SuicideGirl: Sadie
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Sadie .

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JULY 19, 2008 @ 08:07 PM

i saw "HANCOCK" and "HELLBOY 2", I liked them both so I can't really decide which one was "better". I'm feeling alot of pressure from family and people around me to be happy and normal and just "enjoy life". But it's easier said than done in my case. I mean I feel like the only thing that I really enjoy and this may sound sad and pathetic and probably most of all lazy. But I really just enjoy watching tv and living vicariously through others fictional lives. I'm not very good around people I also fumble my words and end up saying the wrong things. I mean i've been alone so much through out my life that I don't really enjoy other people that just muck things and talk over my tv shows and dvds. I'm very unhappy with my physical apperance these days too I've gained alot weight because of my medication which makes me want to stop taking it. But its not so easy cause i've been taking it for so many years. I wish sometimes I could rewind and stop myself at that one point in my life a few years ago when everything took a turn for the worse. but I know that can't happen.
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ron4164

ron4164

Ponchatoula, LA
January 2007

JUL 19, 2008 09:45 PM

Ooh...I know what you mean Sadie.
I have trouble around people too.
If you can survive doing what you like. Good for you. smile
Take care. Glad you enjoyed the movies you went to.
Have a nice day ok sweetie. kiss kiss

mellon

mellon

Tucson, AZ
October 2004

JUL 19, 2008 10:41 PM

TV is great anesthesia. It's not pathetic, and I don't think it's useful to call it lazy either. Life is suffering. Stuff that takes your mind off of that is nice, but it does stop you from getting the essence out of life. So if you feel like you're abusing it, try to find a way to motivate yourself to stop.

As for saying the wrong things, you're allowed to not talk. And you're allowed to say what you think, even if it's not what the other person wants to hear. Just spend the effort to make sure that what you say is worth saying, and then when someone disses you for saying it, you can hold your head high.

And if what you really wanted was for someone to approve of what you said, well, that's a major crap shoot, and it's bad for you and bad for them. It's bad for you because you lose respect for yourself when you say something not true in hopes of getting someone to like you. And it's bad for them not only because you're not telling them who you are, but also because you're helping them to believe something about them that you don't believe.

Also, everybody says stupid things. Unless the person you're talking to is an asshole, if you just let the dumb thing that came out of your mouth drop, they'll let it drop too. You don't have to explain or apologize - they see the look on your face, and they get it.

You can't turn back the clock, but life can take a turn for the better at any time up 'til the point where you die. But it's more likely to take a turn for the better if you're trying to do something cool with it.

Anyway, sorry to dump a bunch of unasked-for observations on you, but I'm a busybody. I hope things turn for the better for you soon.

RexArenn

RexArenn

Los Gatos, CA
April 2008

JUL 19, 2008 11:22 PM

Best moment in Hellboy II... "I'm not a baby, I'm a TUMOR!" Funny yet creepy. surreal biggrin puke

If you haven't checked out Pushing Daisies before, I recommend you do once it's back on in the fall. For some reason, it really made an impression on me as a quirky and sickly sweet show with some real unusual characters. The prototypical television series for vicarious living and escape.

When I met you at Prom months back, you seemed to be having a good time and were very sociable and NOT FUMBLING. I know we tend to look at our "faults" under a highly scrutinizing microscope, but know that I had a fun time talking and getting to know you.
smile

Metaverse

Metaverse

Portland, OR
March 2005

JUL 19, 2008 11:52 PM

Being an only child I've spent alot of time alone myself. I enjoy my solitude most of the time. But I do get lonely just like most do at times as well. Do what you want to do, what other people want doesn't matter.All I did today was sleep, watch tv and play on the computer all day and night lol. I took the day off from working out and doing anything else smile

Sabine

Sabine

SUICIDEGIRL

Michigan, USA

JUL 20, 2008 12:21 AM

I tend to stay away for weeks a time so when I come back there are at least a few sets I get really excited about.

I've been in a kinda similar sounding slump lately. Seems like mostly all I do is sit around, watch tv, and play on the internet. I'm also on medication that I hate the side-effects of. It helps improve my mood, but I have bad physical side-effects. I've gained weight too... but it would be hard to get off the medicine.

Yuriel

Yuriel

I'm lost
January 2004

JUL 20, 2008 02:06 PM

I wouldn't wish those thoughts upon any but the worst of foes, or perhaps those who think I am nothing more than too dramatic and weak. ^_^

Sometimes vicariously is the only means to which we have left to express enjoy or experience, as timid a means as it may be.

Hellboy 2 was as expected, just plain fun smile

Ask about a medication that doesn't cause such a drastic weight gain as an alternative therapy perhaps? Or something to counter that effect. IDK myself, but if the change is so dramatic... there's probably a countermethod of some sort.

I am awful with words and people, I fumble both, and frequently, and they are easily exploited twisted or used against me.
I grew quite used to it, long ago.

And some tv is ok tongue
Very little, but some biggrin

mad love

and see... not that lonely the internets people love ya ! smile hehe. I tend to jest about such things, although judging from the reactions they care quite a bit smile

EL SUICIDO LOCO

legman

legman

Portland, OR
February 2006

JUL 20, 2008 03:27 PM

""HELLBOY 2" is automatically better, because HELLBOY IS AWESOME! biggrin wink

"I'm not very good around people I also fumble my words"


that sounds like me!

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