much knew that I wouldn't get much towards fees but to get NOTHING! Fee's are now £9000 a year and times that by 5 years.... £45,000!!!! Which is impossible to even save for. I think I wouldn't be as distraught if fees were still around the £3,500 mark because at least then you can try and save something and make a small dent but with £9,000 is impossible.

This country is taking a step backwards. When my parents were young only people with rich parents went to uni and then the government made it possible for anyone and everyone to go to uni. Now it has gone back again. I feel greedy for moaning as I have already had an incredible opportunity to go to Uni and now I want to go back! It is because I really want to do something worth while and to make a difference and now I will not be able to have that opportunity.

Life blows right now.
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