Sadie aka Tessa our angel is no longer with us. She past away early Sunday August 17th, 2008 . There will be a service in her favorite city of San Francisco, CA on 4200 Geary Boulevard at the Funeral Home of Ashley & McMullen @ 2:00 PM to 3:00 PM on Thursday the 21st so please if you loved our Sadie, our special girl, feel free to pay your respects that afternoon.

"edit" Sorry that I did not post the funeral times sooner, this is Sadie's sister. Thank you all for your comments. "edit"

Hey everybody!
I bought a new pair shoes but always have problem with shoes and they rub agaisnt my heels with makes them painful to wear. Which results in me wearing my old shoes but i hope i get used to these shoes. I need to get some new socks but they seem to expensive its a conspirciay between the sock and shoe industry. i want more friends anyway in the bayarea down for a movie night of a small amount of people. let me know

Well birthday week is over. My mom came to visit me for the week of birthday which was cool cause the museums have all their free days during the first week of the month. We went to the asian art museum and the MoMa. There were huge lines at both of them and main exhibits had even more lines. I'm not used to being in crowed envirionments like that and they can really give me social anxiety and enduce unwanted unpleasant emotions sometimes. But it always surprised how cold people can get when theres tons of peoples around how oblivious everyone is to how hard large groups of people are for me but which all that put aside. I got to see the much anticipated Frida Kahlo exhibit and i had one of those little audio devices that tells you more about certain peices art so I learned alot more about her as a person and not just art. I like things like that i just wish there had been less people around i think i would have given a better opportunity to see everything in a relaxing matter. Its hard to find shoes i like that provide prolonged support with out looking like i'm wearing some big ol sports shoe. But on the night of birthday i got go one of favorite that i never get to go and maggie mudds a great place for fresh vegan ice cream i had the dairy free oatmeal cookie dough interesting but good. happy birthday to all you LEO's out there. sadie

todays my birthday I saw a movie and i'm going out to dinner later

my birthdays on Monday yay!

i saw "HANCOCK" and "HELLBOY 2", I liked them both so I can't really decide which one was "better". I'm feeling alot of pressure from family and people around me to be happy and normal and just "enjoy life". But it's easier said than done in my case. I mean I feel like the only thing that I really enjoy and this may sound sad and pathetic and probably most of all lazy. But I really just enjoy watching tv and living vicariously through others fictional lives. I'm not very good around people I also fumble my words and end up saying the wrong things. I mean i've been alone so much through out my life that I don't really enjoy other people that just muck things and talk over my tv shows and dvds. I'm very unhappy with my physical apperance these days too I've gained alot weight because of my medication which makes me want to stop taking it. But its not so easy cause i've been taking it for so many years. I wish sometimes I could rewind and stop myself at that one point in my life a few years ago when everything took a turn for the worse. but I know that can't happen.

Man i feel like no one reads this not that i'm praying for more viewers on my page but I feel lonely in real life and on the web. Its such a lonely life.

I think its the hottest day of the year today or something its soo hot today. I"m sitting here at my laptop with a fan on high right next to me. I went out for a bit today got some iced tea and looked around at the juneteenth festival in the civic center today. I got some free things like a canvas tote and some random pens and shite. I worked almost everday this week and i think i'm actually getting fatter ugggggh why wont this weight come off. I guess i'll just have to try harder and work out longer but i really hate the sweating part of it i know that sounds "princess like" but whatever i've got a little diva in me. also vh1 needs to get with it on there programing i felt like they played "i love the 80's" marathon last weekend. If you can't tell i'm bored cause its too hott outside to frolic around. blah blah blah

whats in your playlist? i just got a gift card to itunes

i'm bored

off to party