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MAY 6, 2008 @ 06:59 AM

On being the world's biggest liar

Sometimes, I like to get very technical about my 'practice' ... to get on my very high moral Clydesdale and imagine that what I am doing is real 'practice' - action oriented towards a social good. Social goods I endlessly articulate, virtues grounded in rights. I read, I write, and I teach. I teach human rights frameworks to human service delivery workers; I tell social workers why they can't take that baby a la a Rotweiller, policy makers why they can't 'save the natives in spite of themselves', youth workers why they can't 'scare their kids straight'. I like to imagine, high up there in my ivory tower that I am making a difference, that the world is blessed with my awe inspiring incipient capacities. That when I slide out of my phallic institutional tower into the real world to deliver community based education programmes teaching people with intellectual disabilities what their rights are in residential units, that I'm real. Unlike all those other academics, I lie, I'm real. I'm down with the real world. I am useful. I am practicing.

Fleetingly, I catch my reflecting in the mirror. Downloading Limp Bizcuit clips from Youtube to teach snot nose first year shits about subcultural normativity. I suck donkey balls.

I see if I can get Ollie to draw you a picture of that. Until then, enjoy

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And in the spirit of sharing, what's your biggest lie???

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luckyoldsun

luckyoldsun

Rochester, NY
September 2005

MAY 07, 2008 07:49 AM


You always remember the truth you never remember a lie. That is why a lier always get trapped in there lies.

Always try to make a difference in your world and the world around you.



smile smile love love

sitandspin

sitandspin

Brooklyn, NY
June 2004

MAY 07, 2008 08:57 AM

There've been too many for me to decide. I lie like I breathe, once every day.

But that's a lie.


But I know what you mean about thinking you make a difference. Teaching is all about deluding yourself into the "I help form young minds" kind of vibe, when really you're just showing them how to pass tests and properly cite sources in format.

BeeStealer

BeeStealer

United Kingdom
August 2006

MAY 07, 2008 09:49 AM

I guess it would have to be: Allowing people to think and or think they know typed internet blogs and posts are at all a representation of how I actually am in 'real time'. I wonder how much Final Fantasy VII would be different if you were forced to play it like Half Life 2 and just for the hell of it... visa versa. tongue

Missaphex

Missaphex

SUICIDEGIRL

I'm lost

MAY 07, 2008 02:08 PM

love

flaneur

flaneur

United Kingdom
January 2003

MAY 07, 2008 02:19 PM

I love your incisions so hard.

chuba

chuba

New York, NY
May 2005

MAY 08, 2008 08:27 AM

You kiddin? I'm American...I'm Native American, I live in a city, I'm marrying a white girl, I wear a suit to work, My individual debts are 5 times my actual assets, I'm good at video games, I'm an actor who's willing to do commercials.
Baby, this is America. Now that we failed in our attempts to become a full empire, lies are all we got left.

lavenir

lavenir

Turlock, CA
June 2007

MAY 10, 2008 09:17 PM

Posh? Look, she's a very attractive young woman, but you have certain attributes all your own. Geesh.

knumpcy

knumpcy

Nashville, TN
August 2004

MAY 11, 2008 06:44 AM

That the world will someday be as one....

eggmcgreg

eggmcgreg

Australia
September 2007

MAY 11, 2008 07:06 AM

How do you measure the size of a lie?

Maybe it is just me, but I wouldn't call existing in two places in different ways a lie (or, if it is a lie, it is a necessary one). One can and should only show so much of oneself in most situations - pearls before swine and all that. And, if doing the academic stuff gets those students something in the limited time you have with them, well it is better than nought.

To me it sounds like you are aware of the incongruity between what you know you are and what others see. That's a hell of a lot better (and honest) than living in happy illusion.

So, I agree with some of the commenters that the biggest lies are generally those you tell yourself. They may, however, not be the most hurtful.....

And as for me, well where do I start?

Presto5000

Presto5000

New London, CT
January 2008

MAY 12, 2008 05:12 PM

Wow that post really made me think... How can you be lying, though? You definitely matter and you are real. People are counting on you for advice. If you aren't happy enough with where you are, though, THAT'S the biggest problem. The only thing that matters in the end (no matter what culture wants us to believe about the importance of what others think) is if you believe that what you are doing is important to YOU.

My biggest lie is always that I am tough: tough enough to completely erase people from my life because of a falling out. Yes I give them the cold shoulder, no we probably would not get along if we ever talked again, but every time I walk by a group of them (because they all tend to become friends with each other...) the pain kicks right back in. I have a lot of enemies to show for 19 years of life, and I will never be really proud of this.

-- Julia

flaneur

flaneur

United Kingdom
January 2003

MAY 13, 2008 02:32 PM

See, my last comment *wasn't* a lie. That's how that works.

Twelve

Twelve

Bay City, MI
April 2007

MAY 13, 2008 09:58 PM

That makes me curious about what your job is.

I dated a girl for like 5 years that I never really liked. That was a pretty big lie I suppose.

maleficentmoi

maleficentmoi

I'm lost
April 2003

MAY 14, 2008 04:46 PM

Biggest lie: I'm fine, thanks. I say that all the time.

Davidle1

Davidle1

Hammond, IN
October 2005

MAY 15, 2008 08:16 PM

Wow I think you really are making a Difference. You sound very intelligent and Iam sure you are doing more good then you realize. OH on a side note before reading your blog guess what I have posted on my blog???


A UTUBE CLIP OF LIMP "NOOKIE". I like a lot of there songs....I don't know much about the bands personal lives and honestly I don't care. I just like some of the songs and the lyrics. About your pic DAM YOU LOOK GOOD.

SoCal_Drew

SoCal_Drew

San Diego, CA
August 2006

MAY 17, 2008 03:32 PM

Hi biggrin
tongue kiss kiss

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