Wow anyone see the new movie The Grudge, if you think it looks cheesy your wrong, its the creepiest movie I've seen in a long time. Now its definately not gory, but I'm not into gore movies I'm sure though alot of people on this site are. To me the moives without all the fake blood and guts, the ones that are just real eerie, those are the worst, and this movie is pretty damn eerie, I'm still creeped out by it, I reccomend seeing it. Well Happy Halloween to everyone, its me and my husbands second anniversery, yeah we made it!
Love Ryder

This is the second time I've gotten an update note! I'm soooo bad at updating my journal, but then again I am one busy girl. So I'm really think hard on names, the only one I have is Blue which I've always actually wanted to change my name to, so I really love that name but I don't know if I want to use it as a first or middle name, anyways any suggestions? In other uneventful news the so called Misfits were out in Concord,CA last Friday, anyone catch them? We were gonna go but first it was only Jerry Only as the one original member, and it was twenty fucking dollars, yeah right thats what really made up our minds, theres no way I'm paying twenty dollars for a show, unless it was the actual band, like the real Misfits. Also though GBH is coming out to SF I think sometime soon, my husband wants to see that show, I'm just not sure if I'll have fun being pregnant at a punk show, its not the calmest environment! Well see, more than anything I just can't stay up past ten o'clock, sad isn't it, but nine comes around and I'm exhausted. But if anyones planning on going let me know I'm still considering it, cause its GBH, and thease bands aren't gonna be around much longer.
xoxoxo,
Ryder

Wow I'm still floating on a cloud with the good news we just recieved from the doctor the other day. We went in for our 20 week ultrasound appointment last week, to see if everything was alright and possibly find out the gender. I was such a nervous wreck, but we were told we have a healthy baby girl, seeing her move around and kick brought me to tears, it really is the most amazing thing. On a lower note however I started back school this Monday, and it sucks! All my classes this quarter are very text book, already I have to read about 4 chapters in all four of my classes, but I'll get through it, I just keep reminding myself after this I get almost 6 monthes off, to just be a new mommy. So my husband said he'd take pictures of me at 8 months if I want, we just need to get a better camera. Hey Christmas is always a possibility! Anyways love you all, xoxoxo,
Ryder

I just checked in yesterday to see my comments for my last entry, and was completely shocked to see my set had finially gone up. I haven't seen those pictures since we took them, and my body is definately not looking like that right now, I'm not far too tiny anywere right now! But I couldn't be happier, I absolutely am loving my pregnant body, and yes I'm considering doing a big ass belly shoot right when I'm at my prime of 8 monthes, if they'll accept it. I want to thank everyone who sent congrats and well being on the baby, and all the other good comments, this site definately does do a girls mind good! Love,
Ryder

Schools over, so for a couple of weeks I get to actually breathe, than back to homework hell. This is the last quarter I'm doing though than after I'm taking two off to have the baby and just be a stay at home mom, I can't wait. I will finish school, I have to I promised myself I would, but I have to take some time off, there's no way I'm having the baby then two weeks later going back to school. The new puppy is doing great, my older dog Asia is finally getting used to him, at first she was not happy about the addition, that's cause she's used to being one spoiled bitch! That's what I love about her though, she does this thing were while the puppy is trying to play with her, she shows her teeth and her lip goes up in a snarl, and she makes the funniest noies, I swear I can just sit and watch her be the old grump with him for ever. Anyways in about two weeks we'll find out if there's a boy or girl in my stomach, I don't care I just pray for a healthy baby.
I'll keep you all updated.
Love, Ryder

Well since I only do an entry like once a month I better make this good right! well lets see I went to The Cure concert in SF at SBC park, honestly it wasn't as great as I was expecting, I guess mostly because concerts really aren't the best environment for pregnant girls. It seemed like every damn person was smoking around me, also the concert went on from 5:00 to 11:00pm, and we stupidly got there right at 5:00, so it ws just tooo long for me. I really was unaware of the other bands playing, I wasn't that impressed by any of them anyways. Seeing The Cure did make it worth it though, they played alot of their new stuff, but at the end they did an encore of all my favorites, Closer, Lovecats, Why Can't I be you, and a couple others, so that was definately the best part. Oh yeah we just adopted a little puppy, he's a pitbull and he's completely white, he's the cutest thing. We haven't named him yet but we're working on it. In baby news I'm just now four months, I'm starting to get a belly, and not fitting in most of my clothes! I'm looking forward to felling the baby move, and soon even finding out what were having, I'll keep you all updated.
xoxo,
Ryder

I swear I'm so exhausted today, it's already afternoon, and I just got up, thats horrible, I'm sooo lazy! Anyways, out in the city I've been seeing some charged out punks lately, I mean real punks not clean cut plug wereing, perfect tatoos, Good Charlotte style punks. I saw this one chick with her head all shaved, decked out in gear, carrying her life in a black backpack like a true squatter, it was great I love seeing people like that, even though I know the scene is completely dead. Speaking of which my husband was checking out a Misfits website, and I don't know if this is true or not but supposedly Jerry Only is trying to get Danzig to get the old Misfits back together, which I'm sure many of us fans would love. Misfits are definately one band I'd love to see, that and The Cure which we just got ticktets to see out in SF, I'm so excited, its probly their last concert over seas. Anyone else going?Well in baby news I'm already starting to show, so there won't be any new nude pictures going up for about nine to ten months, depends how long it takes for me to get back in shape. Has any SG girl done a pregnant set? I wonder if anyone would actually want to see that, I personally think women pregnant are at their most beautiful, but that could just be me.
Let me know your thoughts anyone,
xoxoxo,Ryder

Wow, 10 comments for my last journal entry, you guys must really love me. Thanx so much for everyone who wished me a happy birthday, it meant alot to me. It was an alright day, altough I was at school all day, but when I got home my husband took me out to dinner, which was wonderful. Then I came home to a little suprise party, so in the end it was a great day spent with the people I love.

I know it's about damn time I made a new journal entry! There's just been so much going on im my life, I started back school three weeks ago, and my classes are so hard, I'm doing homework every second of the day. Oh and I'm also throwing up every other second, did anyone else feel this crappy during the first months? I really appreciate everyone who wrote congrats to me, I love you all. xoxoxox,
Ryder